We decided not to cross the line (Season 2)

Episode 38. A Heart That Hasn't Ended Yet

He saw me coming out of the cafe and

got out of the car and walked over to me.





"Are we going to the film company today?"





"Yes.

"But what are you doing here, Hoonji?"






"I came to give you a ride."




He said it casually.




"There’s no filming today.

And you left your car here yesterday, too."





I looked at him with wide eyes.





"You came here just to drive me?"





"Yeah..."





"Hoonji. I’m not a little kid or anything..."




I trailed off.




"And... we...

No, never mind.

I’m taking the subway.

Thanks for caring, but just go.

I’m fine."





"You came all this way on purpose, and you want me to just go?"





I was baffled by his behavior, but

at the same time, this situation was awkward for me.




Then he looked at me and said,




"Jung-ah.

We can just keep things casual, like friends.

Don’t draw the line so firmly.

Can’t you just be a little more relaxed with me?"





"I don’t know if that’ll work for you, Hoonji, but

sorry, I don’t think I can.

You don’t need me to tell you why, right?"




He lowered his head.




'Ah... he knows me too well.

That kind of pitiful expression...

does he practice it in advance?'




"Fine. I’ll get in."




In the end, I got into his car.




"But only for today."





"I don’t often have days
 
without filming like this."





He smiled innocently

and opened the passenger-side door for me.





"But does your girlfriend

know you’re doing this?

If she does, I’m the one who’d be in trouble."





"We broke up."





"What?? What are you talking about?

It’s only been how long since that dating rumor."





"It was just mutual interest, but

because our photo got taken

the article couldn’t be helped.

Honestly, I feel relieved."





I stared at him blankly.

For someone who’d just broken up, he looked far too cheerful.





"When are you going to pick up your car?

I’ll drive you there."





"I’ll take care of it myself, so don’t worry about it."





"Okay...

Since that day, after I heard that song

I kept thinking about it, so I’ve been listening to it every day.

I’ve been looking up that singer’s other songs too."





"Yeah."




I answered briefly.




"Where are you going to have lunch?"





"After I’m done at the film company, I’ll eat somewhere nearby...

or maybe come to the cafe and eat around there."





"Then I’ll wait and we can eat together

near the film company?"





"..."





"Then I’ll wait for you."





"Hoonji. Why are you doing this to me?

If you keep this up, you’ll be

doing wrong by Taehyung too."





"The director’s dating my girlfriend too."





"We broke up,

so what are you talking about?"





"You met her during the grace period.

Then isn’t it the same for me too?"





"Stop making excuses.

You knew Hoonji had fallen for another woman,

and I asked Taehyung to meet me because of that, so what..."





"Did Jung-ah propose first?

Wow.... seriously!!"





"You think I was only the one who proposed first?

I was the one who kissed first yesterday too."




He stopped the car abruptly.





"Are you crazy?"





I stared at him hard.





"You weren’t this proactive with me,

so why are you only like that with the director?"





"Should I get out?"





"Ah!! No!!

Stay where you are. I’ll drive."





"Hoonji.

Sometimes I just don’t understand you.

How can you be acting so brazen right now?

Who do you think caused us to break up like this?"





"You went to see a musical with that client too, Jung-ah."





"Ha...

I didn’t like that client.

And I was honest with you, Hoonji.

You liked that actress,

and you even lied to me.

Am I wrong?"

"No...





You’re right, Jung-ah..."

"Don’t say I’m suffocating you again.





You keep coming at me so forcefully,

I have no choice but to be like this."

"When I’m driving and you keep nagging me like that,





I can’t focus."

"Ah... seriously, Park Hoonji..."





"I’m reflecting really hard right now.





I keep thinking about why I did that, and I really regret it."

"Yeah. Regret!!





Regret comes after you do something wrong.

You already did wrong,

and I’m already seeing Taehyung.

So please, stop this."

"If I don’t do this





I feel like I’ll regret it even more later,

that’s why I’m doing this!!

Jung-ah!!

I’m suffering too!!"

He suddenly shouted.





At his frustrated cry,

it felt like I could almost feel his heart in full.

As if trying to persuade him,





I went on in a calm voice.

"Still, there are things that can’t be helped.





So please stop now... Hoonji..."

"You hate me now?"





Hoonji’s voice trembled low.




"It’s not like that, is it?"





".... How can someone start hating another person that easily."





"Then fine..."





Before I knew it, we had arrived in front of the film company building.



He didn’t say anything for a while.

Then, in a low voice, he said,

"I still love you... still."




Without a word, I got out of the car.




"Just for today... please..."





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