9 saviors(?)

Please give me some advice (you don't have to watch it because it's not a story)

I'm a writer.. First of all, this has nothing to do with the story, it's a personal matter!!

Actually... I'm a bit of a nerd... but soon we'll be getting assigned classes.. So the kids are talking among themselves.. You know how they say things like that..

We were talking about who we hope will work out and who we hope won't... and then my story came up.

But I really think I'm doing well in school... but... the kids say I'm too talkative and think I'm some kind of boss... and when the topic of idols came up, they said I'm a miscellaneous nerd

What are they saying? They say that people who are into miscellaneous things are too stupid, and they keep talking about other things... Seriously...

It was miserable...

I can tolerate some things that are only said to me..well, it's okay..no...actually, it's not okay at all...so..I suddenly start cursing at idols..for example

They say that I'm a fan of that idol, and that I meet up with anyone behind their backs, and that I'd buy anything if they asked me to... and then they say that they don't understand why I like so many different groups... and then I...

They say it looks easy... but when I actually hear those words, I feel miserable.

You pretended to understand and act like you could do that in front of me.

But really, because of me, my favorite idol got cursed at, so I felt really sorry... I didn't do anything wrong... but I thought, "It's because of me."

So I'm thinking, should I stop being a fanboy? I'm writing these fanfics, and I'm only writing two fanfics about all the idols I like... But I have a friend who knows that I write, and he...

He kept telling people about it..ㅎ And then his friends would say that he was bragging and that he was writing because he wanted attention.. and that he was a spectator...ㅎㅎ I really didn't know how to react..

So I went in as if nothing happened and asked, "What are you doing?" and the dogs started praising me again, saying, "Um... talking about idols."

It was really disgusting... I don't know if I can say this, but it was just so disgusting... and...

It was really miserable... I'm really having a hard time these days...

You can say whatever you want..just..help me..just this once..from now on, I won't tell my personal story for no reason except this one..so just this once...please help me..

I... am really... having a hard time these days...

Ah... I finally said everything.. As I said before, I won't bring up my personal story anymore... (I don't want you to feel burdened.. haha) And in the next episode, I'll get back to the story.

Originally, I thought I should be the one listening to the readers' concerns.. (I can't ignore the story because the author is putting too much pressure on me..!)

Then see you in the next episode...!