We decided not to cross the line.

Episode 114. Darkness

Once the tears started flowing,

they wouldn’t stop.





For the guilt of not being able to accept his feelings,

for the guilt of not being able to grant his last request...

I cried and cried some more.






Hunji gently cupped my face with both hands

and wiped away my tears.






My heart ached for Julien,

and Hunji’s heart ached seeing my tears.





When we arrived at the airport,

after getting out of the car, I knelt right there on the road.

I wanted to apologize to Julien’s parents.





"I’m sorry... I’m so sorry..

I couldn’t accept Julien’s feelings...

I...

I... hurt that person’s heart.

To both of you, truly...

I’m sorry.
 
I wanted Julien to come to the hospital, but

he said he couldn’t come... "






Julien’s parents wrapped their arms around me.


Unable to say a word,

they stroked my back.





I know my sorrow can’t compare to

the sorrow of the two of them who lost a son.




Before they left the airport,

I gave them a warm hug.

I wanted to comfort the two of them with all my heart.





After parting with Julien’s parents,

I sat by the gate waiting for my flight time.





Hunji tucked the hair that had fallen over my face

behind my ear and asked me,






"Want something to drink?

Some hot tea or coffee...

Or should I get you water?"






I turned my head and quietly looked at Hunji’s face.

For a while, I just kept looking at his face like that.





He hadn’t eaten anything all day either

and looked exhausted from taking care of me.





"I think you should eat something too, Hunji.

We still... have some time before the flight, right?"





"We still have to wait about an hour."





"Then you should eat something, Hunji."






"What about you, Jeong-a?"






"I... want something warm to drink."






"Okay. Got it.

Lean on me when you get up."





We went somewhere we could grab a quick bite.





"Hunji..."






"Yeah, go ahead.

What can I do for you?

I’ll do anything I can...

so tell me.
 
....

I wish there was something I could give you..."

I took his hand resting on the table.

 



Seeing Hunji eat put me at ease,





and I took a sip of coffee too.

Maybe because of the warmth, or maybe because of the caffeine,

I felt a little more awake.

After a few hours,






only after the sun had fully set and it was dark

did we return to our haven.

Today felt like after watching a sad movie,





spent, tired, and listless.

I showered and lay down on the bed.





He held my hand tight.





Soon, his breathing, as if drifting into deep sleep,

fell into a steady rhythm.

I carefully slipped my hand free





and sat up against the headboard.

After sitting like that for a long while,





and not feeling sleepy,

I threw on some clothes and went outside.

I wanted to clear my head in the night air.





Frigilliana at midnight was silent.





Not a sound could be heard except my footsteps.

The peaceful, warm look it had during the day was nowhere to be seen,


leaving only pitch-black darkness behind.

I slowly walked up the hill above the village.





How long had I been walking...?

Far away, the lights of Nerja were visible,





and beyond that, the black Mediterranean stretched out.

'Where did things start going wrong...





I hadn’t been able to forget Hunji,

and yet I accepted Julien’s proposal?

While I was seeing Julien,

was it when I went to Korea to see Hunji?

When he said he’d pretend nothing had happened,

was it when I refused?

Where did my choices start going wrong...' "I searched the whole village."

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