"deviation"

Deviation | Dad won't know,

Do-woon was the cause of the commotion.

In the end, Jimin and Yeoju promised to keep the fact that they were living together a secret, and were practically kicked out of the house.

The heroine ran her hand through her hair, sighed, and started to tidy up the messy sofa and other things.

박지민

........

박지민

I'll do it, stay in.

이여주

......Okay, I'll do it.

Honestly, I was very confused.

Even more so than Do-woon who came to someone else's house without permission

Jimin's attitude of opening Pandora's box that had been kept hidden all this time

It was harder for me to accept.

이여주

.......

이여주

jimin park,

So today I really wanted to ask why.

The reason for living a double life,

Maybe this is why we have to live like this.

이여주

What does it look like...

이여주

Is that really you..?

박지민

........

After hearing what I said, Park Jimin stared at me for a moment.

I opened my mouth slowly.

박지민

Actually, I don't know either...

박지민

I'm confused too,

박지민

I'm confused, I'm confused.....

My family had a hard time escaping poverty since I was young, and we lived in a corner of a cramped, single-room apartment.

Our family lived hand to mouth, so our financial situation was so poor that we had to even endure the food we wanted.

Dad had the kindest smile on his face outside,

As soon as I set foot in the house, I would often vent the stress I had been feeling outside on my mom.

Then one day, my dad got drunk and...

I crossed a line that shouldn't have been crossed.

Clang_ ////

That day, the sound of a wine glass breaking and my mother's screams filled the small room.

Dad won't know,

How much pain must my mother have felt as she stumbled on her thin legs and collapsed, covering her eyes.

Dad won't know,

My feelings back then, when I was hiding behind the wall and shivering...

Dad won't know,

My guilt for not being able to do anything at that time that day...

After that, my mother lost the use of both eyes,

At the same time, I was branded with the trauma of broken glass.

pieces of glass,

Every time I saw that shard of glass, my heart raced, and it felt like something that had happened only minutes ago...

It came to mind vividly and stabbed deep into my wounds_

It was probably from then.

The point at which I started growing crookedly_

[Pheok_]

???

Ugh... uhh ...

어린 지민

That's why I told you not to show off!

???

Huh......huh..... ugh...

지민 엄마

Jimin...

지민 엄마

What if I hit my friend...!

어린 지민

What, why? It's my heart.

어린 지민

I can't even walk properly...

The me of my childhood who only said hurtful and harsh words on purpose.

My mother who never once said a word to my father.

A mother who never rebelled, a mother like that...

As a child, I hated it so much.

I hated you to death...

지민 엄마

....... Sorry..

지민 엄마

(Pat pat) I'm so sorry, Mom...

지민 엄마

I need to work hard to earn money so I can buy my son lots of delicious things...

지민 엄마

I'm so sorry I can't be like other moms... (mumble)

I hated hearing sorry so much.

I thought it would be better if you just let out some anger.

I don't need money or anything like that... I just wish you would scold me like other mothers do...

Still, whenever I walked down the street, my mother would always say something to me.

For some reason, it was a word that made me sick of it.

지민 엄마

"Jimin, when you grow up, you shouldn't hit people. If you do, you'll be a bad person."

지민 엄마

"Our Jimin will definitely become a good person, right..?"

지민 엄마

"Promise me, Mom... hehe"

어린 지민

"......."

어린 지민

"Then what about Dad...?"

지민 엄마

"huh..?"

어린 지민

"Dad hits Mom..."

어린 지민

"Is Dad a bad person...?"

To this, my mother's answer was always the same.

"No, Dad is a good person."

I know everything, I know who made my mom's eyes like this...

Perhaps my mother wanted my father to remain in my memory with pride.

So I just decided to pretend I didn't know_

When I was in middle school, I decided not to look weak at all costs.

I thought that all kind and gentle people were treated like my mother.

He is a drunkard, steals money from his friends, and skips school without permission.

He was a member of a so-called bully group and began to engage in what adults call "deviant behavior."

Those who touched me responded with indiscriminate violence, and when I got home I became a docile lamb.

In front of my parents, I acted like a good kid.

At least I didn't want to be like my mom_

*Good Child Syndrome: A condition in which the obsession with being a good person becomes apparent when one listens to others.

Then, at school, many controversies broke out against me,

The word "expulsion" even came to mind.

선생님

Mother, according to the regulations, we should either expel you or force you to transfer.

선생님

It is common for students to be absent from class without permission and disappear from their seats.

지민 엄마

S, teacher... no...

지민 엄마

My child isn't that kind of person...

지민 엄마

Teacher, if you don't even graduate from middle school, you know very well what kind of treatment you'll receive in the future... (sobs)

지민 엄마

Teacher.... please......

That day, I watched from behind the teachers' office door as I always did.

The sight of my mother, who can't even see well, groping her way down to the floor with her hands on the wall...

As always... three steps behind...

Without anyone knowing... I tried hard to hide my flowing tears.

I told her everything about my past, including about my mother, who is currently in a nursing home.

It seems like a long time since I've told my story to someone.

No, maybe it's the first time_

박지민

I changed my mind again then...

박지민

I thought I couldn't make things difficult for my mom anymore...

이여주

.......

박지민

It was probably just after that

박지민

I decided to please everyone and live quietly.

박지민

But... at some point, I became an outcast...

박지민

(Sigh) ......

박지민

Still, I guess he wanted to keep the last promise he made to his mother.

박지민

And you saw what kind of person my dad was.

이여주

..... That day, when the listener woke up....

박지민

I really hide to live, I endure to live.

박지민

So, if you're thinking about interfering in my life, I hope you'll stop.

박지민

I trusted you and told you everything, I didn't want to be bothered.

이여주

.......okay...

Jimin's words made me feel sad inside, but I knew it was a desperate and desperate situation.

And I answered that I understood because I could understand.

But Jimin couldn't hide his disappointed expression. He stared at me for a moment before opening his mouth.

박지민

Okay, I just had a really hard time talking to you, so give me a hug.

이여주

........hmm?

이여주

What... what does that have to do with anything...

Swish_ ]

[Pok]

As my chin rested on his shoulder, a faint scent tickled my nose.

About 5 seconds passed like that_

Jimin continues speaking slowly in a low tone.

박지민

I told you.

박지민

You're flirting.

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I decided not to exceed 3000 characters ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

It's a bit awkward to split this past part into two...ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Yes, it is the cry of a writer who failed to control the amount of content.

Today's Bunkook TMI!@

I adopted a puppy. But it keeps biting me. I'm worried that it'll bite me when it gets bigger, so I'm going crazy. If you know how to discipline it, please leave a comment...🙏😑

Name: Happy / Age: A little over 2 months / Poodle / Likes to bite / Suddenly whinesㅋㅋㅋㅋ ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ / But I'm satisfied because he doesn't bark in the evening❤

This is a piece I wrote over 3 hours ago...ㅠㅠㅠ

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I'm getting more and more tired.

Ah! And before you go, if you click the cheering button, I'll give you a kiss(?)

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