Namju Change [Beomgyu Edition]
*The story may be slightly different*
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When our memories turn to ashes and scatter
[Male Change] 08
When Memories Turn to Ashes [Beomgyu Chapter]
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It was a few years ago.
When I started dating Beomgyu oppa for 2 years (720 days)
TragicallyWe broke up, after dating for exactly 2 years
On the day we meet, we say let's break up, we can't even meet
That's right. At the time, I just accepted it. Why did I do that?
once I should have held on a little longer... but it's already too late.
So, I'm going to the empty lot where I often went with Beomgyu oppa.
I brought all the photos, letters, and gifts from the past two years.
I still have some regrets and longing, but I still have those memories.I promise not to shed tears while watching,
I'm heading towards the empty lot, trying hard to ignore the flowing tears.
As I was walking without thinking, I walked faster than usual
I was able to arrive, a month had passed, but the empty lot was still there.
It was the same, nothing had changed.What changed was me and Beomgyu
Relationship with my brotherOf course, in empty lots, they often burn fallen leaves.
Burning trash, often burning fallen leaves in empty lots
ServiceI did that too. I did that service with Beomgyu oppa.
This is a place overflowing with memories with Beomgyu oppa.
I took the photos out of the small box one by one. I lit the lighter.
Turn it on and light the photo, and relive the memories once again.
I saw. Why was he burning the photo while crying alone?
The photos, letters, and gifts all turned to ashes
It's scattered across the sky. It's scattered across the sky like this.
Sometimes I wonder what I've been doing for two years.
It was nice to take out each photo and think about the memories.
And, as I burn them one by one, I feel a little relieved..
Now let's focus on my work and forget about it.
I also started to think,
Can I really forget? What if I can't?
I also started to think that.
I'm just busy living and I'll forget, so I'm just trying to gloss over it.
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After burning everything, I wander around the empty lot.
From today onwardsI won't come againWhile thinking about it.
I'm wandering around, and everywhere I go
As memories come to mind, when Beomgyu oppa and I were dating
I see the afterimages of happy days, I really
I thought, "I'm crazy." Thinking back, I was really crazy back then.thing
Same.
I see an afterimage, but I believe it is an afterimage.
If we hadn't broken up, would we still be this happy?
I think about it, and to be honest, I miss it.
At that time, no matter what we did, we looked lovable to each other.
I also felt very loved and appreciated for what was done for me.
I remember every word, gesture, action, and facial expression vividly.
I miss you so much, I miss those happy days every day
I live my life thinking about you, but I hate that you don't contact me even once.
Perhaps, the word love can be used to describe the action of friendship.
Isn't that what you've been doing?
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Several years have passed since then,
But Beomgyu oppa's empty spot has not been filled yet
And I couldn't forget it. Was it because it was my first love?
Was it because it left me with unforgettable good memories?
Well anyway, after I graduated from high school and started college
Going to college, working part-time, traveling, and so on
Going back and forth between overseas and domestic, trying to forget quickly
I tried hard, tried this and that, met good people and had a good time
Take your time and have a hobby
And then we lived like that
I returned to Korea and there was a KakaoTalk message from my friend.
Beomgyu oppa is debuting... these days, car racers tooDid you have an agency?
I was unpacking my bags while thinking, I went there for a short time
I ended up packing a lot of things to make myself comfortable
I'm having a hard time, time goes by quickly and feels shorter.
Time flies so fast that a lot of things change, but still
My relationship with Beomgyu oppa hasn't changed or improved..
Well, we broke up, but what would change and what would get better?
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I unpacked my luggage frantically and put it back in its place.
I was so busy throwing away unnecessary things, organizing, and cleaning that I was out of my mind.
As I travel back and forth between Korea and overseas frequently, I am now increasingly
I think I've gotten used to it and am starting to get a little more comfortable. I'm adapting very well.
That's why I said it's a problem...
I was really out of my mind, after unpacking and organizing everything
The clock hands were gradually pointing to 12 o'clock in the morning, and I was absent.
There were more than 10 phone calls and even more texts.
I couldn't help but be surprised when I saw that,
I don't usually text or make calls much and I don't use the internet much.
Since I haven't seen much, I'm pretty much disconnected from the internet.
It's the same as what you're trying to do. And if possible
The type that immediately checks and confirms text messages and phone calls
So, there has never been this much piled up.
“Why are there so many of them...”
The words had to come out first,
I'm tired, exhausted, and after unpacking for hours,
My body was so sore, I quickly warmed myself up in hot water
I feel so anxious. But the alarms are piling up.
Because it was uncomfortable, I looked at them slowly, one by one.
I started watching the videos slowly, one by one.
But you're good at it, I thought you couldn't dance at all.
I think it's surprising, but I also think that two years are a bit meaningless.
And, after watching the video, I think this is pretty good.
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Even if you try to re-bond a broken jewel,
Even torn paper cannot be restored to its original state.
The same goes for relationships that are already completely broken.
Because we cannot restore a relationship that has already been broken,
Should I try one-sided love, or should I try exfoliating too?
And I thought it would be suitable for a new hobby.
I started to become a fan.
Well, I've been a fan for two years now, it's one-sided though
At least like this, I can burn away the memories of those two years
I did it thinking I'd fill two years with fandom, but I'm a true K-pop fan
go It became...
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I was going to take a break for a while
I'll write again!!!!!!!!
After a hiatus, the next day I got back to my early days
I tried reviving it and using it, but it's a one-time use thing.
The next day my handwriting became weird💦
I will write better articles in the future.
I would appreciate it if you could understand that it is a bit vague.
(Intermission headbutt)
