I'm so sorry for suddenly saying this.
I guess I'm just useless. No matter what I think, I'm not good at anything.
Now my real friend is openly criticizing me and no, my hair is gray
I just hate everything and no matter what I do, people around me get upset
It's the same, but in fact, I think there are really kids like that. I just hate them all and no one
I don't want to see it. Anyone can see that I'm secretly being eaten.
If you see this, you'll probably get stabbed. I hate them all, whether they're real friends or not.
It's not like the people around me said anything really harsh.
Am I weird? Am I just a glass mentality?
Yeah, I can't study. No matter how hard I try, it won't work.
What the fuck, I was born like this
There are plenty of kids who are good at studying and do that to me.
It can't be that fucking ugly
Yeah, you guys can study well even if you don't try hard, but I can't even if I try hard.
Because my head is so fucking thick
And the rich kids
You guys always get all your food from your parents
You don't know because you grew up so well?
I've always been poor, so I couldn't even buy clothes on my own.
Now my sisters work with my parents, so I can do it a little bit
It's okay, it was worse before.
I'm not an old fart, but I just want to say something.
You guys probably don't know because your parents always told you to come and go.
When I was 5 years old, my parents would come home from work.
If you don't come out and say hello, you'll get beaten up.
At that time, I was only 5 years old
Sometimes I would kick him and hit him in the head.
Am I becoming more of a decoration because of this?
And if you speak informally, you get hit again. If you answer or something like that
What are you talking back to me for? Sometimes you even curse at me.
I know I can't blame my parents. I know that.
Honestly, anyone can see that it's really serious
Why was I born with this hair?
I guess my family's situation was better.
I'll probably go to school diligently or buy whatever I want.
It seems like nothing makes me happy these days
Now it's hard to laugh at the kids' words to raise their spirits.
My friend texted me saying he was having a hard time because he had a fight with his mom.
Honestly, you said you were having a hard time with that and tried to console me
I don't think that's right. This isn't the first or second time something like this has happened. FUCK
But why do people around me always pretend to be okay?
Should I comfort you? Are you the only ones having a hard time? I'm having a hard time too.
I know it's hard to say, but I have a lot of affection for you guys.
You always comforted me whenever things like this happened.
Don't make yourselves feel bad
I fought with my mom.
Is that hard? You made a mistake?
Then what the f*ck, I'm gonna fight all the time. Whatever I do, Mom and Dad will yell at me.
Hitting and going. Is that hard? It's not like you did anything right.
I didn't want to be that petty kid who talks behind people's backs.
I wonder if there's anything more to ruin the image of someone born like this anyway?
"I was bullied." Are you the only one?
"Outcast"I did it"? I'm sorry, but I think I'm still being treated like this
You guys finish in about 5 months? A semester at most, or
You guys usually get it for 1 to 2 years
I was bullied from 3rd grade to 6th grade.
I thought things would be okay after I started middle school?
I have a lot of good friends
however
Do you know that?
There are a lot more kids who pretend to be good
I was bullied from 3rd to 6th grade.
Are you a hermit now?
Hitting him secretly and glaring at him
If you play the piano in the music room, don't touch it.
And in groups too.
But they hit harder
By the way, you can play that piano
I know you're doing it
There's a lot more to it, but I'll just say this much.
I met a nice older sister in the third grade and we became close, right?
So we were doing well, and then one of my sister's younger siblings was found to have a disability.
I found out. So I feel sorry and just get along.
A kid from my class came and said, "Hey, are you close with that girl??"
So I said, "Okay," and he made a serious face.
"Hey, that older sister and her younger sister are always messing around.
Besides, my younger brother is disabled, so he carries around a marker pen.
It smells... it's dirty.." That's what they say lol
What does that have to do with the kid being disabled?
People with disabilities are also people. Discrimination is a big deal.
From then on, they started to follow us in groups.
And then I transferred schools. It was hard and I had to move.
But even then, the punishment was the same
When I was in 5th grade, I was glared at for not voting for the student body president.
When did you openly criticize me in front of me?
I think I got bullied the most in 5th and 6th grade.
The kids who were chosen were made to hang out in groups around their own side.
Please treat the kids you picked really well.
Sometimes you spill my stuff on purpose and act like it's nothing.
One day, the guide I was trying to apply for disappeared, so I asked the teacher
When I asked for it, the kids didn't use it because the teacher wasn't there.
I asked for it, but the person who suddenly gave it to me said, "Hey, don't give it to me."
This is what happens..lol In front of me and on top of that, he's the man
I was sitting in the back, but everyone was there. Maybe the person next to me
Didn't the kids hear it either? But they couldn't have not heard it either.
No one helped me. Or at least comforted me.
There are worse ones, but I won't go into detail because I have to.
I don't want to be a poor kid anymore
After that, I was harassed by them until I entered the first year of middle school.
After that, there were only good kids? So I finally got out of this hell
I thought I was out, but this time I'm an outcast...lol
Is this fun? Do you guys find this fun?
Oh and my friends, it's not just you who got picked on, it's just you
I didn't fight with my parents
Rather, I suffered more and was stressed out by that.
You guys always come to me as if you want me to comfort you
I'm getting it but he always acts so serious.. haha
Sorry, but you don't look tired at all.
Why did you try to comfort me and how did you torment me?
If you ask, it's all trivial...lol In my opinion, that's
I don't think you were bullied, but rather you were mistaken.
Oh, are you trying to pretend to be tired and get comforted on purpose?
What are you going to do with this pico?
So am I always emotionally drained?
Hey guys,
I'm having a hard time too.
Can you comfort me too?
Why do I comfort you but I don't get comforted?
I'm having a hard time too.
It's hard. If you look at it, it's much harder than you guys.
I already have a lot of academic stress.
me too,
I want to be comforted too
Why not me?
Last time I took something like a psychological test
If you score over 30, you are subject to management, but I got 80 points.
What do you think?
So I put on the equipment and measured my exact stress index.
The higher the level, the more stressful it gets, right?
I don't really remember the rest, but I remember this
Stress index: Level 2
Depression Index: Level 2
I really don't cry outside, do I? I secretly have a lot of pride.
So when I cry, I always cry alone in my room, covered with a blanket.
If I cry, it's obvious, so you're like, "Did you cry?"
I always pretended it wasn't true, that it was okay
But on the day the results came out, I felt so wronged
I was so annoyed that I felt like all the hard work I had put in was for nothing and that it was all in vain, so I called my parents and told them the results.
I was passing it on and it blew up.
Even though the kids bullied me like that, I didn't cry.
So I cried until I couldn't even speak properly, and in the end
I went home and talked about it, and the tears barely stopped as I came home.
I burst out crying again and kept crying, but if you cry too much,
I couldn't even breathe properly.
What did I do in my past life to deserve this punishment?
If I went back to my previous life, I would have beaten you so badly that you told me not to do that.
Should I just turn around?
I don't know if anything will get better if you just keep saying things like Jammin.
Honestly, it's so unfair
What did I do