1. Find out too late
“..sigh this is driving me crazy”
It's strange. Clearly... he was a normal person... but I actually wished he'd just disappear. But... why do I hate myself so much now that I know that?
“Kwon Soon-young, really.. ha”
It hurts more than ever. Strangely, even medicine doesn't work. It keeps bothering my heart.
“Ha.. hauk.. huah.. “
My mind is spinning like crazy. Everything is going black... Oh, so this is what it means to be in so much pain that you feel like you're going to die.
at that time,
Suddenly,
“Hoshi. It’s time to go to the strategy meeting.. Kwon Hoshi!!!”
“Ha..uh..haa.. “
I lost consciousness and opened my eyes to find myself lying in my bed. Did J call Jun?
My head hurts like it's going to explode, and my heart aches. The shock of finding out so late was truly devastating.
“.. Even in this situation, why do I only worry about him.. Seriously”
It hurts, but I keep worrying about Yeo-ju. How shocked must she have been? The person she used to follow around because she liked him is the one who killed her father. If I were her, I would have slapped her and cut her off right away.
“Ha.. Lee Yeo-ju.. Are you okay?”
But then,
“Honey... be honest. Do you like Yeoju?”
“Huh..hyung? Since when..?”
"It's been there since you called me Yeoju. Now it's time to be honest. Why hesitate?"
“Brother.. didn’t you hear?”
" uh? "
“.. This woman’s father passed away about 13 years ago.. “
" .. no way "
“I was the one who killed that person. That was my first mission that day.”
“What?!! Is this...isn’t this girl okay? I don’t think she’s mentally strong?!!”
“Keep your voice down.. and everyone knows except hyung.”
“Somehow… there was no reaction to the news that the female lead had appeared…”
“What does that mean? Why is he reacting to that?”
“This jerk... is jealous.. “
“..That’s funny. Seriously.”
“Well… this is… a situation where I can’t even tell you to push it in.”
“..I don’t know. Really.”
“Are you okay? It hurts.”
“No, this time, strangely, the medicine doesn’t even listen to me.”
“.. I think it’s a combination of guilt and lovesickness.”
“Love sickness..? What is that?”
“The so-called lovesickness, the disease of missing someone and wanting to hold them... that kind of disease.”
“What are you talking about.. If you’re going to say something weird, get out.”
“You’re more worried about Yeoju getting hurt than about yourself being sick right now.”
" that.. "
I couldn't really refute it. Even now, I care more about Yeo-ju than the pain.
“Anyway, think about it carefully.. Oh, no, is it already over?”
“..get out”
“Haha, what’s that habit you have for talking to hyung?”
“Ah, get out of here quickly! I’m going to rest.”
“Yeah~^^ I think about you a lot, Yeoju.”
“That guy is really..!”
bang,
“.. I think my head hurts more”
Eventually, I closed my eyes because my head was hurting even more, but I couldn't fall asleep because I kept thinking about that kid. Ha... I'm going crazy, really.
If only this heroine were me... I wish I were sick. If only I were sick... I don't think I would have any more wishes.
2. It's a ridiculous suggestion, but
“What? You call that a word?”
“I heard from Coups yesterday that he doesn’t listen to his advice and keeps looking for Yeoju.”
“Ha.. why is that guy so useless.. “
"The heroine said she understood. Go meet her."
“Then what gets better? Or does it get better at all?!”
"Kwon Soon-young. Come to your senses."
" what? "
“If you don’t want to meet Yeoju, then get your mind right and don’t get sick. But you can’t do that, no, you can’t do it!!”
“ .. Lee Ji-hoon “
"If it doesn't work out, I'll have to do something. You... Are you a killer in this state? I have no choice but to quit."
“You really...”
"Wake up. Stop talking nonsense, you negative bastard."
“ ... “
I have to tell myself I won't go, I have to keep denying it, but my heart keeps telling me no. I want to run over and ask if I'm okay, if it's hard... There are countless things I want to ask.
I don't think it'll get better if I go, but rather worse... I still want to go.
In the end, I decided to go. Well... it's better than not going at all..
It's ridiculous, but I want to believe that things will get better. I've already heard ridiculous suggestions, and I just want to accept them.
3. What I really wanted to say
“..where the hell is the park?”
Lee Ji-hoon clearly said it was around here... but where the heck is the park?
The park... I can't see a single tree. There are no children playing... Where on earth is the park?
at that time,
“Really… you’re here”
“ .. Lee Yeo-ju “
“.. It’s been a long time.”
" I know.. "
It's been a while since I've seen you, and you look quite tired. You pretend to be fine, but the red, swollen corners of your eyes tell the story of how hard it is.
“Your eyes are... really swollen.”
“ ... “
“I heard it roughly from the fairy uncle...”
" .. okay "
“Even if it’s hard, he’s still handsome. Haha.”
“ ... “
It must be hard to say a single word... Why do you look so sad when you always tell me I'm handsome? You smile and talk like before, but there's still sadness in your eyes.
“Guilt... Don’t feel too guilty.”
" uh..? "
“I… I hope you don’t get hurt, sir. I think that’s what dad wants too. He’s the person my only daughter loves… even if he kills himself.”
“ ... “
“My father was a man who always put us siblings before himself.”
" but.. "
“Don’t feel guilty. And as for me… I’ll sort things out.”
You're organizing..? The moment I heard the word "organizing," my brain became a blank slate as if an eraser had been used. You're organizing..?
“ ... “
“I think it would be best if we really call it a day with this meeting.”
If this really is our last meeting... I have something to say.
“..a little more”
" yes..? "
“Could you please come a little closer?”
“What does that mean..?”
“Now that it’s clear, I didn’t want to tell you.”
I thought it wouldn't do any good to tell him. But... if this really were the last time... I want to do it. No, I think I should.
“ ... “
“I think I like you”
I really wanted to convey my true feelings, my feelings that I realized too late. My true feelings that I had held back.
“ .. You sir.. “
“ ..? “
“Just a little bit… Come a little faster.. “
" that is.. "
“Then please grant me one wish.”
wish...?
“What is it?”
“Just once… can you hug me?”
" .. uh? "
"I kept thinking about it, but I couldn't bring myself to say it. Even when you came back from the mission, and at the amusement park..."
“ ... “
“Maybe this is the last time.. No, because it is the last time.”
“ ... “
Just once... If only it were just once...
“Please… hug me.”
This is really the last time... If it's just this once... It wouldn't be bad to hug you, no, I want to hug you.
Hug,
“..It’s warm, uncle’s arms”
" .. I know. "
It's not my embrace that's warm, it's your embrace that's warm.
" mister.. "
“Why.. are you calling me?”
“I’m saying this because it’s the last time...”
“ ..? “
“I love you. Haha”
thump,
Really... I think the word 'last' is enough to change a person. Because you give it a reason like 'last'... everything makes sense and you rationalize that you can do anything.
" .. me too "
We held each other in silence for a while. I really didn't want to leave, thinking it would be the last time. But... I said it would be the last time.
After a while,
“Now… I’ll go. Don’t feel too guilty.”
" .. okay "
I finally left you for real. I feel better than before, but... thinking that it's the end, I miss and miss every moment I spent with you.
Gulp,
“Huh.. huk.. haa.. really”
Even if I have to walk a thorny path, I want to turn around and run to you. I want to go and hug you. I want to tell you I love you. I like you.
But... that can't be possible.
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