Then take the lead first
Hello, I'm Jeong Yeo-ju, 29, turning 30 soon. I'm going crazy right now, but please listen to me. I finally ended my unemployed life this week. When I was 16, I was so good at billiards that everyone around me recommended I become a professional billiards player, but at the time, it was just a hobby. I want to be a professional billiards player. I don't think I ever thought of it that way. Time passed, I failed to get into college, and I was giving up on everything when a small phrase appeared in my life.
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Your loneliness is just a void created by a lack of fulfillment in life.
Realize that other people's love cannot fill you.
Achieve, move, and don't look back at others.
Shit. I was scrolling through Instagram and somehow came across this quote. Something started streaming down my face. “Achieve success, move on, and don’t look at others.” It instantly caught my eye. I always thought, “I want to be like that person, too,” and didn’t take action. So what can I do now? Pay off my overdue rent, my mom’s debt, my friends’ debts. I got up from where I was lying and immediately grabbed the old doorknob and went outside. I thought I’d see something if I went outside. I just kept running, but I couldn’t see anything. I slowed down and walked, and then I saw the sign I’d stepped on. “Bear Billiards Hall.” What kind of crazy billiards hall is that? I was so dumbfounded and amused that I chuckled. I thought I should give it a try and went into the building where the store was located.
As I entered the building, I saw a billiards hall right away. And then I found a sign that wasn't a sign saying, "Looking for part-time workers, my starting point."
“I’m going crazy.”
I smiled brightly and opened the door to go inside. As soon as I entered, a warm lavender scent wafted out. Usually, when you go to a billiard hall, the smell of cigarettes is overwhelming, but this place was different. Anyway, as I entered, I heard a loud crashing sound. I was so startled that I turned my head towards the sound, and there stood a crazy, damn handsome man.
"hello..?"
Let me summarize it in four points. The face is that of a cold-hearted man, the way he talks is like a gentle bear, he looks like he's easily over 170cm tall, and his nose is like Mount Everest. If I were a small person, I would have run right over and slid down the slide. Now that we're getting to the real story, I'll speak comfortably. I was so surprised, but I kept my mouth shut so that my surprise wouldn't be revealed, and then opened my mouth carefully.
“J, it says there’s a part-time job being sought over there!”
“Ah.. that’s it!”
The man glanced at me and asked the question I was expecting, “Are you good at billiards..?” So I joked and said, “I won gold in a billiards tournament back in the day.” And he really believed me. His tired, tired eyes suddenly opened wide. He was so fucking cute that I wanted to bite him. Ah, I felt like a pervert just now. Ignore him, haha. Anyway, that sweet guy suddenly bowed his head in front of me. He was like a scene from a movie where he says, “Hello, bro!! You all know that scene?” I burst out laughing without realizing it and touched his head because it was so cute. I can’t stand cuteness. After petting him for a few seconds, the man squeaked and his face turned bright red as he spoke.
“Wow.. this feels so good..”
…it was from this time
My lastlove I never thought that unrequited love would begin.
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*How long has it been since I last wrote..? Haha.. My hands are completely stiff since I wrote after such a long time.. I'm thinking of just writing that prologue and going back