It's a limited time, but I love you so much.
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A rainy day.
A day when rain falls on my heart too.
A day that leaves a lingering regret, even in my eyes, when rain falls.
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Yeoju City Point
"No, why are you suddenly doing that?"
"Are you asking me what I mean?"
"Oh, what did I do wrong? What did I do?"
"Oh, shit. Why are you so clueless?"
"..."
swear word...
No matter how much we argue or fight, we decided not to swear...
"Hey. I'm sick of you. You're annoying. You know that?"
"under..."
"This is my last request. Let's break up."
Huh... Your last request is to break up?
"Hey, don't you think about the other person? That's right. You can't think, right? That's why your request is like this."
"What? Hey, are you done talking?"
"No, I didn't finish it."
"Ha... Okay. Go ahead."
"Hey, I have a favor to ask."
"..."
"Let me just slap you on the cheek."
Crack-!
I was sorry, but it felt a little bit better.
But, I think it's really over with Jimin now
It was frustrating, annoying, and just a complicated feeling that I can't quite put into words.
"You did me a favor, so I'll do yours too. Let's break up."
"Okay, bye. Let's never meet again."
"...pup."
He came out swearing.
It's so vain,
The time we spent together disappeared in an instant like this.
I feel so empty that I could die,
Thanks to the regret that if only I had treated you a little better, a little better, this breakup wouldn't have happened,
Thanks to my heart that hurts so much.
I sit down and cry.
I feel like I'm going to go crazy if I don't do this.
People gossip about me, but I honestly feel like I'm going to die if I don't do this.
Knock... knock... knock...
Really... God is cruel to the end.
And please make it rain.
Thanks to you, I'll be soaking wet and look like a crazy bitch
But what can I do when the pain doesn't go away even when I get wet in the rain...
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Jimin's past perspective
"...there is no solution as of now."
"yes?"
"It's such a shame for the young person... This disease is one in which the sufferer doesn't feel pain well."
"If it were acquired, there would have been some kind of symptom, but if it's innate..."
"Congenital diseases don't feel pain until right before death... Why did you come now?"
"ah.."
"If you get admitted now, I think you'll be able to live for about 2-3 months."
"..."
"If you refuse hospitalization, I think you can live for three weeks at the longest, or 13 days at the shortest."
Heart disease?
No matter how you look at it, you're so healthy, but you have heart disease?
heart disease...
I have a limited time left?
Please don't talk nonsense,
I haven't even proposed to the female lead yet...
"Are you going to be admitted to the hospital?"
"Can I do it later..?"
"Ah.. yes, you can do it later, but you must be hospitalized within a week."
"... thank you."
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"The door is open."
Why do you have to tell me, God?
Why now, God?
Did I live that badly?
Oh please, just save me once.
That's because I've done a lot of wrong to that woman.
Please save me just once
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Jimin's current point of view
It's raining
"Ugh, ugh.. ah."
"Ha... Don't cry, Park Jimin..."
"Ugh... ugh.., haa..,, ugh.."
But still...
Wait, I'm really breaking up with the heroine for a little while.
wee...
"Damn... just for a little while, it's a lifetime..."
Yeojuya
Am I right in my choice?
Sorry...
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Yeoju City Point
It's been three weeks since I broke up with Park Jimin.
How has Park Jimin been living all this time?
Haven't you been thinking of me all this time?
I wonder if I'm sick, very complicated thoughts are running through my head.
Oh, I really want to see it..
Ring ring
"hello?"
"Are you Ms. Woo Yeo-ju?"
"? Yes, that's right, but why?"
"Patient Park Jimin is in critical condition."
"yes?"
"Which hospital is it?"
"This is Somang Hospital."
Stop.
I put on my crumpled shoes and ran to the hospital.
I ran like crazy.
I fell down in the middle, but I got up right away and ran to the hospital.
I ran like crazy and barely made it here.
Why are you doing that?
"hey!"
"yes?"
"Park Jimin, it's Park Jimin."
"Oh, go to the emergency room."
"jimin park...!!"
I saw your surprised face.
It seemed like he was asking why I was here and how I got here.
He was so gaunt and thin that it made people frown.
If I had held on to you back then and not let you go, you wouldn't have had such a hard time, right?
"..?"
Even speaking seemed too difficult.
Only three weeks have passed
Why didn't you call me, Jimin?
It's so sad
"Jimin, why are you like this...? Is it because of me? Why are you like this, huh? Why are you like this?"
"Hey lady"
Jimin spoke to me with great difficulty.
He said this with a sound close to a crack in his throat.
"Sorry"
"I'm so sorry..."
Then, Jimin spoke to me with his lips, as if he had difficulty even making a sound.
'love you'
"ah"
"Jimin? Jimin! Why are you like this, Park Jimin!! Wake up, wake up!! Jimin!"
"..Park Jimin has passed away."
"... He was supposed to live for only two weeks because he refused hospitalization... but he lived for one week longer."
"..."
"If only I had gotten a health checkup sooner..."
"......."
".. I pray for the repose of the deceased's soul."
"Please don't call him dead. Our Jimin isn't dead. Look, he's alive."
"..."
"Jimin isn't dead, really. Please... he's not dead.."
He cried out loud.
I held Jimin's hand and cried,
And I screamed loudly,
He cried out, grabbing the doctor by the collar.
Why is everyone saying Jimin is dead?
You're still alive...
"Please calm down and leave. We need to remove the body."
The nurse next to me said.
I got so angry as soon as I heard that.
So I swung my fist.
He scratched with his fingernails and bit his arm.
It was really fucked up, even though I was stopped by the hospital staff.
"Patient!! Calm down, calm down."
"Your boyfriend is watching, so you should only show him your pretty side."
".. after"
I took a long sigh.
Jimin was moved to another place.
It's so frustrating that I can't do anything, and that makes me so sad.
I just sat down and cried.
The doctor sighed deeply, sat down next to me, and spoke to me.
"You must be having a hard time, right? I'm having a hard time too. This is the first time I've seen a patient die."
"I'm not dead.."
"Oh, I'm sorry, I was rude."
The doctor and I had a long silence.
Then the doctor spoke first.
"Don't be too sad though, your boyfriend probably doesn't want that either."
"My name is Kim Namjoon. Come see me anytime you need help."
The doctor left me with a letter in his hand.
I didn't even know if I had a letter in my hand or not, so I just sat down and cried.
Until just before dehydration.
Why are you dead already?
Why are you leaving me already?
Why already...
I remember the way you smiled, the way you talked to me, and even the way you were embarrassed.
It's so vivid, I can't even remember a single thing.
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3 months later
It's already been three months since Jimin left me.
During that time, I held Jimin's funeral, organized Jimin's belongings and photos, and went about my daily life, even though it was very difficult.
I cried countless times during that process.
Then he collapsed and suffered from malnutrition.
Of course, I lost a lot of weight and became underweight.
Ha... This is so hard.
"Jimin... I'm doing well, right? It's been so hard these days."
“Because you’re not here, I don’t know what’s going on and I feel like I’m just living my life thinking about you.”
"I've thought a lot about following you to heaven, but then you won't have anyone to come and visit you every time you die."
"So I'm holding on tight and waiting for time to pass quickly."
"Did I do well?"
"But aren't you really going too far? How could you not appear in my dreams even once?"
"There's no will either..."
history?
At that moment, a letter a doctor had given me three months ago came to mind.
Why didn't I see that until now...
To. Yeoju
Hi, Yeoju. It's Jimin. Ugh, something feels off.
But since this is my last letter... I'll hold back and write it.
When the heroine sees this letter, I'll be in heaven. I'm so sorry I had to go first.
I loved you, Yeoju, without fail, for every single moment, and of course, I never, ever looked at anyone else. Really.
I wanted to say only nice things to Yeo-ju and show only my good side, but that didn't work out today.
Now, since this is truly the last time, I'll write down everything I wanted to say. I don't know if the letter will be that long..! Our Yeoju was so pretty, cute, and lovable, and she was such a precious person, so I'm sorry that I couldn't take better care of her. Yeoju, when I leave you, don't be hard or hurt. I'm so sorry for leaving you like this.
I remember every word we said, every action we took, even every single facial expression. Remember when we first met, it was so good? Oh, I'm sorry. I tried not to cry, but I did. My tears are probably soaking the letter... I'm really sorry, Yeoju. I'll hold it in and try not to get wet. Yeoju, I'll be waiting in heaven, so please come slowly no matter what. I don't want you to come quickly. I'll walk to heaven as slowly as possible, and I hope you meet good people and only have good situations.
I want to write more, but I feel like I really can't control my emotions, so I'll stop here. Yeoju, I love you so much, and I love you again. See you in heaven later. I'll wait.
From. Jimin
"Me, ugh,. I also slurp a lot,.. I love you"
I'm really nervous because it's my first work😖😖
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I carefully reviewed it after writing it and even ran it through a spell checker, but since it was done manually, there may inevitably be typos.
Also, this work came from my imagination.
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