Daydream

Dream 3: Free

Sitting alone in Mr. Jung's office, I feel like a child who's about to get scolded.

That I am.

Mr. Jung

Y/N, I know you're not doing your best.

Y/N

Sounds very opinionated to me.

Mr. Jung

We studied together.

Mr. Jung

We've grown together for years.

Mr. Jung

This is so not you.

Y/N

What should I do, then?

I couldn't control my tears from falling.

Why is he being so calm in front of me when we're alone.

Mr. Jung

Graduate, Y/N.

Mr. Jung

Please.

It's not that easy.

He should understand me the most.

Y/N

If I did, we would never see him again.

Mr. Jung

Y/N-

Y/N

I know I'm not the only one.

Y/N

You see him, too.

Mr. Jung

He can't stay here forever, Y/N.

Mr. Jung

He needs to rest already.

I know that.

I know.

The three of us attended the same high school together.

Me and the Jung twins.

Hoseok and Hobi are both geniuses.

I was average academically.

They graduated two years ahead of me and I'm so happy when I learned that both of them will be my professors.

Hobi told me that he'd tutor me every night.

That he would never stop until I get my master's degree, too.

But then, he had cardiac arrest.

It was so sudden.

He left me and Hoseok devastated.

Hoseok was forced to move on pretty early since he needed to take control of all Hobi's classes.

I got scared.

I got scared the first time I saw Hobi in Hoseok's class, sitting beside the projector.

I thought I was too far gone to even daydream about him.

But then, I realized I'm not the only crazy one.

Hoseok constantly looks beside the projector, too.

Hobi also fulfilled his promise to tutor me every night.

Whenever I pass a test, he doesn't show up when I get home.

It was because I'm passing.

Which means I didn't need his help anymore.

If his last wish of me getting my master's degree comes true,

Hobi will be gone forever.

Mr. Jung

Y/N...

I didn't even know I already cried so much until Hoseok held my face.

Y/N

I know he wants to rest already.

Y/N

But I'm scared of losing him the second time around.

Mr. Jung

But the fact remains that he's already gone.

It really hurts coming from him.

It stings.

Mr. Jung

It won't last forever, Y/N.

Mr. Jung

What we're both seeing is a mirage that won't last forever.

We stayed like that for a while.

I don't really know if minutes or hours passed by before I stopped crying.

I need to accept our loss, already.

Y/N

I'll graduate this year.

Y/N

I'll never let Hobi's efforts for me go to waste.

Hoseok smiled at me.

Hobi, too who's standing at the office's entrance.

I smiled at both of them.

For once...

For once, I want to draw a different picture of my life.

That one dream where I continue living my life without regrets.