We decided not to cross the line (Season 2)

Episode 110. Resentment

When I opened my eyes, I saw a white ceiling.

Looking around, I realized I was in a hospital room.




For a moment, as if my mind had stopped,

I couldn’t remember why I was here.




'Accident...'




I remembered that there had been an accident,

and then memories of the intensive care unit and the transplant surgery

slowly came back to me.




And...

This morning, Manager Kim had

even come to my hospital room.




The letter Manager had handed me.

I remembered the letter too.




And the contents of the letter...

The contents of the letter written by Jeong-a came flooding back

into my mind like a scene from a movie.





'Jeong-a died...?'




I couldn’t even tell whether this was reality or a dream.

'How could Jeong-a die?





Am I living in a world where Jeong-a isn’t here?

Did she die because of me?

What on earth happened while I was lying here?'

I slowly sat myself up.





No one was in the hospital room.





I stared blankly out the window.

The sunlight was shining so brightly like that,




and everything was exactly where it should be...

Was it really possible

that I could no longer see Jeong-a?

For it to be that way?





I sat there blankly for a long time

when the hospital room door opened and someone came in.





It was my older sister.





"Awake? Hunji?"




The moment she saw me sitting up on the bed,

she ran over in a few quick steps.





"Are you okay?

How does your stomach feel?"




I looked at her in silence.




"Just now... you were really upset, so

I gave you a sleeping pill..."





"Did you know?"





"...Know what?"





"Hyung said Jeong-a died."





"...."





"Did you know too?"




My sister couldn’t say anything for a while.





"...I’m sorry, but there was no choice..."






"Jeong-a died,

so why is everyone apologizing to me?

After hurting me and telling me not to see her anymore,

did you even go so far as to persuade her

to give me a liver transplant?"






"...The test results...

Jeong-a was the only one...

who was a match.

We couldn’t stop it either.

We had to save you..."





"So you just left it alone?

No matter what happened to Jeong-a,

you told her to give me her liver?"





"She herself stepped forward, got tested,

and said she’d go through with the transplant surgery..."





"Since Jeong-a said she would do it,

everyone was all too happy.

So Hunji gets to live now.

Is that what it was?"






"Hunji... why are you saying it like that...

We were hurting and struggling too.

After the surgery, you were recovering...

but Jeong-a didn’t wake up.

She suddenly went into shock and even had a brain hemorrhage...
 
Only then, when we contacted your parents and older sister,

could we hardly bear how we felt..."





I looked at my sister.





"What are you talking about?
 
Jeong-a’s parents didn’t know she was having surgery?"





"Haah... we thought your parents would oppose it...

so we only told your older sister and did the surgery."





"Then Jeong-a’s parents

didn’t even know she had the surgery,

and only found out after Jeong-a died?"





My sister was crying with her head bowed.

 


"Ah......... Sis, this isn’t right....

This isn’t right....."




I pounded my chest with both hands.


It felt like something was pressing

right in the middle of my chest.

I couldn’t even breathe properly.





"Jeong-a’s parents only found out later that their daughter had been

put on an operating table...

Why did you do it....

Why on earth did you do it....

You should have just let me die...."





This was like hell.

A hell I had to endure while alive.





Then the hospital room door opened,

and a doctor came in.





I got down from the bed barefoot

and grabbed the doctor’s pant leg.





"Doctor...

please just kill me... please..."





The doctor and nurses held me down

and laid me back on the bed.

And once again, they injected me with a shot.





"Jeong-a...

I’m sorry... I’m so sorry...

I can’t see you again,

can’t even touch you...

what does it mean for only me to be alive...?"





As I cried, thinking of her face,

my consciousness soon began to fade.





"It’s already been... six months...?" <111화 중에서>