November 4, 2020, 7:13 AM_
The chilly air and chilly morning weather made me wake up early. Honestly, I couldn't even breathe. I'd turned off my phone's alarm, which had been ringing since nighttime, but the calls kept coming, so I had no choice but to turn it off. Before I told him I was breaking up with him, I'd quit my part-time job and it was the kind of day I could just stay home. I still haven't turned my phone on.
I put the memorabilia photos and items I made while dating into a box and organized them. Since I will never date again... I plan to take them out and look at them whenever I feel lonely.
I checked KakaoTalk on my laptop without turning on my phone. 300 notifications from his chat window caught my eye...
.
.
.
(Sister)
(If it's difficult to meet, let's at least call)
(Please reply at least once)
(Park Yeo-ju)
(Honey, if I did something wrong, please tell me)
(I can't just let you go)
The texts stopped coming at 4 a.m. I figured he must have fallen asleep from exhaustion. Just as I turned on my phone and checked the incoming calls, a call came right away. I think he must have seen me read the message and called. Instead of hanging up, I pressed the answer button, and the call was connected.
"Sister"
"...."
Dongyeol's voice was seriously strained. It wouldn't have been this strained unless his throat was sore, but a faint groan pierced his ears. A voice that sounded like it was in pain continued to flow from the phone.
"What's wrong, sister?"
"...."
"I'm not angry, so answer me anything."
Who would think that someone would be angry hearing this voice... This voice, with its deep, penetrating voice and even a faintly pained groan, seemed to make me feel the pain too. I spoke in a cold voice, determined not to waver any longer.
"I have nothing more to say to you."
"Hey lady"
"Just forget about me and live on."
"...I can't do it"
"...."
"Then hang up."
Since when did I become so cruel...