Because of one misunderstanding, I became an outcast.
30. Diary
윤정한 | 23살
"It's you, the kid that Jihoon bullied."
권순영 | 18살
" ........ "
윤정한 | 23살
"Are you sorry, Jihoon?"
권순영 | 18살
" ... yes. "
윤정한 | 23살
"Do you regret it and are you worried?"
권순영 | 18살
" .... yes. "
윤정한 | 23살
"I called you to tell you how hard it was for Jihoon."
윤정한 | 23살
"There's a diary that Jihoon kept before he met you."
윤정한 | 23살
"Two-thirds of it is your story."
윤정한 | 23살
"Okay, the drawer key."
윤정한 | 23살
"Jihoon is in the second drawer next to the bed."
윤정한 | 23살
"Take it out and read it."
권순영 | 18살
" .... yes. "
권순영 | 18살
" ... It's been a while."
Sunyoung goes into Jihoon's room,
I put the key in the second drawer next to the bed and opened it.
When I opened the drawer, there was only one thick diary inside.
Sunyoung took out the diary and started reading from the beginning.
"November 1st, 20XX, today again I got beaten up by bullies. I guess I was destined to live being beaten."
"November 5th, 20XX. Today I got beaten up by bullies in the hallway, but a tall, cold-looking kid helped me."
"On November 7, 20XX, when I was being beaten up by bullies, that kid helped me again. I asked him his name and thanked him, and he said his name was 'Kwon Soon-young'."
"November 13, 20XX, I haven't been getting beaten up lately thanks to that girl named Sunyoung. Because, she was by my side protecting me."
" It's my birthday, November 22nd, 20XX. However, no one wishes me a happy birthday. Then, a girl named Soonyoung confessed to me on the rooftop today. I've never received a confession before, but I liked her so I confessed to her, and we started dating after that.
"November 30th, 20XX, I'm living a happy life these days. I'm able to live this life thanks to you. You're the first person since my mother who protects me, worries about me, and cherishes me."
" December 5th, 20XX, I went on a date with Sunyeo today. It was my first time dating and my first time on a date, so I didn't know what to wear or what to do. But Sunyeo knew that, explained everything to me, understood, and was considerate. "
" On December 10, 20XX, I was coming back from the bathroom during lunch time when the bullies grabbed me and started beating me up. After being beaten for a while, Soonyoung saved me. I was so grateful to Soonyoung that I told her thank you several times. "
" December 25th, 20XX, it's been almost a year since I wrote a diary entry. Today I went to the Christmas festival with Suno. We ate delicious food, played fun games, and had fun experiences. It was such a great day. "
" Today, December 31st, 20XX... I broke up with Soonyoung. Because, there was a rumor that I hit another girl and cheated on her with another girl, Soonyoung misunderstood and broke up with me. At that moment, I felt like my heart was going to be torn to pieces. I missed Soonyoung."
" On March 22, 20XX, I broke up with Soonyoung, and Soonyoung and the bullies started bullying me and beating me up for no reason. The Soonyoung I knew had a bright and kind face, but now she had a really cold and scary face. I hate this Soonyoung so much.
" October 10th, 20XX. I've been getting hit every single day for 7 months without missing a single day, so I haven't had time to write a diary. It feels like I've been living for almost a year just getting hit. I guess I'm destined to die just from getting hit."
" On October 13, 20XX, I was on my way home after school when the bullies beat me up for hours in the alley behind the school, and I lost consciousness. When I woke up, I was being carried on Sunyoung's back. I thanked Sunyoung, and Sunyoung told me to drop out. "
" On October 14, 20XX, I skipped school and was resting at home when I got a call from my aunt. She said she had found my mother's remains and wanted to meet me. After meeting my aunt, I told her a long time ago to contact me when she found my mother's remains. However, my aunt had already found the remains, "
"She didn't contact me. I hated her for that. I missed my mom so much, and I begged her to find me as soon as possible, but she didn't contact me or say a word. After she left, I cried in front of my mom's remains until the sun went down."
" On October 17, 20XX, I went to school after 4 days. As soon as I got there, I almost got beaten up by a group of bullies, but Soonyoung stopped me. Then Soonyoung told me to follow her to the rooftop, and as I was about to follow her, Wonwoo stopped me. Soonyoung said he wasn't hitting me."
"He told me to follow him. I followed Soonyoung to the rooftop. Soonyoung was smoking a cigarette. As I watched her like that, a thought occurred to me. I remembered that before we broke up, I told Soonyoung not to smoke. If that's what I meant, then Soonyoung didn't smoke..."
"Soonyoung warned me not to show up in front of her, and even told me to drop out. But I told her that I wouldn't drop out until this misunderstanding was resolved. Saying that, I came down from the rooftop."
" On October 18th, 20XX, I went to school as usual. It was lunchtime, and Soonyoung dragged me to the rooftop, where the bullies and I started beating each other up without any reason. (I think it was from this time on... that I was beaten for two months.)
" 20XX December 21st, two months passed, and I was just being beaten for these two months. However, it was revealed that the rumors about me on the school website were false. When it was revealed, Soonyoung had a look of regret on her face and apologized to me. "
"But, I wanted to accept the apology, but my heart didn't want to accept it. I had been hurt so much for so long. If only it had been a little sooner, if only you hadn't beaten me up for two months, I would have accepted it even if you had just said sorry."
"Soonyoung blew that chance, and it was too late. I was going to continue going to school once the misunderstanding was cleared up, but I didn't want to see Soonyoung's face, and I was so hurt by this school that I didn't want to go any longer, so I decided to drop out."
" On December 22, 20XX, I went to the teacher's office during lunch and submitted my resignation letter to the teacher. The teacher tried to persuade me to think about it again, but I had no intention of thinking about it again. My illness was getting worse and I had suffered too many serious injuries, "
"After saying I didn't want to go, I said goodbye, left the teacher's office, and left the school right away. I didn't say hello to anyone or receive any greetings."
권순영 | 18살
"Ugh... uh, uh... uh, uh..."
Sunyoung cried while reading Jihoon's diary.
Reading this diary, Sunyoung realized something.
How lonely Jihoon is,
I'm sick,
It's hard,
I know you must be sad.
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