[jimin park] The breakup due to my obsession was lonely and desolate.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Jimin, where are you going?
jimin park
━ I have a class reunion.
Park Yeo-ju
━ If it's a class reunion... Are there any girls there?
jimin park
━ Okay, I'll be back. I might be late, so go to sleep first.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Drink alcohol in moderation.
jimin park
━ Okay. I'll be back. Go to sleep first. Don't wait up.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Okay, take care on your way.
Until then, we were still somewhat affectionate. My obsession wasn't that severe. But my obsession grew deeper and deeper because of that girl from the alumni association Jimin mentioned earlier. And since we weren't even in touch, I couldn't help but feel anxious.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Why aren't you contacting me...? You're not hanging out with girls, are you? Ha...
The reason I'm so obsessed is because Jimin is the type of person who easily falls for girls. That's why I get anxious whenever I meet a girl.About 4 hours later, it was already past midnight, and at that time, I received a call from Jimin.
'don't worry.'It was just five words. I'll be home soon. I don't play with girls. Don't worry. These were the words that made me even more worried.
I kept worrying like that, and 1 o'clock passed and 2 o'clock came. He left at 8 o'clock and didn't come back even when it was almost 2 o'clock in the morning. After replying, "Don't worry," I didn't contact him at all, and I couldn't sleep at all because of all the worries, and I just waited for Jimin with my neck stretched out.Just then, I heard the door lock open. I headed straight for the front door. As soon as I saw Jimin, I yelled.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Park Jimin! Do you know how worried I was?
jimin park
━ Why aren't you asleep yet?
Park Yeo-ju
━ Are you sleepy now?
jimin park
━ Lady.
Park Yeo-ju
━ What's wrong with you? Why do you ignore my calls?
jimin park
━ I didn't chew it. I didn't see it.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Are you calling that an excuse now?
jimin park
━ I'm tired. Let's talk tomorrow.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Park Jimin.
jimin park
━ Park Yeo-ju!
Jimin screamed. It was so loud, it could be heard outside at this hour of the night. For a moment, I was shocked and dumbfounded by Jimin's screams. I couldn't understand why he was yelling at me when he had done something wrong.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Why are you screaming?
jimin park
━ What are you so dissatisfied with?
Park Yeo-ju
━ I feel insecure about you being with women. I feel insecure because you fall for women so easily.
jimin park
━ Don't you love me?
Park Yeo-ju
━ I love you.
jimin park
━ But why are you anxious?
Park Yeo-ju
━ I'm afraid I'll lose you. I'm afraid you'll look away.
jimin park
━ You don't trust me. You don't love me. If you love someone, you have to trust them.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Then why don't you just fall for girls?
jimin park
━ Ah... is it my fault?
Park Yeo-ju
━ No, Jimin.
jimin park
━ Then if you still don't trust me, then let's break up. It's all my fault for asking me to live with you in my house.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Park Jimin··· What did you just say···?
jimin park
━ Let's break up.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Don't you love me?
jimin park
━ I loved you, just a few hours ago. I can't do this anymore, this obsessive love. Let's stop now.
And then Jimin went straight into the room. My obsession had led to our breakup. I was just worried. From the words "let's break up" to the words "obsessive relationship," I felt like everything was falling apart.
Park Yeo-ju
━ under···.
Jimin didn't come out after that, and I wrote in my memo"I'll come get your luggage later. Thank you. I want to hold you, but you look so tired because of me. I think it'll be uncomfortable for you to see my face if I get up, so I'll just leave first. I'm sorry, and thank you."I wrote it with great difficulty while crying, stuck it on the edge of the table, and left the house.
It was chilly in the early morning, there was no one there, and I couldn't stop crying.To the nearby parkI walked slowly.
Park Yeo-ju
━ Here... this is the bench where Jimin and I often sat...
I sat on the bench where Jimin and I often sat. Today, I felt particularly lonely and melancholic. The happy moments that had passed by, making me feel even more sad.
Park Yeo-ju
━ If I hadn't been so obsessed, this wouldn't have happened...
It felt like it was all my fault. The breakup was my fault, and I was the one who ruined Jimin's happiness, as well as mine. So when Jimin said he wanted to break up, I didn't have the conscience to hold on.
Park Yeo-ju
━ It's already late, but I'm sorry, Jimin... I'm sorry...
It was an apology too late. It only echoed like an apology that would never reach Jimin. The breakup had already happened, and this irreversible pain pierced my heart all night long.
.
jimin park
━ You really don't love me. You don't even hold me anymore...
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