This story is fiction
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My first love was 10 years ago, when I was 15. The moment I first saw him, he seemed like an angel from
could I say? Looking back now, it might feel cringey
He was kind to everyone, and when he smiled, he was like no other angel
Time seemed to pass as if it were just the two of us, the world reduced to me and him. Unlike me, he
had lots of friends around him, and I was shy and quiet, always drifting on the outskirts without any close friends
The only thing I could rely on was the drums. Every lunchtime
I practiced drums in the band room. One day, unlike usual, I was practicing hard when
the unexpected him peered in, and when he saw my face
he came in looking a little shy. I froze, stopped every movement, and stared with my eyes
wide open
" Hi?"
" ..yeah, hi"
" So you were Huening. I always heard the drums, and I was curious who it was"
" ...."
" I didn't know it was you, though. You're really cool"
He clapped and kept praising me for being cool
and my face burned as I had no idea what to do with myself
" ..t-thank you"
" How long have you been playing the drums?"
" I started in fifth grade and I've been doing it ever since"
" Wow, amazing! I'm the type who can't stick with anything for long, so I'm jealous"
Before I knew it, I started rambling about drums, and from the reason I started to play them
throughout the whole time he listened to my childhood stories, I saw his eyes sparkling and thought
he was definitely an angel descended from heaven
" You're really cute, and you talk well too, so why were you so quiet?"
" ...I'm really shy around people I don't know, but I can talk a lot about
the music I love"
" Then, Huening, tell me more about yourself. Right, I heard you're an idol trainee?
You already look handsome, so I bet you'd be popular even as an idol?"
" ..d-do I look handsome?"
" Yes!"
Hearing that I was handsome, my heart was reacting like crazy
After that, we grew close. Thanks to him, I could naturally mix with my friends
and the time spent chattering beside me was so precious
I wanted to tell him how grateful I was for the memories he gave me in middle school
I even thought about confessing, but if I were rejected it would be hard to even stay friends, so I kept putting it off
until time passed and it became the middle school graduation ceremony
" Huening, congratulations on graduating"
" Thanks, Byeol. Congratulations on graduating too"
" I'll cheer you on. If you debut later, make sure you sign the debut album for me!
And don't forget me, okay?"
" Yeah, I will"
" Promise!"
It was you smiling brightly as you hooked your pinky finger with mine. I'll definitely keep that promise. As I became a high school student
at first we met with friends, but because we went to different schools, seeing each other together was by no means easy
Each of us had our own circumstances, and we were busy adjusting to new schools, friends, and environments
I became part of an idol debut team, and confessing turned into an even harder thing. Byeol became
someone who always cheered me on, and I spent my trainee days thinking of Byeol, whom I'd meet someday
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At 18, I successfully debuted as an idol, and after debuting, on the day I was given a short vacation
I contacted Byeol and we were able to meet for the first time in almost a year and a half
It felt as exciting as going back to when we first met. The you I saw at 18 looked more mature
You with the pretty smiling face came toward me, grinning brightly
" Byeol!"
" Huening! Congratulations on your debut. I watched the broadcast, you were really amazing. I could only see you"
" Hehe, thanks"
Pat pat, on tiptoe your small hand came to rest on my head
and you stroked my hair. Seeing my shy expression under the streetlight, I
felt awkward for no reason
" Sorry for calling you out this late at night. People recognize me a lot"
" It's okay. I came because I wanted to keep my promise. Thanks for the album, I'll treasure it well
the autograph is as cute as you are??"
" Hahaha;; this is awkward for no reason. Look here, in the thanks-to there’s a note about you too"
" Oh, my friend is an idol nowㅎㅎmy bias from now on is you, Huening!!
I'll work hard fangirling. Huening, fighting!"
Though it was a short meeting, seeing Byeol again felt like I was recharged, and I was so happy
And during my hiatus we met often and spent happy times together. Now, because I was busier than when I was a rookie
we barely kept in touch with Byeol, and Byeol, who used to message me every single day,
disappeared at some point. According to my friends, Byeol was very sick and in the hospital
After promotions ended, I contacted Byeol whenever I could, but there was no reply
After asking around, I found the hospital where Byeol was admitted, but I couldn't gather the courage to
wander in front of Byeol's hospital room. Just then the door opened, and
a middle-aged woman who saw me spoke first kindly
" Are you a student named Huening?"
" Yes, I am"
" I'm Byeol's mom"
" Ah, hello, ma'am"
" I've heard a lot about you from our Byeol. She kept bragging about her wonderful boyfriend
so much that she was always talking about you. You're here to see Byeol, right?"
" Ah.. yes"
" Go on in"
When Byeol's mom finished speaking, I opened the hospital room door and went in. Through the humidifier mist
I could see Byeol lying on the hospital bed. With a body gaunt compared to a year ago, a
pale face with almost no color, sensing someone's presence, Byeol thought it was her mom and raised her upper body, but
when she met eyes with Kai, she froze on the spot
" ..Huening Kai?"
" Byeol"
" How did you get here.."
" I heard you were sick, so I couldn't just stay put and came to see you"
" I'm sorry. I didn't contact you on purpose because I didn't want you to see me sick.."
" It's okay, don't be sorry"
" Don't look at me, Huening"
With her head lowered, Byeol's hand gripping the sheet trembled slightly
and I wrapped my hand around hers, whispering in a soft, comfortable voice
" Look at me, Byeol"
" ...."
" I told you I missed you. Aren't you going to show me your face?"
Slowly she lifted her head and looked at me. Byeol's eyes sparkled with tears
After letting a smile appear at the corner of my mouth, I wiped away her flowing tears and
carefully hugged the body far smaller than mine. Byeol, as if she'd been waiting, clung to my chest
And like that, we stayed wrapped in each other's arms, saying nothing and only listening to each other's beating hearts
" I'm thinking of inviting you to my concert. Can you come?"
" Yes! I think I can go! I want to see your cool side on stage in person"
" Thank you so much, Byeol. I'll definitely invite you. Let's eat with our members"
" Okay! If it's something with Huening, I like everything"
I would never be able to forget your childlike, radiant smile
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Byeol, who had been so excited and said she'd come to the concert, ended up not keeping that promise
The year I turned 20, Byeol quietly went on a long journey without even saying a final goodbye to me
Before my grief could even fade, one day a friend handed me a letter
The envelope had
my starwritten on it, and with trembling hands I slowly read the letter. It was probably written after meeting me
[ Hi! Huening! It's Byeol. If you're reading this letter, I guess I've become a star in the sky?
I wanted to show only pretty sides of myself to you, but sorry for getting annoyed
It reminds me of debut day. You really came looking for me holding the debut album
You were so cute. Now you've gotten bigger and look like a bear. Well, I mean cute
so you won't get hurtㅋㅋㅋAnd thank you so much for keeping your promise. The members treat you well, right?
From what I saw before, they seemed like nice people. I think you'll be loved a lot
I really wanted to go to the concert, but my body isn't keeping up. I thought I'd get betterㅜㅜ
Ah! This isn't important, but did you think of me even a little?
I thought of you a lotㅎㅎ Anyway, you're really amazing. I knew you'd do well
And I was happy to be with you at the end. I'll cheer you on from the sky
You're truly a wonderful friend I'm proud of! You're my forever star
Oh, Huening, thank you for liking me^^ I'll remember you for my whole life
I miss you..Huening..♡ ]
I really miss you so much, Byeol,
If I'd known this would happen, I would have just stayed by your side..
In the urn, there was my signed debut album and a photo taken with me
Your bright smile saved me
THANKS TO, my little angel Byeol
Did you listen to 'Star Song,' the one I participated in composing this time? It's so good, right?
Taehyun and the hyungs praised it a lot. As you probably guessed, I wrote it thinking of you
I'm sorry I couldn't see you often because I kept using being busy as an excuse, and I'm sorry for even writing these words
Byeol, who made friends for me and always stepped up first whenever it was about me
And Byeol, who became a ray of light in my life
You're watching over me from the sky too, right? Whenever I look at the sparkling night sky, I
feel like you're definitely looking at me. I won't disappoint you, the one who's always cheering me on from my side
I'll work even harder and harder. I loved you, and I love you
To my little angel ㅡ END
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This seems like a text that goes well with TXT's 'Star Song,' maybe?
TXT has so many songs I love🥲it's hard to choose, each one is a favorite
Please listen while reading the text, or after reading it? No, don't listen, it'll ruin it..
It wasn't an intended story, but as I kept writing?? I revised it a lot, but more than I thought it still falls short
Still, thank you for reading it enjoyably!
That was all, the author's fangirling🙇♂️
