Breakup formula
W. Manggaejjitteok
It was impulsive. Accepting the blind date offer and coming all this way. Even when I followed Jungkook, I hadn't even considered a blind date… After that emotional conversation with him, I lost all sense of reason. And this is the result.
“Hello, Miss Yeoju.”
"hello…"
The man who showed up for the blind date was, as Boyoung had said, truly handsome. He was tall, and best of all, he was a businessman. Of all the men I'd met through blind dates, he had the most manners and seemed like a kind person. He was a rare find in South Korea. Well, there are plenty of men with good manners, but it's rare to find someone who's also handsome.
“Ms. Yeoju, you said you just have a regular job, right?”
“Yes. Wild Company… It’s just an advertising agency.”
Joo-hyuk's eyes widened in surprise. "Actually, we had to make a promotional video, and Wild Company was on the list of PR companies. This is... fate." Joo-hyuk's shy expression was quite adorable. His fidgeting throughout the conversation, his flushed cheeks and ears, were a sight to behold.It reminded me of my first love.
“Who will sing at this festival-“
Jeon Jungkook. As soon as the first three letters of his name came out, our eyes met. Our first relationship was a secret. Thinking back, it's funny. I wonder what we kept from our friends and teachers. Still, it was quite thrilling. Except for the occasional smile that escaped our eyes as we met.
“… …”
You were terrible at acting then and now. Back when I was clueless and oblivious, I remember seeing you visibly avoiding my gaze whenever we passed each other on the way to and from school, and I felt a brief sense of disappointment. I didn't even know that it was Jeon Jungkook's unique way of acting. When I heard that story late while sitting on a bench in the school playground, I burst out laughing. It was so funny that I couldn't help but hold my stomach in laughter, and my stomach even hurt. I wiped away the tears hanging from the corners of my eyes and asked you, who was blushing and lowering her head.
“Phew, there’s no way you’ll ever become an actor lol.”
“…I don’t plan on becoming an actor!?, I just… want to make a living.”
I sat upright on the bench, then ran my hand over your chin, examining your face. You were handsome, the kind of actor who would conquer the entertainment industry. The only flaw was your terrible acting. While I was lost in thought, you seemed to be upset that I was preoccupied with other things, and you pouted out your red lips and hugged me.
“Don’t think about anything else… Really.”
“Why, do you think I’d think of another man instead of you?”
I put my hand on your round head and stroked it as if I was soothing a puppy. Every time I did, you would growl like a puppy, as if you were a real puppy.
“Don’t say that. I hate even thinking about it.”
I once loved you so much, you who frowned slightly and exuded possessiveness. I loved you so much, that even I became possessive. But, they say that when you love too intensely, it cools down easily. After a long time, when we felt more like family than lovers, when the possessiveness you and I exuded disappeared, the empty space we left each other felt even greater.
“Do you have time today?”
“Ah… no. I have a part-time job loading and unloading packages today. Why?”
“No, it’s just… if I have time, I’m going to go on a date for the first time in a while.”
But… I couldn't bring myself to finish the words. You and I are so similar. Our hobbies, our eating habits, our colors, even our family circumstances. That's why I couldn't pretend not to notice, like other couples, and insist on taking a break from my part-time job, or insist on being more precious to you. I know what losing your daily wage means to you.
So, I decided to pretend not to know.
Even if you feel sad, pretend it doesn't exist,
Even if there is wind, pretend it isn't there,
Pretending not to know my feelings.
“…Mr. Joo?”
Sometimes, I felt resentful. Why did you and I even resemble each other in such ways? Watching you murmur, as if you had something to say, I could guess what you might say. However, I couldn't readily step forward and take a break from work. I, too, was pressed for time. Knowing that, you quickly shut your murmured mouth. If only you had insisted on taking just one day off, even acted cute... I could have acted crazy and given up for a day. You, thinking the same thing, quickly shut your mouth.
“Lady.”
"yes yes?…"
I was momentarily lost in my old thoughts, when a voice called my name, and I quickly returned my focus to my reverie. No matter what, I shouldn't lose my soul in front of people... I rubbed my eyes with my hand and raised my head. "I'm sorry. I couldn't sleep well..." I lied shamelessly with a smile. I didn't have the guts to say, "I couldn't concentrate because I was thinking about my ex-boyfriend." If you think about it, it wasn't a complete lie. Still, let's say it's about 50% true. It's true that I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about Jeon Jungkook.
"No. I was the only one talking. Didn't you know that the lady was tired?"
“It’s not Joo-hyuk’s fault.”
"It's my fault for not being able to forget my ex-boyfriend..." I swallowed my words and waved my hand in the air. The blind date was a success in its own way. We had a nice meal at a nice place, and we could ask each other questions about each other. But the problem was just starting. The atmosphere was so good that I ended up drinking, and I ended up completely drunk. Joo-hyuk, flustered, put his hand between my arms and supported me. He must have been quite flustered, too. The girl on the blind date had turned into a dog.
“Ugh, it’s so hot… right?”
He spoke with a slurred speech and a hunched face. Naturally, his face was flushed from the alcohol. After a first round at a nice place and a second round at a trendy pojangmacha in Inbyeol, I downed three bottles of soju all by myself, so that said it all. Juhyuk looked at me like that, gave me his signature smile, and placed his hand on my head as I crouched down.
“That’s right. Your face has completely turned into an apple.”
“Apples… huh? I like strawberries better than apples…”
“Then it’s a strawberry. It’s small like a strawberry, and it looks just like one.”
Joo-hyuk was truly affectionate. If he were my boyfriend, I wouldn't feel so bad about it. His personality was evident in the way he answered every single one of my drunken ramblings. And he was also really handsome... Even as I thought that to myself, my eyes kept closing. Then, Joo-hyuk's soft voice rang in my ear once more.
“Where is your house? I’ll take you there.”
Home… I had to open my eyes and answer, but my eyelids kept drooping. I barely managed to come to my senses and slowly opened my mouth. ‘Samseong-dong Officetel…’ After that, everything before my eyes went completely dark.
I shouldn't have slept then. If I'd known this would happen the next day, I never would've drank…The job was already done.
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“Ah… my head.”
When I woke up with the same hangover as always, I frowned at the headache and sore throat. Then a thought occurred to me: "Oh, I lost control of myself again last night…" With that thought, I placed my hands on the mattress and tried to sit up.
?.
Something feels hard. A strange, unsettling sensation. I close my eyes and open them again. Then, taking a deep breath, I calm myself, telling myself it can't be, and turn my head...
“… …”
My whole body was frozen, unable to get up. Nothing could be felt, nothing constricting my body. Jeon Jungkook was sleeping peacefully next to me, and traces of the night were scattered here and there. This was seriously wrong. I was definitely on a blind date yesterday, and the last person I saw was definitely Joohyuk, so why was it Jeon Jungkook sleeping next to me? I roughly tore at my hair.
Why the hell do you show up every time I drink?
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