I didn't wanted to talk... didn't wanted to return to the island to cry for him so I have to give Yoongi time. Maybe he haven't realized anything by himself but all his decisions were forcing me to start doubting our relationship.
I called his manager as soon as the flight landed and the captain gave us the notice that we are free to follow the assistance on board to abandon the airplane safely in order, to collect our belongings, his thanks for trusting his experience and the company before we were asked to walk towards the terminal to collect the luggage.
I traveled only with my handbag so it wasn't bad to be the first to get a taxi to myself.
- Mrs. Brown... - the bodyguard at the entrance wasn't who I asked to custody the gates. Some of the security team where too obnoxious to follow my orders but Yoongi with his regular visits and stalking habits made them understand that my desires are their orders.
- Why aren't you on your designated place?.
- I have to follow the hierarchy when the owners are not around, madam.
- I see... hold this and follow me inside, it is an order - he bowed his head in response, communicating to the team that he has to abandon his position and do what I demanded.
Crossing the entrance, looking around that they lowered the level of security that my husband wanted, to be able to sleep at night, I was pregnant and needed all the rest and tranquility that he could provide. He wasn't present, nobody could fill in his position so he had a generous amount of big and trained men to roam around 24/7 and also they have to follow me when I feel like going out.
They have shifts, a business card to use money on my behalf or on their own to certain extent. The only thing that I was very strict about was on who could approach the building where I live or enter, in case I needed something. Nothing can happen to me calculating this amount of protection but I negotiated enough with Yoongi by the time our relationship became a long distance one.
I was acostumated to their presence, but some resent the situation, being trapped in this boring mission. Of course the team was formed by people that are resident on the Island, at a reasonable distance from the property, so they can go home every day and have some fun since we organized well the shifts to have well rested and ready for anything team.
- What's...- I commented to not show my discomfort with the changes on my absence.
Very loud music and laughter came to my ears as we crossed the heavy door of the property. I already noticed more cars at the entrance but I imagined that in my absence they shouldn't leave empty spots.
I followed all the doctors requests since I didn't wanted to suffer the loss on a very confirmed pregnancy. Jimin was a big barrier to spend my nights with my husband for a while but at some point it turned into benefit and finally... my Bumpy, my little miracle.
Everyone was so happy with the notice, at least is what I believed but Yoongi took me here. I wanted to be healthy enough to return to Seul and be by his side but I only found excuses to stay, ultimately he stopped visiting me and Jin and Jungkook visits wisely helped me to not show my fears.
In a few hours, I put myself in a position that couldn't contain my doubts, my lover was always away doing who knows what and now I have to consider that he is having dates on my back. Certainly I didn't worried, trusting him, now I wasn't sure if I did the right thing.
No more gifts, no more caring for my needs ... he doesn't have to do anything since we don't live under the same roof and I'm not waiting for him at home. Nothing to love , nothing to care... I became a item in his collection, he doesn't want to get rid of me but fact is that I don't feel our connection anymore... but probably are my fears taking over.
A party or what was left behind, I observed and my imagination did the rest, last night they used my house to hold a savage party. I entered over the destroyed house to find people having sex on my bed, I asked to the man behind me that was praying internally to maintain his job.
The woman surely run all the way towards her house and some of the sleeping participants also hurried to collect evidence of their existence to leave the property.
But someone got really angered giving a brutal treatment to my aid and I had to try and save my life, because I can't fight with my belly trying to create a new human being inside it.
- What do you want? More money, this house? - I asked when he found me at the storage room. I already asked for help but if abandon the house...wasn't sure if I could manage to find my way back to Yoongi... my best option was to keep him entertained enough to be rescued and protect my pregnancy.
- Money?... what a joke... do you remember how you managed to use your influence to step over me? I am a leader and a warrior...you only a meal.
- Now I'm not allowed to feel uncomfortable when you used to stick your face on the glass to see inside the house? I have to live alone surrounded by dudes under your command... my fears were right. Look what arevyou doing now... why you attacked him? He only followed orders without asking.
- Exactly... what a little boyscout. You got that pompous husband to be abandoned here to have his little bastard... all the measures to have you jailed here. Have you never despited the rich?
- My baby is not a bastard, we are properly married - I talked slowly, making time and thinking hard how to get out of this situation without risking my life or more importantly, my beloved Bumpy.
- You may not think... that I am blind... he already tricked you. His colleagues, the members of his group... why do you think they came?
- They only came to visit out of courtesy, and left a few gifts, they are too busy to be social but my condition is special.
I was careful to not let them notice that I shared more than a friendship with my visitors, so I only took one to follow me on my allowed decision to explore the big Island.
- You may think that you do but actually, are living from their leftovers, they're scheming something... Min is the first... don't get surprised if the others are interested on your oven... you might imagine the picture... BTS had heirs but the mother is the biggest mistery ever.
- why? Why do you think that they are so evil? Why can't I be loved? - I bited my lip as he observed my body and used a knife to scare me. He shouldn't wear any kind of artifacts. It wasn't a cooking tool or something that he could find here by luck.
- Love... certainly girls will give their everything for that, money is love to you? Maybe we can negotiate...
- Ne..go... that is a hard word for me... do you want something from me? I... am pregnant so please if you don't hurt me...- I lied...I know that I am good at it but I am not going to let him touch me. Just the possibility of having him close would be too much to endure. Talking in English to distract him even more.
It worked, he licked his lips and helped me to stand, once on the main area, he dropped the knife when I faked to be terrified and ready to do whatever he wanted. My baby was my priority and he was very convinced that he can handle me because of it.
I never mistreated them, or tried to impose my authority but never permitted to drop formalities or distances. I was out of they range, they can look elsewhere for fun.
I made sure to not look at the hidden security cameras, never told them that we installed them it was a secret between me and Yoongi and my security company that delivered the latest models that are almost invisible. I know that Yoongi likes to see me when he is bored, maybe because I was a living person and he wasn't close to control my whereabouts or status in person.
I heard something, a strange noise, that was a helicopter? But I continued distracting the man until we noticed that someone was controlling the intelligent domotic updates that Yoongi wanted after buying the place.
We are blocked inside, in the darkness before we the police made it's presence and I didn't moved it was a dangerous move to try to scape now.
- What's happening?!
- I don't know, my husband bought the house without telling me... also never told me that I would have to move to live here alone, until he says so... I am scared - I hold into him and he trusted me.
- sit down and don't move... I will get a light, do you have candles or a lantern?
- yes... at the entrance... there are aromatic candles that should work, I always have how to start them but with the party... just pray nobody found my items interesting.
- fuck... don't move.
- Of course not... talk to me, to know that you are with me, Yoongi only convinced me that I will be safe in this house because he hired the best security team in the Island.
I lied again I hided myself carefully so he would have to find me later.
- I am the strongest man in the island, not to presume but nobody could put my back o the floor, not even my instructors when I served could defeat me.... - he was continuously talking so I could move to find where was fine to hide.
- .... I am listening, I haven't moved... what's that noise?- I relaxed a little in my hidden spot rubbing my belly, all this situation can't be good for Bumpy and I didn't wanted a premature baby that could die more easily than an average newborn. Yes I was scared for real but, I trusted that someone was coming to rescue me.
He talked his way to the entrance, cursing about the chaos and unpleasant dirty stuff he had to deal with, and finally find fire to light the candle, distracted and forgotten that he is the criminal.
- Thanks man ... fuck!!
My husband was holding a ligther and the police was behind him. He threw the candle to scape but was too late, my rescuer hold his clothes and used his forehead to win the desessperate attempt to become a fugitive or hurt the man trying to reduce his possibilities.
- Lights on!! - Yoongi commanded and the house started to respond when the electricity returned and the security system wasn't necessary anymore. The police handed the criminal and a lawyer or a man that looks like one advised that Yoongi provided enough evidence to be the only one who could approach me.
- Come out love... I got you.
I hugged him and didn't wanted to get separated from him even if the police protested. My declaration wasn't needed at the moment but I wrote it all, the details, and handed it. The lawyer looked at it before the office could grab the paper, took a picture with his phone and let the agent read it.
I was sure it was exactly what he saw through the cameras, even with the night mode activated our conversation and all the previous mistakes the man did. All the people present, everything could become proof of the clear crimes within dropping our names on the information that will be completely secret.
A patrol was outside our room until we could fly towards Seoul. The only things I needed from the house was my passport and my electronics and the police didn't needed that as evidence in this case. Yoongi isn't free from the police eye so a detective followed us until our apartment, looked around for any flagrant accusation to and on my husband file but couldn't find anything without showhis intentions.
‐ sorry... - Yoongi finally talked we stayed silent unless we were directly asked.
- you came in my rescue, why are you apologizing? - I said softly.
- I promised to protect you and my decision to maintain you in Jeju created de biggest danger. You told me they were paying the wrong amount of attention, you begged me to live together... and I...
I kissed him to stop what he was saying, yes... I had enough motives to turn my back to him. He didn't slept last night, scared, he could be crying on our funeral if grace haven't been on my side yesterday. But all his demonstrations of affection towards me and Bumpy made me realize that I didn't wanted to turn him in the cause of my misfortune.
I could decide to not enter the house when I saw the chaos, but did, I haven't followed my desire to not return to the Island but... I did. Thinking about all that we could do different in the past wasn't going to help us now.
- I have a proposal, Yoongi.
- Now?... mmmnnn should I get worried?
- No, is nothing big...
I needed to get out the house a little bit only for healing reasons, even if both of us were more comfortable at home. Resting and mending our relationship.
Yoongi's stress was the worst I have seen since I met him and it was very noticeable, purple bags under his eyes, repetitive acts to deal with his thoughts, therapy, medication and my presence wasn't working diligently this time. Most of the time refused to be hugged, kissed or any verbal demonstration of affection.
- An order of delicious delivered food, an MLB game on TV at home and ice cream.
- seriously? - He asked, not because I suggested to watch a basketball game but knowing that that's not really my first choice to distract myself.
- yeah... most sports don't have games in August but I think that baseball is a possibility or we can pick a movie or something...
- okay... I like it, the idea of a Friday night date at home sounds perfect.
- Smile Yoongi, you are allowed to be happy.
- I am happy - he deadpanned.
- Internally, remember that I can't read your mind my dear vampire. Your pale face is hard to read lately.
- I am in trouble... what if they send me to court? Or if they decide to do an exaggerated case of cruelty to evaluate the mistake I made drinking and driving that toy. What if our relationship blows the net and everyone starts to hate you too?
- Ummm... Then I will be exceptionally nice towards you until you get used to ignore those minuscule details.
- minuscule... thanks for your support, life doesn'twork that easly... aren't you tired of being nice?
- nope... you are cute. I like when you are less magnificent too, you don't have to be perfect Yoongi... at least not with me. Have I ever told you that? - I smiled.
- maybe... so ...ice cream... mmmh? - he was twirling my words in his head but lately any of those stuck hard enough to take him out of his negativity.
- Ice cream!! - I exclaimed to distract him from becoming a block of ice again.
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I blocked her good arguments to control the pain in my head. Probably she was right, really right to say that I shouldn't worry, but I was possessed by my horrendous thoughts about a tragedy, a tragedy that I caused.
The worst of me is being evident lately, not sleeping, mortified by my thoughts, anxiety, angered with myself for the smaller things anyone can imagine, repetitive acts of self comfort that can drive anyone else insane... and she was here asking me eat ice cream and distract ourselves watching a game on TV.
We never acted like friends, together I always desired and loved her. Baika had it difficult, always suffering because of me. Sometimes because she loved me enough to stop any interest on her from other people, sometimes for money and fame but lately was purely to attack my most precious treasures ( Bumpy and her).
I don't have doubts that she would like to have it easy, Jin is easier, friendly and lovely, would keep her close but I don't. Jungkook is young, impulsive sometimes and closer to her age that must be like a warm break from us, the old dudes.
I blocked my phone almost to everyone, if it wasn't from my new job, the lawyer or my manager... I pretend to not hear that someone is calling. I decided to eliminate any notification and messages before I could read them properly to decide if it is important to answer.
- Yoongi, dinner is here, should I set it here?
- Here? And Bumpy? Isn't going to be inappropriate? - she looks like I was talking nonsense. It was the first time she used that expression on me. I don't like it.
- I'm pregnant not limited enough to not eat where I want.
- Sorry, it was only a question - I apologized
- You haven't been ... ahh... forget it... How is the game going?
- The same... but why are you changing matters? If you have something to say...
- I changed my mind when I realized the stuff that I was about to say... Yoongi... you surely noticed that I wanted to return sooner from Jeju because you are mu husband and the father of Bumpy, it's late to lament that you couldn't get acostumated to my new needs. I can't blame you because I decided to do as you suggested.
- Suggested... love didn't gave you other choices. You don't need need to be nice.
- Criminals couldn't maintain me captive and now you believe that you forced me to live alone? Sorry for what I am going to say if it sounds offensive but nobody is going to keep me where I don't want to be. I tried your idea and yes, my health is better, but I didn't enjoy it.
I sighed, probably... if I couldn't stalk her using the security cameras to see and hear what was happening with her ... would gone insane for not having her were I could notice her needs.
- Amor... don't worry about me, I'm fine with our relationship but we grew distance and I doubt that can reduce the situation by myself. I don't have confidence.
- why? I... my feelings haven't changed... Are you telling me... that you...
- I don't doubt your words bur facts talks louder. We got acostumated to be separated and I doubt we can arrange it. I love you, you can't even Imagine but I can't force you to return the feeling only because we are married and expecting Bumpy.
I got up irritated, the possibility of her falling out of love wasn't even on my list of possibilities for our future. That she hated me unreasonably was a better option than hearing her tha we are better separated.
- Yoongi... maintain the promise you made, let's eat together. - she set everything and got seated. On her knees as Jungkook used to do, now his limbs are too long to not change that habit.
- kiss me - I blurted or barked it was demand on my part. But nobody is going to steal her heart on my watch, not even the most perfect person my group could have.
- Kiss me, unless there is reason to not do it.
- Come closer, I can't fly into your arms now.- I was more comfortable with that idea, that she was measuring her strength and not thinking that she should be kissing someone else.
I got confused on what should be my next move but she moved on top of me as soon as my ass landed on the place she prepared for me. Her soft body was now in my arms, her perfume was alluring and her lips plumper than I realized.
I possessed and controlled everything now, her lips are mine, she must remember that I'm the only one that is going to blow her mind this way. She wants more, she moaned, she pulled my hair, she was imprudent getting so transparent with me. I bited hard on a soft spot where her neck and shoulder connected, leaving the worst mark I have ever tried on her.
It was painful for her she said my name but I didn't stopped until I could be certain that my teeth will leave a long lasting sing that she is taken.
She looks into my eyes when I was happy with my doings, her warm and sweet demand to continue isn't going to be granted at the moment, not here in the hard floor, maybe later in our room if I can focus on it.
She was trying to seduce a block of ice, now wasn't the moment for that.Her hands and kisses finally stopped even if I actually wanted them.
- can we share a bed tonight and I mean to stay longer than watching me falling sleep.
- would you like that? Mmm? The price is higher than ever - I advised her admiring my cruelty on her skin.
- I miss you, living under the same roof but not being together makes me consider that you might found someone else. But I am not going to make an scene, you can...- I stopped her mouth, nobody else was in my heart, couldn't permit that someone else touched what she repaired inside me.
- If it is so difficult for you to have me, to get me this enamored... imagine a stranger trying something on me. It's ridiculous...
- Yoongi you are amazing, creative, talented and attractive, it's not ridiculous to imagine someone doing her best to get your attention.
- Sometimes I like being a monster. Killing that masquerade everyone landed on me. You know me.
- You haven't stopped changing since I met you, every single time I am not looking you changed something... feeling like I shouldn't take my eyes from you is invading my thoughts lately.
- Therapy and medicine not always is a solution to my problems... I am this way, let me be the same you have been doing till now.
She nodded but rubbing her belly, probably she was full of worries thinking about Bumpy and if we have a clear future or not. Must be exhausting so I hugged her as we enjoy the game in silence and feed each other to be sure that nobody is going to get ill.
The next day I prepared a surprise, being passionate, loving and caring is something I always wanted to to be able to do. With my present job I got the opportunity and last night, being with her wasn't only pleasurable, I was more relaxed now that we restored our relationship a little being together, talking, eating... I was really stupid trying to live separately when any of us wanted it.
- Look all this... wow...- Baika was happy
- It's nothing- I admit
- I just arrived- Jin looks towards Jungkook because his schedule is tight and he managed enough to have a few hours to share with us now that Jungkook was around, he was given only a weekend but helped me to distract my wife so I could prepare most of this.
- Don't look at me- Jungkook laughs
- why? You are the most corny of all of us, do you remember that girl from your high school? You rented a park to prepare a date for her, this is nothing in comparison.
- I was a child, she didn't even knew that I was the mysterious boy giving her roses every day, had to do something to ask her out. Bunny don't hear any of this, I learned my lesson and don't do this stuff anymore so don't expect to find me mixed on something so pathetic in the future.
- I love it, he is trying to demonstrate that I matter to him, thanks love.
- Sometimes I am difficult to handle if this can help to compensate a little ...