This work is fiction and is unrelated to real people or events.
There is no intention to disparage or put down any specific artist.
This is a fanwork based on BTOB’s 〈Missing You〉.
I’ll delete it if any problems arise.

(News)

These days, murder cases targeting women in their 20s are occurring one after another, and the police....

*beep-*

*Without a word, Yeonjun turned off the TV. The house, with the TV off, was unbearably quiet.*

▪︎....ha....why of all things..is this kind of news showing up now..
.......(just in case, I check my phone once, but only the messages from earlier are left on it)

-Oppa, I’m home!
▪︎Yeah, good job. Did you have fun with your friends?
-YeahㅎㅎIt was so much fun since it had been a while since we met up? We lost track of time while hanging out
▪︎...Right, you must be tired, so go in and rest soon

Sigh..honestly, I’m worried. It’s not like Yeoju is late every day, and today she was just late coming home because she was out with friends. Ugh, this is annoying. Especially after seeing that kind of news earlier..
Lately, Yeoju has been meeting her friends a lot more than usual..
Well, if she meets them a lot, that’s good, yeah..

*A few days later*

▪︎Yeoju, where are you going?
-Ah, did I not tell Oppa? I have plans again today ㅜㅜ
▪︎You’ve had a lot of plans lately
-Yeah..I hadn’t been able to see the guys for a while, and we finally all managed to make plans..ㅜSorry
▪︎It’s fine, happy 3rd anniversary today
-You remembered? I’ll be home early today, so let’s celebrate our 3rd anniversary together!
▪︎Okay

Hmm..but still, it’s our 3rd anniversary..I should buy a gift, right?

*For now, I search around aimlessly and head out*

▪︎Flowers..I gave a bouquet on our 1st anniversary..we already have couple rings..a necklace? Ah, I think I’ve already given five as gifts
Ah.. what should I give then..

*Looking at the ring displayed in the jewelry store*
▪︎Oh, this is the one Yeoju said she wanted last time. I’ll use this for our couple rings, hehe

*Inside the store*

▪︎Hello
Clerk: Welcome. Is there a product you’re looking for?
▪︎I’d like to get matching couple rings with my girlfriend
Clerk: What ring size is your girlfriend?
▪︎...Was it 10? I don’t really remember..
▪︎Ah, we got rings made here last time, so is there any record or something?
Clerk: Just a moment, your name?
▪︎Choi Yeonjun
Clerk: Ah, there’s a purchase record here, haha. Should I make both of yours in this size?
▪︎Yes. Ah, the design is...

*And just like that, they safely got new matching couple rings*

▪︎Ah..I’m tired, but I still have to make dinner tonight
I should stop by the supermarket, do some shopping, and head home.

Wait..isn’t that Yeoju?

▪︎No way..she said she was going out with friends, but why is she with some guy..
Well..maybe he’s just a guy friend..maybe..yeah,..why does it have to be just the two of them..

*Yeonjun came home, trying to brainwash himself. But Yeoju, who said she’d be home early, still hadn’t come back even by 8 p.m..*

▪︎Ha...this is so annoying, seriously..she’ll come back a little later, right..yeah..

*But for Yeonjun, this kind of thing had been repeating lately, and doing this even today, on their 3rd anniversary, made him furious*
▪︎Kim Yeoju, just you wait until you get here..I’m really going to talk to you today, no matter what

*About 30 minutes later, Yeoju comes home*

-Oppa, I’m sorryㅎㅎYou’re not mad, are you?

▪︎Kim Yeoju.
-Y-yeah..?
▪︎Ha..I’ve been putting up with it all this time, but seriously..isn’t this too much? You come home late every day, and today is our anniversary too..!!
-No..I said I was sorry, didn’t I..
▪︎Do you think saying sorry once makes everything okay? Yeoju, I’m only saying this because I’ve held it in and held it in.
-No, it’s not like I took it for granted or anything..!
▪︎Ha..don’t just think from your side, try thinking from my side too, would you..!
-Oppa should try thinking from my side too.
▪︎What I’m saying is..! Ugh, forget it,
-What? What’s forgotten?! Say it.
▪︎If I keep talking any more right now, we’re just going to fight
-You started it first, Oppa
▪︎I saw you earlier, after you went out
-Y-you..what? Y-you saw me?(flustered)
Why are you freaking out? Do you have something to hide?

-Something to hide..? Of course notㅈ

▪︎Want me to be honest? You were out on a date with some other guy earlier
-He’s just a friend..
▪︎Just a friend? You go around laughing and having all that sweet fun with a friend? To the point where you’d put off our 3rd anniversary and your boyfriend too?
-Don’t get so sensitive
▪︎Ha..ㅋYeah, so I’m the sensitive one again? Aren’t you the one who cries every time I so much as make eye contact with another girl? This is the first time I’ve said something like this to you today
-Ugh, I don’t know;
▪︎Kim Yeoju.
-Ah, can’t you just give me a little privacy?
▪︎Privacy?
Hey, are you cheating on me with some other guy?

-What?

▪︎I’m asking you. Are you cheating on me with that guy from earlier?
-Are you suspecting me right now?
▪︎Yeah. It’s not just any day, and if it’s a guy you’re meeting on our anniversary, I wonder just how amazing he is
-No..ha..Oppa, I think there’s been a misunderstanding..
▪︎A misunderstanding?
-.........
Yeoju, let’s just break up

-Are you serious?

-Yeah.
Fine, you always do this, don’t you? Fine, then I’ll get out of your way (She slowly takes off the first couple ring on her finger, sets it on the table, and leaves the house.)

*click-*

▪︎..ha...shit×...

*An hour later, the rain grows heavier and heavier. I’m worried about Yeoju, but..we’ve already broken up, so what does it matter.. Then Yeonjun gets a frantic call from Yeoju*

▪︎What...

*He covers the loudly ringing phone. Only because right now, with one reason, he wants to erase every thought of Yeoju.*

*11:48 p.m., a call comes in from an unknown number*

▪︎Hello..?
*The moment Yeonjun answers, he hears what’s being said over the phone and runs somewhere without even an umbrella. Where he ends up is..*

×× Hospital

▪︎Haa..ha..th-this is....I’m the guardian of patient Kim Yeoju

Nurse: Please follow me this way
It feels like my mind is about to go blank. The place the nurse guided me to is in front of the operating room. Ha..shit×,..our Yeoju is the victim..ㅋ...and of that damn random murder case, too..

The longer the surgery goes on, the more my mind drifts further into madness. Then..the reason she contacted me earlier too..ha..Choi Yeonjun, you crazy bastard..You ignored that call? Who the hell do you think you are?

What would Yeoju say when she sees me, would she scold me for not answering my phone? Or would she be happy that I came to see her?

Ah, I don’t know. I really don’t know anything. I can’t think straight, and nothing is getting through my ears. It’s like I’m trapped in my own little world
One minute feels like several hours. I’m definitely sitting here, I’m definitely fine, but for some reason it aches and hurts like I’ve been stabbed. It hurts so much it feels like I’ll die. If only..if only..it had been me instead of Yeoju..

*Time passes and the doctor comes out*

Doctor: The surgery is over, but..we don’t know when consciousness will come back..

*Thud*

Doctor: I’m sorry..

Are you going to disappear after leaving only those words? The doctor? Ah..ㅎ...why is this world like this?

Why are you trying to take everything from me?
No,..it was me who was trying to cut off that everything..
*Hospital room*

▪︎....Yeoju,..I’m sorry,..I’m so sorry..I’m sorry for not seeing your messages..and just..I’m sorry for everything..
*Then the man who was with Yeoju earlier comes in*

▪︎(coldly) Who?

???: Ah, I’m Yeoju’s friend...until just earlier..ha..how did it come to this..
▪︎....
???: You’re her boyfriend, right? I’ve heard a lot about you..
▪︎Ah, yes..that’s right. I’m Choi Yeonjun. And you are..
???: I’m Yeoju’s college classmate. I have short hair, so some people mistake me for a guy sometimes, but I’m a woman, and today with Yeoju..she asked me to help because she said she had to buy a 3rd anniversary gift. Just a moment ago, she looked like she was about to lose it while choosing the gift, and it feels like that was only seconds ago..
▪︎...What? A gi,ft?
???: Ah..you didn’t know?
▪︎..No..
???: Yeoju said that since today was your 3rd anniversary, you absolutely had to buy something nice, so she asked me to help.
▪︎Ah..I see..thank you for telling me.
???: I should head out now too..I just stopped by to see Yeoju’s face for a moment...
*And with that, the door closes and the two are left alone again.*

Thud-

My legs lose their strength again. I’m such an idiot. I can’t stand how ridiculously stupid I am. Why did I suspect Yeoju? That sweet girl? ㅎ

▪︎Yeoju, I’m sorry..wake up...please..if you just wake up, I’ll do anything you ask me to..so..please..

*As if to mock that desperate plea, months pass, then a year passes, and Yeoju still doesn’t wake up*

▪︎Yeoju..you’re late because that long dream was just too fun, right?

Yeoju, you know, I’m still going through each day like nothing’s different today too

I, who thought I couldn’t live without you, am somehow living just fine like this.
..But really, that’s a lie
Every time I look at the empty house, every time I see traces of you, I miss the you from back then so much it drives me crazy.
You always told me not to dwell on things that have passed, but how could I..If I had only answered your call back then, none of this would have happened
Time only moves forward, but nothing has been accomplished

You’re still the only one in my heart
I miss those days when you’d smile brightly and hug me, and another day passes, and somehow a year has become one

I’m just....living like this
I keep telling myself that everything will be okay, but I can’t believe it’ll ever really be like that

The way you looked when we first met still feels like yesterday

That morning when you woke up and complained with your hair all tangled too

That evening when you came to meet me after work too
The way you’d sit in front of me munching away and chattering too
The us from then, when we traveled and laughed and ran around too
I miss it so much
We can’t go back to how it was then, can we?
These days I can’t even watch the news; every time I turn it on, I feel like you’ll be on it. On that cold rainy day, you must have been terrified..you must have felt betrayed even by me, the one you trusted..I keep imagining you collapsing and bleeding on that cold floor

That bastard who stabbed you appears on the same screen too
I can’t stand it anymore
Your lingering traces drive me crazy

They call up my guilt and drag me back into old memories
If I go to the hospital room, I can see you lying there..you’re still..right beside me..but I can’t bring myself to go see you there. Because all I can think about is my mistake..because I’m so sorry to you, and because I miss your smile so much it hurts
We can’t love like mad or fight like mad the way we did back then
Even if it’s just my selfishness, that’s okay

Can we go back to being the happy us?
Answer me, Yeoju

I miss us from back then so much