08ㅣSwoon
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The goosebumps and fear I felt then came flooding back. I covered my mouth and vomited out bitter stomach acid, even though I hadn't eaten anything. Now that I knew, the pain surged back, and Taehyung's voice kept lingering in my mind.
Already in a state of panic, I stood there for a long time, leaning against the sink and facing the mirror. My eyes were unfocused, and I even hallucinated, as if Taehyung was watching me from behind. Even when I was still, tears flowed endlessly, and my stomach churned as I continued to empty myself of the empty liquid. A stabbing pain surged through my shoulder, and I felt dizzy.
My hair stood on end, my face turned pale, and my vision blurred. Perhaps it was the sheer shock, or perhaps it was simply the result of starvation, nightmares, and lack of sleep for days, that finally brought me crashing to the floor.
My body lurched to one side, and I fell over with a loud thud. I felt no strength left in me, and instead of crying, I burst into laughter. I couldn't believe I'd ended up in this situation because of a boyfriend who'd changed so little. Self-doubt engulfed me, and my eyes closed.
For the first time in a long time, I woke up feeling light and refreshed, not heavy-eyed. My dark vision gradually adjusted to the white background, and when my vision returned to normal, I saw a hospital. Only then did I realize I'd collapsed.
I felt like I'd briefly fainted from malnutrition and insomnia. I was well aware of my condition. But no matter how long I'd slept, I couldn't have woken up so refreshed. In fact, sleeping too long tends to make my body feel stiff.
Questioning everything, I tried to sit up slightly, but not even my fingers would move. My eyes simply rolled. As I panicked and tried to keep moving, my throat tightened and I couldn't breathe. As I continued to gasp, someone beside me whispered softly in my ear.
“Is it painful? I was in pain too.”
“How many times more pain do you feel now?”