1. A feeling that cannot be hidden
“Thank you for bringing it to me.”
“Yeah, and… I’m sorry.”
“What is it, sir..?”
“.. Take care and I’ll come by to check up on you sometimes.”
“Mister...”
" uh? "
“My side..right?”
“..yeah, I’m on your side”
“Heh.. Bye. “
" okay. "
After discussing with the men, I decided to go back home. Of course, the men weren't there when I discussed it, but I guess there's nothing I can do.
Suddenly,
“It’s out!”
“Hey, this lady?!
“Sister!”
" he.. "
I don't want to show it in front of my family. Because I love the person who killed my father... I'm in pain, I'm so sad right now, please comfort me... I want to cry freely, but I can't.
“What the heck! You left as if you were never coming back.”
“I came to play at the request of that old man!”
“Really? Then when are you going?”
“.. a month”
“A month? That’s quite a long time.. Did you fight?”
“No! That kind of thing...”
“Hey, what’s up! Today is a party since Yeoju Lee is here too!”
“Oppa..! I’m a little tired today.. Can we have our party tomorrow?”
“Really..? Then, okay. Go in and rest.”
“Thank you haha”
I'm concerned about my brother's disappointed expression, but I don't have the energy to party. I'm just feeling down. My body and my mood.
It feels strange to see my room after such a long time. My uncle's room was bigger and nicer... No, I used to use it just fine.
I leaned back on the bed, leaving my luggage and clothes where they were.
" under.. "
“As you get older, you realize how much you’ve grown… Don’t sigh, it’s not good.”
Heart pounding,
“.. What if you miss me already, Yeoju?”
Wake up, wake up, you shouldn't miss me. No matter how much I keep telling myself, this stupid mind just keeps missing me.
Gulp,
“Ha.. I’m really angry, crying, laughing.. What’s really hurting me?”
Crying and laughing... and getting angry about it again... I feel like something really hurts. Something really hurts.
In the end, I cried all night and couldn't even breathe. No, to be exact, I couldn't sleep. If I just cried, I'd cry myself to sleep.Well... I keep feeling a pang in my heart and I'm so tired I can't even sleep.
The next day,
“Hey, Yeoju! Eat!”
" uh.. "
After a while,
Swish,
widely,
“Hey..Why is there a carp in the kitchen, Chan-ah..?”
" .. haha "
It's hard to react. I don't have the strength to get angry, and even less to laugh. It feels like the spinning top of life has disappeared.
Seokmin Lee and Chani were embarrassed, as if they noticed my mood. Ugh... Why are you joking around and making a fuss? I feel uncomfortable.
“Uh.. why are your eyes swollen?”
“It’s because I slept too much. My face gets swollen when I sleep too much.”
“Really..? I see.. “
" uh. "
Swish,
It's been a while since I've seen our home-cooked meal, and I'm not feeling up to it, but I force myself to pick up a spoon. Lee Seok-min is another good cook.
2. Because I miss the knee I was leaning on
“I’ll be back soon.”
" why? "
“Friend, Seungkwan is coming to meet you.”
“Ah… I get it! Come quickly.”
Seungkwan, what... I always forget about that guy. He's in Jeju Island right now... He's going to meet the fairy man.
The old man contacted me first. Well... I'm glad. I didn't have the guts or the energy to contact him first.
When I got to the meeting place, I saw an old man in the distance.
“It’s been a while.”
“Really? I think we met yesterday too.”
“Tch.. I just said it once, right?”
“Hey.. how are you doing?”
“No, I don’t think you’ll believe me if I say I’m doing well.”
“ .. Hoshido is the same “
“Is it because of guilt?”
“Maybe, the medicine won’t listen to me either.. Oh, this time, it really is.. difficult.”
“..to be honest”
“ ..? “
“I still like you, sir. I miss you, I want to hug you, I want to walk with you… But if I stay by your side forever,
“ ... “
“I feel like my guilt will only grow… That’s why I can’t approach you. No, I’m trying to approach you.”
“.. I know you’re having a hard time too, so I don’t really have anything to say.”
“But why did you call me? I didn’t come here to ask how you were doing.”
“Actually.. I came to ask you a favor.”
“..? What do you want?”
“Hoshi.. Can you think about it one more time?”
“Sir.. that.. “
“I know. You must be having a hard time right now.”
“ ... “
“I’m not asking you to like me, because I know how you feel. Instead…”
“ ..? “
“Hoshi.. Can we meet just once?”
“ .. Rather, that could be poisonous.”
" but.. "
“Even if it’s hard now, it’ll be okay when you find your true love later. Don’t make me cling to my old relationship for no reason.”
“Lee Yeo-ju.. “
“I’m a fairy, so I’d be happy to grant any request you might have, but I’m sorry. I don’t think I can.”
“He keeps groaning all night. And he keeps calling your name.”
“ ...!! “
My heart, which I had been holding onto so tightly, was shaken violently. This shouldn't be happening... Honestly, it was a bit shaky to hear this from someone who seemed stronger than anyone else. How much guilt must he have felt...
“Just once… Just meet me once.”
“ .... “
Should we just close our eyes and meet up just once? I honestly don't know what to talk about when we meet up. But should we still meet up just once?
“Okay. It’s a favor from the fairy.”
“Really?”
“I’ll see you. Tell him to come to the park in front of my house tomorrow.”
" okay! "
“Then can I go now? My brother told me to come home early.”
“Should I take you?”
“No, I can go alone.”
“ Really..? ThenBye.. Really “
“ ..? “
" thank you. "
Even though we always bicker, I guess we're still friends. I wish I had at least one friend like that. I guess I've been living a bit wrong, seeing as I don't have a single friend like that.
Leaving my loneliness behind, I walked home. The chilly air felt awkward, perhaps because autumn had come so quickly.
“I met you in early summer, but it’s already fall.”
Time always seemed to pass slowly, but why now... does it seem to pass so quickly? Is it because I'm so happy? Time usually passes faster when I'm playing than when I'm studying.
“But seriously, I’ve lived here for 18 years, and what have I been doing during that long time without making a single friend?”
It's a long time if it's long and a short time if it's short, but... somehow, because one thing doesn't work out, it all seems wrong.
3. Just a little more
“.. It’s been a long time.”
" .. okay "
Actually, it's not been that long. I'm back at my house again.It had only been three days. But the three days without my uncle felt longer than the four months I had spent with him, so I just said it had been a long time.
“Your eyes are... really swollen.”
“ ... “
“I heard it roughly from the fairy uncle...”
" .. okay "
“Even if it’s hard, he’s still handsome. Haha.”
“ ... “
I tried to lighten the awkward, gloomy atmosphere by throwing in a joke, but it didn't seem to work. Well, whatever I say now will sound sad and I'll feel guilty.
“Guilt... Don’t feel too guilty.”
" uh..? "
“I… I hope you don’t get hurt, sir. I think that’s what dad wants too. He’s the person my only daughter loves… even if he kills himself.”
“ ... “
“My father was a man who always put us siblings before himself.”
" but.. "
“Don’t feel guilty. And as for me… I’ll sort things out.”
“ ... “
“I think it would be best if we really call it a day with this meeting.”
“..a little more”
" yes..? "
“Could you please come a little closer?”
“What does that mean..?”
“Now that it’s clear, I didn’t want to tell you.”
“ ... “
“I think I like you”
Now that I'm finally hearing the truth, it sounds sad yet sweet. I guess it means she still really likes me, sir. But...
“ .. You sir.. “
“ ..? “
“Just a little bit… Come a little faster.. “
" that is.. "
“Then please grant me one wish.”
“What is it?”
“Just once… can you hug me?”
" .. uh? "
"I kept thinking about it, but I couldn't bring myself to say it. Even when you came back from the mission, and at the amusement park..."
“ ... “
“Maybe this is the last time.. No, because it is the last time.”
“ ... “
Just once... just once...
“Please… hug me.”
The old man hesitated for a moment at my words...
Hug,
“..It’s warm, uncle’s arms”
" .. I know. "
" mister.. "
“Why.. are you calling me?”
“I’m saying this because it’s the last time...”
“ ..? “
“I love you. Haha”
thump,
" .. me too "
We held each other in silence for a while. I really didn't want to leave, thinking it was the end. But... we were destined to part ways in the end.
After a while,
“Now… I’ll go. Don’t feel too guilty.”
" .. okay "
That's how we truly saw each other off. Why does his back, as he turns away without a trace, feel so lonely? I think it's because it really is the end.
I walked home, holding back the tears that threatened to burst out at any moment. But...
Suddenly,
“I’m out..”
“..? Why are you crying, Yeoju? What kind of kid are you?”
"What, you're crying? No, just calm down."
“Huh.. heuk oppa.. Chan.. “
I held it in, but I couldn't hold it in in front of my family. The word "family" was so warm, and when I cried, these two people immediately rushed to comfort me, their warmth so warm that I couldn't help but cry.
Although I may have looked strong and bright on the outside, inside I was no different from water that would spill out at the slightest tilt. It was like the water inside an eggshell, precariously holding on inside the shell that would break with the slightest force.
“Huh.. oh my brother.. Chan.. what should I do now.. “
“What’s going on? Huh?”
“Is it because of that guy you liked before?”
“Sob.. sob.. what should I do.. “
Eventually, I cried all night and fell asleep in their arms, and they stayed by my side until I fell asleep.
After the heroine fell asleep,
“.. It’s my first time seeing Yeoju-noona cry”
“I used to cry a lot. I hated being wronged, so whenever something like that happened, I would just cry without being able to speak.”
“You speak well now.”
“.. I think I started crying whenever something unfair happened after my father passed away.. but I stopped crying when I was in 5th or 6th grade.”
“..who really made me cry?”
“It didn’t just unilaterally cry… It exploded, didn’t it?”
“What does that mean?”
“It’s not that someone unilaterally hurt Yeoju.. It’s that her unrequited love may not have come true for unavoidable reasons.”
“ ..? “
“Phew.. You’ll find out later.”
" tooth.. "
“I’ll put the lady in the room, so you should go and sleep now.”
“Yeah yeah~”
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