"What do you want me to do?"
You were my luck, meeting you just before I disappeared.
plodding-
The sound of a person's footsteps echoed in the narrow alley.
Jiho, who had arrived right in front of the house, entered the house through the door that opened suddenly.
" ..it's so empty..."
Although the house was neither too big nor too small, I couldn't help but feel empty living alone, away from my parents.
I hated feeling that way, but what could I do?
I am the only one in this house.
Feeling empty again, I went into my room and collapsed on the bed.
"Really... there's no one, "
"It's empty.."
"Should I get a pet?"
"Ahh... here we go again..."
"Well, I tried not to think about it, but why does it keep coming to mind?"
"Make me want to do it again."
Jiho gradually lowered his gaze to my arm as various thoughts began to arise.
There are many scars, big and small, engraved on his arms.
Jiho looked at my arm for a moment, then chuckled and lay back down on the bed.
"When I do it, I get so annoyed that I don't even feel any pain,
When you come to your senses, it really hurts so badly."
"I'm an idiot for continuing to do it knowing that."
"The world is really dirty-"
Jiho muttered to himself, his small voice echoing faintly in the empty room.
Jiho, who had been quietly listening to the small ringing sound, got up, sat quietly, and looked around.
desolation.
That was the feeling Jiho was feeling right now.
Because the space was so large, the feeling seemed to return multiplied.
"I think I look really pathetic right now..."
"Haha.. Is there really no one I can be close with for the rest of my life.. "
'Living like this is so boring...'
"Should I just die? I'm still young, and I'm doing it
There are so many things I want to do right now. "
"Should I make a list of things I want to accomplish later?"
"Bucket list..? Was it..?"
"Once I've accomplished everything, I guess I'll just end it without any regrets, huh..."
"I'm going to die anyway, so I should do what I want to do before I die."
"What's there to be foolish about in this dirty world?"
Jiho leaned back on the chair for a moment, as if he hadn't sat down in a long time, then sat up straight and wrote down a few sentences in a small notebook.
After writing everything down, I looked over the short and long sentences once more, then closed the notebook as if I was done, and one by one I took off the school uniform I had been wearing since I came back from school, and changed into the comfortable clothes I only wear at home.
Then he dived back into bed and lay down.
"I have to try it at least once."
As I lay face down, I followed my eyes and fell into a dream.