“Where shall we go today?”
“Let’s go anywhere.”
I think we've reached a point where boredom has set in between us. No, actually, I already knew it. Now that I'm on the cusp of boredom, you no longer look at me, you no longer see me in your eyes...
“Then, shall we go to the pasta restaurant you said was delicious last time?”
“Or so.”
"Or should we go eat some kimchi jjagalbi? You like kimchi, don't you?"
“Or so.”
I try to keep the conversation going in response to the half-hearted reply. It's always the same answer, but I feel so miserable trying to hear it.
In the end, I ended up saying things I shouldn't have.
“Or… should we just break up now?”
“Then.. what did you say..?”
“Let’s break up.”
“What are you talking about.. Why did you suddenly break up? Are you upset?”
"...Do you think what I'm saying now is just a slur? Every time I got upset with you, I didn't ask you to break up. No, even if I wanted to, I held back. I always kept in mind that it wasn't something I should say in the heat of the moment."
"what..?"
“Why am I the only one trying? Do you want to end it with me?”
“Of course not. Why would I?”
"But why aren't you trying? Does our relationship feel normal right now? No, you don't look at me. When you do, I feel lonelier and colder than when I'm alone."
“.. My lady”
“Why.. only me.. why.. only me..!!”
“...”
“Now, I feel so miserable, trying to repair this relationship. I feel so miserable, trying to maintain this relationship that could easily fall apart at any moment..! It’s so miserable and pathetic, you know that?”
“...”
I ended up crying. The memories of the past six years were still vivid in my mind, and the emotions I felt back then were still vivid in my mind.
“.. break up.”
“...”
So I kicked the spot and threw the pin I had in my hair into the trash can.
-
A week has passed since then.
- Oh, uh... That part is fine.
-But, sis, are you still seeing that person? His name is...”
- We broke up. It's been about a week...
-Huh..? You really liked that guy, didn't you? You even fought with Soonyoung oppa because of him..
- I don't know, I don't really want to talk about it right now.
-Okay. Okay. Tell me later when it's sorted out.
- Got it~ Hang up now
-Okay~
To be honest, it would be a lie to say I've forgotten everything. I may have forgotten all my affection for that kid, but I haven't forgotten all my hatred for him. And in any case, it's not easy to forget good memories.
If I can forget someone I've loved for six years in one week, then I have a greater ability than anyone else.
at that time,
Ding dong,
“..? Who is it?”
“It’s me… Open the door.”
“...”
I hoped it was a lie. I hoped it wasn't you who came to find me. I thought you wouldn't be that selfish. But you were more than I thought...
“I missed you..”
“You... really”
He is a much more selfish guy.
“Why are you here?”
“..I told you, I missed you.”
"...I didn't want to see it. Of course, I still don't want to see it."
“.. Heroine, think about it again. I really regretted it so much.. Let’s go back to how we were before. If it weren’t for you, I would really die..”
“..Why are you so selfish to the end?”
"what..?"
"Why should I have to reconsider? And do you regret it so much? It's only been a week since you broke up with me."
“...”
"You regretted the week you broke up with me, but I regretted every moment I tried to keep the relationship going. Can you really say you regret it to me?"
"you.."
“I told you, I didn’t want to see you, but you came here on your own and made me see you, saying you’d die if it weren’t for me… You’re transferring your heavy heart onto me.”
“...”
"...you're so selfish. More selfish than anyone in this world."
“...”
"Don't come back again. That time... I'll really hang on to you until the very end."
That guy, who was far more selfish than I'd expected, hasn't been seen since that day. Word around me is that he went on a trip, but it's unclear when he'll return.
I actually thought that was better. If I didn't know when he'd return, there would be nothing to look forward to, nothing to be anxious about, nothing to talk about, nothing to remember about him again.
That selfish guy left selfishly once again.