1. A nightmare that comes back
" ..where is this"
Looking around, I saw an old house, ready to collapse at any moment. Almost all the furniture was broken, and only a small ember illuminated the place.
I walked along the path indicated by the small carpet, and at the end of the path was a child.
"Hey... hello?"
Tak -
"..don't come near me."
"What does that mean..?"
The child slapped my hand away and said coldly, "Don't come near me." I had no idea what he meant.
"Don't come near me. The more you do that, the more it will hurt me."
"What's your name?"
"My name is..."
Then I woke up from my dream and didn't hear the child. Who was he, telling me not to approach him? No, not to approach him, but to stay away? But if I approach him, he'll hurt me? What does that mean?
I wondered and went back to sleep.
"..it was there earlier"
" hey. "
" you.. "
"Do you want to know my name?"
"Yeah, I wonder who you are."
"If you know... promise me you'll come to me."
" .. Okay, I promise. You shouldn't come near me because I said you'd get hurt."
"My name is..."
" ... "
"I'm Kwon Soon-young. Do you know who I am? Who I am?"
" ..!! "
The child said she was Kwon Soon-young, and I couldn't believe it. That child looked much more physically and emotionally wounded than the Kwon Soon-young I knew now. But that child... is that Kwon Soon-young who is smiling brightly right now...?
Gulp -
"Why are you crying? Do I look that pitiful?"
"No.. I don't think I knew.. Okay."
"Anyway, don't come near me again. If you come near me, you'll get hurt."
"What does that mean? Just tell me that."
"It's your choice. Either ignore my will and come at me, hurting that person to find out what I mean, or... don't approach me and let things end on good terms."
" ... "
I woke up again in that state, my pillow covered in tear stains. So... does that mean I'll really get hurt if I approach her?
I prepared to go to school, leaving my bad feelings behind. Ha... I don't know.
2. When you are afraid of nightmares
"Hey lady~!"
"Ah...uh"
"What's wrong? What's wrong?"
".. No, I'm going to the bathroom for a bit."
I ran to the bathroom to avoid Kwon Soon-young. I felt like crying just from looking at her.
" .. I wasn't originally like this.. "
The story told by that young Kwon Soon-young felt somehow true. I felt like something would happen if I got any closer, so I avoided him. Or else he'd come at me.
After calming down, I went back into the classroom and saw Seungkwan sitting alone.
"What about them..?"
"Yeonwoo was called out by the teacher again, and Sunyoung said she was going to see the music teacher for a bit."
" .. okay "
" .. Honestly, has something happened that made you feel bad?"
"No... that kind of thing"
"What's wrong? There's red around your eyes... Tell me quickly. What is it?"
I ended up explaining to Seungkwan the dream I had today and the reason for my crying, and he just listened without saying anything.
"Do you understand now? Hah... What should I do?"
"But if you keep avoiding me like this, I think Kwon Soon-young's personality will explode at some point..."
"I guess so..? Haa.. "
at that time -
"Hey, you're here now?"
" .. huh "
"Boo Seung-kwan... What were you talking about with our female lead?!"
"You can't live without Kim Yeo-ju."
"That's true. Pass."
Do you know how I feel right now, listening to that story? I know that if I avoid you and don't approach you, who habitually says that I can't live without you, I will be hurt too, but I have no choice but to avoid you.
Lunch time -
"..I have no appetite at all"
"Really? Then you want to rest here?"
"Oh, that would be good. Jimin will take care of it and go."
"Okay~~ Then we'll go and come back"
"Yeah, enjoy your meal."
This is also one of the ways to avoid it. It's best not to stick together at school.
So I was playing around by myself, drawing in my notebook, when someone called me.
"Yeoju student?"
"Ah... you're the teacher."
He was my music teacher and homeroom teacher. He really... He said that when I'm having a hard time, he comes to me like a ghost... If Kwon Soon-young sees him, she'll misunderstand... I shouldn't have said that...
"Why are you like this without even eating?"
"I have no appetite at all"
"Would you like to eat this?"
"It's chocolate..?"
"When things are tough, sweet things are the best. Haha"
"Thank you. But who told you that?"
"Um.. I hate to be honest, but when I was coming here earlier, student Sunyoung told me to give it to student Yeoju. She told me that it was the sweetest and that I shouldn't say that she gave it to me because she was embarrassed."
Gulp -
"Huh..female student? Why are you crying..?! "
"Ugh... Teacher..."
I finally told Teacher Jihoon everything, and he listened quietly, patting my back. He really felt like a homeroom teacher. A homeroom teacher you can lean on.
"I see... That must have been hard."
"Should I avoid Kwon Soon-young?"
"Honestly, if I were to tell you to express your feelings, I'd tell you to avoid it, but..."
" ... "
Oh, Teacher Lee, you liked me, right? Did I say something unnecessary?
"If that makes the female student suffer and hurt too... don't avoid her. Is this also my feeling..? Haha, because Sunyoung said she's in pain."
"Don't avoid it...?"
"I think that's good for the female students."
"..Thank you. Thanks to you, I feel a little better haha"
" Haha.. I'm glad it was helpful. Why do I still laugh whenever I see a female student?.. Don't worry about it. I'm organizing things too."
" .. yes "
"Then I'll go now.. "
at that time -
Knock knock -
"Kim Yeo-ju!!! Kwon Soon-young... gasp... she collapsed!! Go quickly."
"...?!! What is that.. "
"Come with me first. I'm the homeroom teacher for two students."
" yes..!! "
So, me and Teacher Jihoon,Yeonwoo hurriedly ran to the cafeteria.
3. The meaning of that word
"What is this now?"
Two of the cafeteria chairs were broken, and one was stained with blood. My hands began to shake.
"S..Seungkwan, where's Soonyoung..?"
"The history teacher reported it earlier, so Jimin and the history teacher went to the hospital together.."
"Female student, let's go together later."
"It's not possible now, is it?"
".. I don't think it will work.. "
" all right.. "
So I waited until school ended and took the music teacher's car to the hospital.
Jimin was in the emergency room, and I sat there, stunned. What the hell happened? It all happened so suddenly... I don't know what happened. How is everything going?
"Uh...what happened?"
" .. therefore "
Past Jimin's perspective -
I headed to the cafeteria with my friends and we were sitting together eating.
"Hey.. who is this? Our Jimin, you're so lucky~"
Gulp -
The bullies who were tormenting me poured hot soup on me, and I squeezed my eyes shut, fearing I'd get burned again. But the soup didn't fall on me, and when I looked up...
"Ha.. it's so fucking hot.. "
"Wh...what is this?!!"
"I heard that Yeoju and this guy were friends in middle school, so when this guy gets hurt, Yeoju Kim's expression turns bad all day long. Shouldn't you just not touch this guy?"
"Huh... Are you really willing to sacrifice your life for Kim Yeo-ju?"
"As you can see. Why? Don't you want to see it?"
at that time -
Puck -
"Keuheuk.. Hey XX.. Where are you hitting while I'm talking?"
"Who would do that X-form? I really hate to see it."
"Hey, you guys didn't just harass Seungkwan... what are you doing?"
"Are you missing? Are you missing Kim Yeo-ju?"
"Ha.. Really that XX.. "
Yeonwoo tried to approach the kids, but Seungkwan stopped him, and the atmosphere became increasingly serious.
at last,
Bang-
"Kwon Soon-young..?!!"
"Ha.. Is your original personality really showing?"
"What was my original personality like that you keep bringing up my original personality? I was like this originally. It's you who will show your original personality. Stop covering up what you did and making me the same piece of trash as you. You filthy XX."
at that time -
Thud -
Behind him, a fellow student of the boy's had blocked another boy's chopsticks, and blood flowed from his arm. Unfortunately, the teachers were gone from the cafeteria, and it was a complete mess. The boy's name seemed to be Lee Chan, and a fight broke out between the other three, Lee Chan, and Kwon Soon-young.
Surprisingly, those two were strong and didn't lose even when faced with three men. And then...
"What are you guys doing now?!!!!"
The scariest history teacher witnessed the scene and the kids immediately stopped fighting. Then, Kwon Soon-young fell down, probably because he had been burned, and the boy who was fighting with him also leaned against a nearby pillar, probably because he was having a hard time, and the three kids in the group were dragged away by the gym teacher.
The history teacher reported it urgently, and I, the history teacher, Kwon Soon-young, and the kid with the injured arm were taken to the hospital by ambulance.
Back to the heroine's point of view -
".. In the end, it's because of me again?"
"No..!! I'm just being treated so stupidly..ㅅ"
"In the end... because of me... because I graduated from the same middle school as you... and because I dated Kwon Soon-young... and because we liked each other..."
"My lady..."
"Female student..."
"I want to be alone for a moment. Please contact me when Kwon Soon-young wakes up."
"There's a guy in the next room with an injured hand. I wonder if it would be okay to take a quick look at him."
" .. okay "
I ended up going to the next room and there was this guy I had never seen before.
"Why did you help Kwon Soon-young? You knew she'd get hurt."
"I don't know why I said that from the beginning, but I just..."
"Yeah, I'm sorry. In the end, you got hurt because of me."
"..? Don't say weird things. Why did I get hurt because of you? It seemed like I saved you."
"No...that's not what I meant. Kwon Soon-young got hurt because of me, and I got hurt while helping Kwon Soon-young."
"Then is that Kim Yeo-ju?"
"Oh.. Kim Yeo-ju, nice to meet you."
"I'm Lee Chan."
"Yeah, Chan-ah."
"It's really awkward to be called Chan."
"Why? That's your real name..."
" .. You're the first one to call me that."
"..speak comfortably"
"I'll call you senior because it's easier."
"Yeah...what"
"But did that senior Kwon Soon-young wake up?"
"No, not yet"
" .. You sleep so damn long "
"Is your arm okay? Is it like you can't use your arm again or something?"
"No, that's not it. The doctor said that you can just remove the stitches and put a bandage on it. But it was stuck pretty hard."
"Okay, take a break. I'm going to go now."
" .. Okay. Bye "
I left the hospital room without answering, just lowering my head. Ha... How did it end up like this? That must be what that young Kwon Soon-young meant... That I would get hurt if I approached her.
In the end, I decided to avoid it.
After a while, I received a call that Kwon Soon-young had woken up and I went into the hospital room.
4. When faced with a nightmare
I asked Jihoon and Jimin to leave, and they readily agreed. I asked them to leave because I was worried they might try to stop me if they were there, and I might have some influence over my decision-making. Then I looked at Kwon Soonyoung and asked calmly.
"..Are you awake?"
"Yeah... but it hurts a little this time."
"The burn... was quite serious."
"It's okay. I have a female protagonist."
"No, you're not okay"
"Huh? "
"I... won't be by your side anymore"
"What do you mean? Please explain so I can understand..."
"I hate it when you fight."
"Jimin saved me today..ㄱ"
"Why are you looking for that!! Why are you..."
"Hey, are you crying?"
Tears kept falling. I couldn't help but cry because of your eyes, which would continue to look at me even when I lied and said bad things.
"Ha.. and I hate being jealous of you. I'm sick of it now."
"Kim Yeo-ju... why are you suddenly like that?"
"I told you, I hate you. I hate everything you did, whether it was for me or not. That's why"
" ... "
"Soonyoung, let's break up."
"Are you serious?"
Even as I look at you now, I'm crying like this. Do you really think I'm sincere in your eyes? We can't even make eye contact. Does this situation really make it seem like I hate you? But I... I have to say I'm sincere.
"..I'm serious. I hate you"
Tak -
"..Are you serious? That you hate me, that you hate everything I did to you.. Is that true?"
" .. Yeah, I don't like it. I'm serious."
I let go of Kwon Soon-young's hand and left the hospital room.
So I hurt that kid again and we were done.
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In the end.. the nightmare came.. the male lead of this story may not be Soonyoung.. haha then bye~💗 Try to guess the male lead!
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