Before I die, I hope I can proudly say that my life was happy.

I decided to die in order to live as myself.

Beep.

여주

Welcome back~

아버지

Yeah, where did your mom go?

My heart sank and started beating like crazy.

여주

Oh... Father?

아버지

Yeah, your dad's dad's parents are home and you're locked in your room, what the fuck are you doing?

Hearing that voice and the swearing makes me sick, I can't stand it. It's so disgusting. I still remember it clearly. What happened two years ago, that murderous gaze. I'm going crazy.

아버지

Aren't you crawling out quickly?

Okay, on the count of one, two, three, open the door and let's go outside. It's okay, you've escaped many times, right? Okay? Just grab your phone and uniform and come back in two days. It's okay, right? You can do it, kid.

Open the door, one, two, three.

여주

Oh shit

My plan failed. As soon as I left, he grabbed my hair and slapped my cheek furiously. It hurt, but I was terrified by his gaze. That murderous gaze, the look that threatened to kill.

The bastard left, and he roughly wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth. When I looked in the bathroom mirror, I saw myself a mess. But my life is more miserable than my appearance, fuck. I felt like I had bad luck or something. Why do you always keep me alive when you just kill me?

I took a box cutter and slit my wrist. I hadn't done this in a while, but that idiot called my father made me do it again. Even though I was frantically cutting myself, intent on killing myself, seeing myself breathing perfectly still made me feel like I was going crazy.

I looked at my bleeding wrist and cried like crazy, then looked at the cold abalone porridge. Tomorrow, I'll tell Jeon Jungkook everything and die. I plan to die so I can live a brighter life.