Somehow, I thought today wasn't going to be a very good day. The weather was gloomy. The umbrella was broken. Soon, water droplets began to form on the window, one by one.
" ha... "
I could only sigh. The rain was falling harder and harder. Still, nothing was more important to me than you, so I quickly checked your text, got ready, and headed outside. Those tiny raindrops soon soaked the ground, making it difficult for me to get to our meeting place.
"I have to go"
As I took a step, two steps, toward the thing that meant the most to me, the thing that gave me meaning in life, the thing that made it possible for me to get through each day, an inexplicable anxiety washed over me. Why?
[ 2 ] Because it's my first time,
I finally arrived at the cafe, and your expression didn't look so good. Was something sad happening? Could I possibly lighten your burden? A thousand thoughts filled my head.
"I'm here. It rained so hard that I'm a little late. Sorry."
Despite my apology, you sat there silently. Like a man in a daze, you sat there for a long time. As if you had no other choice, you bought me a drink. After accepting it, your lips finally parted.
"Let's stop it"
It really felt like a lie. No, maybe I was praying it was a lie. Breaking up with you was something I never imagined, and I didn't know if I could let you go or understand when that moment came. But now that it's happening, I know.
"Why?"
I think I can understand you. But I wanted to know why. I would die to hear it, but you wouldn't open your mouth.
"Okay, I get it. But I hope you don't regret it."
I hope you don't regret driving such a big nail into my heart.
"You're living this life with that name for the first time. You can make one wrong choice. But in relationships with people, and especially in endings, wrong choices are irreversible."
I wish you could live well, as if you were nothing more than a spectator. I hope you live well even without someone like me.
"Don't get sick, eat well, and don't stay up late playing games, okay?"
"I'm tired of your dating style. No, I'm sick of it."
He nodded, took off the couple ring, placed it on the desk, and packed his bag.
"Thanks for telling me why. Take care."
The tears streaming down my cheeks couldn't be hidden. I didn't love in my head, I didn't regret it. Even though I lied, my heart was true.
" ...rain "
I didn't use an umbrella. I wished people would think my tears were just rainwater, so I cried countless times, but I was always embarrassed to show it to others.
"Everyone cries, and sadness isn't a bad emotion."
Everyone is ashamed of their sadness.
[ 3 ] Just passing by
In fact, I knew all too well how much of your life I would occupy. If your life was 80, I wouldn't even occupy 10 of it. Still, I wanted to give you love, even for that short time. I wanted to act like I couldn't live without you, and I wanted to give you love.
"But I didn't know it would tire you out."
It's always been that way. The moment I fell in love with someone, I felt like I'd die without them. When we lost contact, my heart also broke. I couldn't help it. That's how humans are. Because I was that person.
"People are really strange"
I was so immersed in profound loneliness that if someone were to tap into that loneliness out of curiosity, I'd mistake it for love. So I had to be careful. Do I truly like you, or is it just a fleeting thrill?
And what I felt was true. When you become so certain that you could die for that person, that feeling is called love.
"So how were you?"
Is it love? Is it excitement?
[ 4 ] How I Love
I wanted to love in a way that was uniquely my own, not the kind everyone else did. I thought that if I followed what others did, I'd be imitating someone else's love.
A story that only I can tell, not a story that anyone can tell.
Something only the country can do.
"Things I Could Do for Park Jimin Because I'm Min Yoongi"
A breakup that is the result of mutual understanding, not an ending filled with regret.
A love that breaks free from the mold of being like others.
Tears are shed but not held back,
The last one is that they end up walking away from love while having everything in common.
"This is how I love"
You are still beautiful
Just like that day, without saying a word
Just hug me
I survived in hell
It wasn't for me, but rather
It's for you
If you know, don't hesitate
please save my life
I'm thirsty in the desert I've been wandering through without you
So hurry up and catch me
The sea without you is ultimately
I know it's going to be like a desert
BTS - Make it right
Even though they knew that the sea without each other was ultimately the same desert they had originally walked on, they had to walk on a dry desert as a result of understanding each other. I'm not good at writing, so I think there will be many parts that you don't understand because I tried to write short stories. If you leave a comment, I will reply diligently, so if you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask :) (Spelling and typos are always welcome! But please speak politely ㅠㅠ)
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