I know the guys ordered pizza today. I miss all the home-cooked food, being constantly offered fresh fruit. I was thinking about whether I should go get a slice and wait for their video call. Lately, my friends don't even feel like coming over to my room, and I understand it's my fault because I really don't want to be without Baby.
She sends me messages in the mornings, voice notes, because she's not very good at writing her thoughts down properly. We video chat before going to sleep; she likes seeing my face and hearing my voice then. Every day she tells me she loves me before ending the call. She's been trying to follow her teacher's singing instructions, but she's finding it difficult with just a video. With Jungkook's help, she tries other methods, but she realizes her voice is failing her, and the teacher doesn't know what's wrong because she can't do what he asks. PD said she'll fix it when she can return to Seoul for proper training.
With that in mind, I got up and listened to them talking. Baby was the topic, so I stayed to hear what they were saying. I knew that the boys were still friendly with her from time to time. She'd already told me who called her or if she talked to my mom to see how my family was doing. Their shared interest in cooking had brought them close. My mom always reminds me to call her because she can tell she's genuinely worried about whether I'm okay and eating properly, but I don't feel like she's using her to win me over because she has feelings for me.
I don't think my family has noticed anything because even my brother, who's the most worried, has stopped asking me about her. Now I understand why she doesn't talk about me. Baby found a way to create a bond of friendship... maybe not a very strong one because of what they share, but in that time since her arrival, less than a month ago, she had managed to establish a connection with everyone from the beginning. It's nice to see that the people I've learned to respect and value gave her the opportunity to become a friend in this way, and not because I'm the boy she likes.
I also found out that she doesn't hide her feelings from PD or the rest of the group, but no one has come to tell me anything, or ask why I don't accept her feelings, why I don't tell her anything about my feelings. Baby doesn't ask about my past, what kind of girls I'm into; it's something she wants me to tell her... if I ever want to share that information.
The young girl had told me how beautiful the place where she lives was, her desire to see the white snow and play in it. She said the area was a bit far from the city, so it didn't have many amenities, and since she didn't have a car, it was a little difficult to get everything she needed, and although it could even be expensive... well, she had no other choice.
With the good weather she has experienced, the beautiful creations of nature make her forget that she cannot have fresh ingredients or ingredients from her country, Baby learns to cook new things with what she has, to use chopsticks to eat... even when she makes mistakes and everything is a disaster, she has told me without any hesitation everything I wanted to know.
I never imagined that after thinking about everything she shared with me, this feeling of wanting to be with Baby wouldn't stop; I even asked her for photos to see better that she had almost fully recovered.
I thought that the day our schedules separated us, I could handle it calmly and with good humor, because I've never had problems with a relationship through a screen in the past. Of course, it's always better to be able to meet in person, but Baby doesn't even know how I really feel or why I spend so much time locked in my room.
I lost track of time thinking about her, her eyes, her smile, how Baby moves when she feels at home, her new habit of sniffing things, how she takes care of herself and tries not to waste all her time watching television, switching languages without realizing it, seeing her asleep next to me, how that brunette blushes because of me, the feeling of her hands massaging me because she wants to apply some product... and much more.
"WOOOO HOHO! YOONGI!!" someone said, startled. It was Jungkook, who found me in the hallway, completely distracted. "What are you doing there in the dark? I think my heart is going to burst... oh my god..."
- So dramatic, I wanted to grab something to eat and I got distracted by my own thoughts - I said, getting up to head to the kitchen.
"Kookie, what made you scream like a banshee?" Taehyung asked, drying his hands after washing dishes. "Guys, Yoongi came out of his room!"
The rest of the group came to see if it was true, they're so weird sometimes... so I continued on my way to find something I could cook with one hand, at that moment my phone rang and it was Baby, I smiled when I answered the call.
- Hey princess!
- Hey sweetie! Ohhhwwwwy wait a second {the image was moving all over the place like crazy} Okay, ready... oh! Where are you? Do you want me to call you later when you're free?
"I'm in the kitchen looking for my dinner. I can talk and search for you. What were you doing? Is your phone still in one piece?" I mocked her.
- I was trying to take off my socks but I almost fell out of bed, nothing serious... they're warm but I can't sleep with them on and it's actually my tablet, didn't you see I'm talking to you on Skype? - she's trying to stabilize the device.
- Which ones? The new ones you got? And I don't care which app you use to contact me.
-Yes, I've already fallen in love with them, do you want to try them? Although I highly doubt they're dinosaur-sized.
- Hey! Why do I suddenly have dinosaur feet? - I focused on the screen.
"I don't think you even tried to cut those claws yourself... they must be really wild." I looked at them and they were indeed long, but I continued looking for food.
- They're not so bad... surprise, surprise, there's nothing I can cook with one hand in the fridge.
- Did you look in the cupboard? There's bound to be cereal somewhere, and if you have milk, you can happily have dinner.
- That's my last resort, I'd like some real food for a change.
- Ask the guys if they'll lend you a hand. I had hot chocolate and cinnamon rolls that I made myself. It's freezing cold today, so I wanted something delicious.
- They're tired from working all day, unlike someone I know who spent the whole day playing on his phone.
Look at me, I'm still on my phone... the handsome Jin will make you rice and egg rolls, thank him properly or I'll be mean to you...
-I'll do it, besides, the boys are looking at me like I've grown another head...
- I'm sure they've never heard you complain so much to me, Iceman. Why do they consider you a genius?
- I don't do such a thing!... this is how I normally speak
"Who said that? GUYS, CAN YOU HEAR ME?!" They came closer to see her while Jin prepared dinner for me with a big smile on his face.
"Please tell your beloved friend that he's worse than a child and that he's been in that cave called a room for days, letting those Dino claws grow!" They were dying of laughter; Jimin was crying and rolling on the floor.
"You're unfair! Why do you say all those horrible things to me and call Jin beautiful? Do you have any explanation? Since you're supposed to love me so much... And another thing, how did you get me to accept so quickly?"
- Well, he's nice and polite, really... He's truly beautiful... I have to admit it... I'm the fool who decided to fall for you, how can I trust that you won't cast a spell on me?... Oh magnificent Chef Jin, could you show this fool how my request went?
#Feed this pitiful creature, don't ask questions, just give it anything... please 🙇♀️ #
*There's still some rice left, I'll make him an egg roll, haha, don't worry, I'll gladly take care of him 🥰*
# May the gods bless you 😇 1 billion thanks 🙇♀️🙇♀️💜#
- Did I make such a fool of myself on camera? Where did you get that from?
- I think it was on the bus to zombie land... on one of your runs... it was funny... you were so cute back then... what happened to you? ...wait, I'll call you later, they're calling me from home, love you guys! - he hung up leaving me speechless, how annoying.
"I'm glad to see someone manage to make you smile and cheer you up a little," Namjoon said.
- I know I've owed you an apology for a while now, and I know I'm being capricious, but the truth is, I'm worried... the day we signed the agreement to close your case, we ate at a restaurant, while the guard discovered that that bastard was plotting to get photographs of us together... she figured it out because she didn't trust the guy to stay so calm and not have a plan to make money... because we didn't give him a single cent and besides, he can't tell anyone, at least not by mentioning our names, but if they catch us in public... well, that would be another story.
"Man... that was horrible," Hoseok said.
Baby was walking around Daegu alone, both to confront him and to leave. She drank a lot at the restaurant, and it was the first time I'd ever seen her drink like that. When we got to the airport, the security guard made sure I got on the plane before I could do anything or go back to try and convince her to come with me. We just left Baby there alone in the middle of the night, heading off to who knows where... She apologized... She simply regrets that her presence complicated my life... And yet she still takes care of me, calling me every day, telling me she loves me, and even so, I'm not satisfied because, honestly, that princess surprises me... I've tried to get to know her better since then... Baby doesn't complain about being far away, nor does she ignore me by disappearing from my life, even though I'm constantly complaining. The only thing I really want to do is be with her... Didn't you notice? Doesn't she ask you about the snow? Baby spends her time without complaining; she hasn't really experienced many other climates besides summer, even though she's traveled abroad. Sometimes it was more of the same, or she couldn't stand outside... that's why she doesn't know how to sleep in pajamas and is so happy with new socks or hot chocolate for dinner. She spends her time exploring on her own, she has fun finding frozen things because it's so cold, and I'd like to do all that with her... I honestly never imagined that someone could make me feel fascinated by life.
"That sounds like someone's really in love, in my opinion," Jin said as he served me dinner. I thanked him and they let me eat in peace, saying that I didn't need to apologize, but that I should try talking to them instead of locking myself in my room.
Jimi kept me company while I ate dinner because she says it's sad to eat alone and she liked hearing that I was clear about wanting to be with her. Baby seemed like a nice girl to fall in love with, and that meant a lot to me, that she told me so because she never seemed to like my previous choices. Park didn't tell me directly, but I didn't want to be that kind of friend who thinks no one is good enough for me.
Since I'm not the most inclined to look for a partner, I couldn't really understand what I'd want in someone else. Jimin is very different in that respect; he likes to discover if the perfect person exists. Although he's already learned to see when something isn't going to work out long before things get serious, before everything turns horrible and becomes a nightmare for both of us. We talked so much that I didn't even realize Baby had called me again a couple of times.
We said goodnight and I called Baby when I was back in my room alone. It was just a quick call because she had probably already fallen asleep waiting to talk to me, but she answered. I apologized for not paying attention to her calls. She whispered that everything was fine, but that she hadn't had a chance to ask me how I was feeling today or tell me that she still loves me.
"Baby, I wish I could be there, I miss you," I said, a little nervous about her possible response.
I miss you so much too, it's your fault for always being on your phone with me. I want to smell your perfume on my pillow, see you smile in the morning, and ask you for a kiss... even if I know you'll reject me.
- Baby, I... I really wish I could kiss you right now.
- I'll kiss you at the first opportunity I get, so wait for me, sweetie... I won't steal it, but I'll try to have at least one.
- I'll wait for you.
We finished the call and I heard footsteps in the hallway along with the laughter of the youngest trio; those curious kids heard me, but I'll let it go this time.