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When I was in the 5th grade of elementary school.

It was a time when I was happy to finally escape that hellish orphanage.

That was the first time I met that kid.

"Hey, Ha-seng-eon!"

Hasengeon is my nickname.

In English class, we were asked to write our names in English, so I wrote 'Ha Seng Un', but they said it was incorrect.

Thanks to this, it continues to be called Seong-eon.

"Hey, Ha-seon! What are you doing?"

"Me? Just listen to the music."

"Let me hear it too."

The kid ripped the earphone out of my left ear.

[I promise you, I promise you, I will give you more and more...]

"Hey, why are you listening to this kind of song?"

"What a song. It's good..."

"This is seriously individual. Change the music quickly."

I forced myself to change the music.

[Whirring, wiring, boomerang, hey, turn around...]

"Yeah, I need to hear this exciting song."

Even after the song ended, the child kept humming the song, saying, "Go back."

But at some point, we started to drift apart.

"Hey, aren't you doing it right?"

The child kicked the other child in the stomach.

"Ugh, ugh... I'm sorry..."

"If you're sorry, huh? You should have done it properly, huh?"

I couldn't stand it any longer and stopped the child.

"Sehun, stop it."

"Ha Sungwoon, you can't let a kid like this get away with it. You made him a goalkeeper, and now all he does is roll around and play. He needs to get hit to come to his senses."

"still...

Sehun continued to hit the child without paying any attention.

"stop!"

Sehun made a displeased expression as he blocked the way.

"You want to be like that too? Get out of the way."

Sehun's violence continued every day.

Before I knew it, no one had come near Sehun except me.

And Sehun started hitting other people and picking fights for no reason more often.

"Why do you keep doing that...!"

"Do you think I'm doing this because I have nothing better to do?! Those motherfuckers keep bugging me..."

"Then I won't be your friend until you admit your actions and reflect on them."

"Ha... Now you're betraying me too? What kind of guy are you? Kang Seo-jun?"

"It has nothing to do with them."

"Okay, I'll do the same for you. Just look forward to it."

With those words, our relationship ended.

But from that day on, Sehun didn't bother me, he only bothered the people around me.

It was so frustrating.

Why do other people have to suffer because of me?

In the end, I went to ask Sehun about it.

"Why don't you bother me and only bother the people around you? Do you know that's really pathetic?"

"You guys are acting even more pathetic. I'm going to act even more pathetic, so don't pay any attention to me like you usually do."

"..."

I had nothing to say.

First of all, because I left Sehun.

Guilt weighed on my whole body.

I lived like that every day.

But luckily, a few weeks later, I was able to move and never saw Sehun again.

But now I get to see you again.

...What should I do?

Because of me... No way...

It's dangerous - it's so dangerous.

I have to protect it.

I am a writer.

I'm really worried about how to further develop my childhood.

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