The next day,
"..I really don't want to go"
I didn't want to go to school. With two unpleasant faces to see, the place I originally didn't want to go to felt like hell.
I didn't want to see either Beomgyu or Choi Soobin. I understood Choi Soobin's feelings, but for some reason I didn't want to see them. No, I think it was more like they were uncomfortable to see.
The worries that had been bothering me for so long suddenly became my delusions, and I was wandering in that sense of disconnect.
dripping,
“Kim Yeo-ju! Wake up!”
" .. under "
At my mom's call, I finally got out of bed and headed to the bathroom to get ready for school.
“ … ”
“ … ”
When I left the house, Choi Soo-bin was waiting for me. He has no self-respect, what the heck.. Seriously.
I tried hard to ignore Choi Soo-bin and walked alone.
at that time,
widely,
“..let’s go together”
“.. I guess you don’t feel uncomfortable with me”
" uh..? "
The threads of a relationship that had already become so entangled that it seemed there was no other way than to cut them off, now seemed a little difficult to hold on to.
“I... feel uncomfortable with you, Soobin.”
“..!!”
I don't know if it was something that was on my mind or something that never existed in the first place, but those were the only words that came out.
When he heard me, Choi Soo-bin's hand that was holding my arm slowly released, and I fought to hold back my tears as I turned around and headed toward school.
"Wow!"
“ … “
Choi Yeonjun surprised me from behind, but I wasn't in the right mood to accept his prank. When I looked at Choi Yeonjun's face, I felt like the tears I had been holding back were about to burst out.
"Wh...what happened, Kim Yeo-ju? Why are your eyes swollen..ㅇ"
Eventually, my tear ducts burst again.
“Huh.. Choi Yeonjun.. ”
“ .. something happened “
"Sob.. Seriously, what do I do..?"
In the end, I couldn't enter the class and headed to home base with Choi Yeonjun.
"What? Is that true?"
"Yeah.. That's why Choi Soo-bin fought back then."
"Huh.. isn't that totally crazy?"
" .. Now I don't know what to do "
".. Are you awkward with Choi Soo-bin?"
“Choi Soo-bin keeps trying to come closer to me, but I’m ignoring her.”
“…”
“I feel sorry and for some reason it’s hard to even look at his face.”
“I’m sorry...”
"I got mad at him for liking that kind of guy.. "
" .. Kim Yeo-ju "
" why.. "
Swish,
“Your heart is completely yours. It is right to do whatever you want with that heart, wherever that heart leads you.”
“ … ”
“In this regard, Choi Soo-bin seems to be a better dating expert than you.”
" uh..? "
“He admitted it and expressed it to you as he felt.”
“ … ”
“Whether it’s love or unrequited love, the most important thing is to honestly express your feelings. Those who are good at that are experts.”
“ … ”
When I heard Choi Yeonjun's words, I felt like I had been hit in the head. That must have been really... great courage for Choi Soobin's personality.
“I think it’s already decided which one I’ll choose.”
“ … ”
“Now you just have to make one more decision.”
" what.. "
"You just have to decide whether to choose that person or not"
“ … “
"Whether or not you will accept that person's heart"
" that.. "
“Think carefully about where your heart is headed.”
“ … ”
“Yes or No”
at that time,
Talk,
" uh..? "
“They said it was going to rain this morning.. Did you bring an umbrella?”
“I brought it with me”
I don't think Choi Soo-bin had an umbrella in her hand this morning... Maybe she didn't bring it with her.
After finishing my conversation with Choi Yeonjun, I headed straight to the mobile class. In fact, the class content didn't really stick in my head.
Choi Soo-bin also seemed a little shocked in the morning because she sat next to another friend instead of me, and I sat next to the girl with glasses.
I heard Beomgyu was absent today. But I avoided the most annoying guy.
As time passed, the rain became heavier and heavier, and it didn't seem like it would stop quickly like a shower. When I looked at the umbrella stand, Choi Soo-bin's umbrella was gone.
The guy who always took good care of me didn't bring it... I guess he's having a hard time thinking about it now.
As time passed, it was time to leave school, and I was the last to pack my bag and leave because I had to do some cleaning and errands for the teacher.
I was worried about Choi Soo-bin the whole way. How did he get there without an umbrella? Did he get caught in the rain?
What would happen if someone who is already weak catches a cold?
As I was walking with such worry, I arrived home before I knew it.
Swish,
“..!!”
“ … ”
I saw a familiar face at the front door of my house. It was Choi Soo-bin, and she was squatting in front of my house with her hair and uniform all wet.
For a moment I was startled and quickly ran to the front of the house.
Swish,
“Idiot..!! Why are you here like this?!”
“ … ”
“What if I catch a cold..!!”
“ … ”
“No, really.. ”
at that time,
Hug,
“..!! Choi Soo-bin.. “
“I’m sorry.. Please don’t avoid me.. Yeoju-ya”
" .. you "
“Don’t make me uncomfortable.. I was wrong.. “
Suddenly, Choi Soo-bin hugged me, buried her face in my shoulder, and cried.
I think the story I told this morning was quite shocking.
“What I said this morning was...”
“Please.. I was wrong, heroine.”
I can't understand. How shocked must you have been to cry so loudly?
“.. Choi Soo-bin. Look at me.”
“ … ”
“Let’s go in first. You’ll catch a cold if you keep doing this.”
" but.. "
“I won’t avoid you and I won’t hate you. Let’s go in, Soobin.”
“ … ”
In the end, I brought Soobin Choi into my house, and fortunately neither her mom nor dad were there. I put Soobin Choi into the bathroom and placed the clothes that Soobin Choi had left at my house in the past in front of her.
After a while,
“ .. I’m done “
"Come here. I'll stop you for a while."
It's been a while since I've dried Choi Soo-bin's hair. When I was young, I often dried and curled her hair, feeling like I was a hair designer.
In the past, it was okay to do it on your knees, but now it's pretty high even when standing. Choi Soo-bin has really grown a lot.
widely,
“It’s done.”
" .. thank you "
“ … “
“ … “
It was really awkward. It was the first time that there was such a long silence between me and Choi Soo-bin. I guess both Choi Soo-bin and I have changed a lot.
At that time, the first one to speak was Choi Soo-bin.
" I'm really sorry. "
".. No. You did nothing wrong"
" but.. "
“It was my choice to postpone the decision from the beginning, and it was my choice to like that child.”
“ … “
"Even if you had said that, those choices wouldn't have changed."
“ … “
“Because it was entirely my choice.”
Yes. In fact, I made all those decisions. Choi Soo-bin didn't do anything wrong to me. Did I like her any less because I heard that story?
No, I would have liked that kid even though I was trying to reject him.
Rather, I would have blamed Choi Soo-bin for telling that story.
“I am rather grateful.”
" uh..? "
“Thank you for trying not to get hurt.”
“ … ”
I am now saying and doing whatever comes to my mind. I don't know if these words will become variables in the future and change countless relationships.
But for now, I want to do whatever my heart desires.
“I know it sounds selfish to say this, but...”
“..?”
“I won’t hate you either.. “
“ … ”
“Please keep liking me, Soobin.”
The reason umbrellas have parabolic curves is not just to block rain efficiently. It is also to flexibly and naturally shed the water that continues to fall.
So that it doesn't get stuck and squashed, so that it doesn't get heavy
And the reason umbrellas open wide to the side is not to keep a larger area from getting wet.
It is to block the rain from falling on someone else, not me. So that the raindrops that keep falling do not wet that person.
It's to make that person's heart fluffy and dry again in no time.
“..Are you serious?”
"Yes. This is what my heart says."
Someone who can be my umbrella, someone who is like the parabolic curve of that umbrella. I like that person.
I think the answer my heart has decided is yes, Yeonjun.