The younger man's direct approach
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“Guk-ah, Guk-ah.”
"Huh? Why?"
"You know, Kook, do you want to have a baby?"
“..What kind of question is that, you want to go to your room?”
“...Don’t laugh. I was asking you seriously!?”
“..big... well.. of course I want it.”
“How nice it would be if, among people you love, there was someone who resembled your loved one.”
"right.."
We're still newlyweds, so we haven't really thought about having kids yet, but I thought, "If we're going to have kids, wouldn't it be better to have them sooner rather than later?" Because I believed I would spend the rest of my life with Jungkook. And if I were to marry Jungkook, wouldn't it be conscientious to have lots of kids who look like him? Because that good looks are good looks that need to be preserved..!!
“But why did you suddenly ask that?”
“No... Honestly, you’re young and I’m not..”
“I want my child to have a young mother.”
“It’s a bit weird when dad is young and mom is old… haha”
“What are you talking about, you’re not even in your 30s yet.”
“I’ll be 30 when I have the baby, you’ll be 27...”
“You look younger than me, seriously.”
“....A compliment..?”
“Don’t worry, you’ll still be pretty when you’re old.”
30 isn't considered too late to have a baby these days. But... I wanted to live with my child longer, and I hoped I wouldn't be older than the mothers of my peers. I thought that if I were younger, I'd be able to bond and become closer to my child. I'd be able to grasp what my child wants more quickly. I wonder why I'm thinking this, but honeymoon goes by so quickly.
“Hey, you know.”
"I wish I didn't think that way."
“Of course I want to have children, but I think it’s too early.”
“I’m not ready to be a father...“I want to enjoy my honeymoon with you more.”
“And.. I hate it when my sister gets sick.. so much.. hehe”
Seriously... what do you say that's as pretty as your face? Holding hands tightly, making eye contact, and speaking with a smile, you speak with all your heart, how could anyone not believe you? I just want the whole world to know that Jeon Jungkook is my husband. If Kook sees it... I'll have a handsome son who looks just like him!! A feast for the eyes, double the healing with your eloquence...
“Actually, I still want to be alone with Kook.”
“I will make you happier.”
“Hmm... Then our child will be 5 years later..”
“..That’s a bit..,”
“ㅋㄹㅋㅅ I get it, I was an old woman back then and didn’t want to give birth either.”
“I told you, you’ll still be pretty when you become a grandmother.”
"Yeah, I love you."
"I love you too"
“Goyeoju... you fucking bitch...”
“Ah ...
"..Miss...Please stop..."
“..You too..I feel pathetic...?ㅋㅎ”
"Where the hell are you standing with your head held high!??"
"...sorry.."
Taehyung... I miss Taehyung so much. Even after getting married... We've never shared a room, and we rarely ran into each other even when we lived in the same house, but even though Taehyung doesn't like me... I liked the fact that Taehyung was my husband. He may not speak to me affectionately, but at least he doesn't ignore me... I was always alone in the big house when I was young, but now I'm so happy that there's someone in the next room.
“..If it weren’t for you, Goyeoju...”
“I could have been happy with Taehyung for the rest of my life...”
“Taehyung... I’m in so much pain...”
“I wish you too... would be in this much pain.”
Pictures I took with Taehyung. Even though they were wedding photos taken just for show... he smiled at me this time. His smile really suited me. Why didn't he give me that same expression? Still... I liked it. He came home every day, did his best to act like a husband in front of the camera, made me feel like he was right there by my side... I wish he had given me his heart, too.
"...In my next life... I hope to be born as a Goyeoju."
"Then you will only look at me..."
“That feeling of being alone... I don’t have to feel it.”
“Because I can receive something like love.”
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