"What?!! A woman?!!!!! "
"Ah, my ears hurt!!!!"
When Seungcheol found out I was a girl, he yelled at me to get out of town. But then he got hit by Jeonghan, who was standing next to me.
"Sorry for yelling. But is this true? Am I the only one who didn't know?? And Jisoo? Does Jisoo know?? "
"And what's with the transfer story?!"
"It's noisy, Choi Seung-cheol. I said I'd come back, so why are you making such a fuss?"
"And maybe Jisoo... Mirya, go to Jisoo."
"I'll be at the dormitory."
"Oh, yes!"
***
Senior Seungcheol wanted to follow me, but Senior Jeonghan stopped him. I stood in front of the door to dorm room 504, where Jisoo-hyung was, and took a deep breath. Out of breath from running, I calmed myself down and knocked. And then the door opened.
" brother. "
"Mir, why are you here?"
"Where does it hurt..?"
Jisoo-hyung, visible behind the door, looked listless, as if he was in pain. Fortunately, he said he wasn't. I excused myself, entered the room, and sat down on the chair. It felt like I was sitting on a bed of thorns. Perhaps I was being needlessly self-conscious.
"What do you want to say?"
"Brother, I..."
***
"I knew she was a woman."
" yes? "
"But what does it mean to transfer schools?"
"It's wrong for a girl to go to an all-boys high school..."
"Aren't you disappointed..?"
"If I said I didn't do it, it's a lie..."
"I did, disappointed."
" ... sorry... "
"It's okay. You told me first before the others heard it."
"So you were upset because of me..?"
" no,.. "
"I'm a little confused."
"You should go now. I have something to think about on my own."
"Yes, bro... I'm sorry for hiding it until now..."
Jisoo patted my head once, saying that it was really good.
***
"Seasoning, why can't I concentrate today?"
"Yeah. I can't concentrate today."
"Why am I like this?"
As moving day approaches, I feel a sense of unease. I can't wait to see them again, even after I'm an adult. I really want to see them in a year. But since the place I'm moving to is so far from here, I feel like it'll be a struggle just to get there.
I'd love to just move or transfer schools, just to throw everything away. But I also want to spend my third year of high school as a girl.
***
"Do you really have to go..?"
"I told you not to..."
"Or take me... okay?"
"Kim Min-gyu. Can't you see that Mir is in trouble?"
" tooth... "
It was Min-gyu whining while eating lunch, and Ji-hoon scolding him. If he transferred schools, he wouldn't be able to see this anymore.
"Zomir, where does it hurt?"
"Why are you so weak?"Ji-hoon
"What?! Mir hurts?!!"Min-gyu
"No, I'm fine."
"Calm down, Min-gyu."
I calmed down Min-gyu who was acting up.
***
I'm moving in 10 days.
I stopped by the mart for a bit to run an errand for my mom.
"Mirya!"
It was Soonyoung walking from the entrance of the supermarket. She looked like she'd just dressed hastily, as if she'd be heading out soon. She walked with her hands in her pockets. She must have really been a bit snobbish. Even that kind of look made her look handsome.
"Soonyoung."
"Are you here to run an errand?"
"Yeah, yeah. You?"
"Punishment. I made a bet with the kids. We'll shoot candy."
"What's the bet?"
"Whether Lee Ji-hoon gives us food or not."
"I was on the side of not giving, and the kids were on the side of giving."
"Did Jihoon give you something to eat?"
"Yeah... I did plan it."
***
Before going home, I took a walk in the park with Sunyoung. Sunyoung said she had something to say and suggested we walk for a bit before heading inside. I readily nodded in agreement.
"Kim Min-gyu and Lee Seok-min cried today."
"Huh? What did you say?"
"Why are you crying?? "
"I wish you hadn't gone."
" ... "
"If I say the same thing, Mir, you'll be in trouble."
"It's already been decided, so it'll be difficult if we keep telling them not to go."
" ... "
"So I won't tell you not to go."
" huh? "
"And I'm a senior in high school, so I have to study for the college entrance exam, so I won't be able to come here."
"Yeah... that's right."
"Just have a good trip."
"Mir, you have to become prettier than you are now~."
"What is that!"
Sunyoung threw in a joke to the already gloomy atmosphere. The mood lifted, but my heart still felt heavy.
Oh my... this life is really... 😫😫
I try to write whenever I have time, but I only have time at night😭😭
But I released a new one...
A topic I've been thinking about for quite some time...
It's been about five months...😅
Even before I started writing in earnest, I really wanted to write about this...😭😭
A new work in the midst of all this...
I think I'm crazy.