Dream, I can't dream it again. [BL/Baekdo]

9.

I found you, and you were stable again. And then a few more days passed.

Every day, without me even knowing, things are choking me, squeezing my throat so tightly that it feels like it's going to burst at any moment.

I'm so scared I'm going crazy.

It was so crazy it was scary.

Day after day, I struggle in the valley of pain.

Ah, my homeland, my father,

You deny the god you believe in.

That blue leather Bible you gave me that day.

I flip through the bookshelf to find it.

Something that was stuck in a corner and never taken out.

Genesis, Exodus, 1 Corinthians.

I read it as soon as I get it.

Read and read and read again.

I read it every day.

Oh, Lord. My Father, God.

Are you listening to my prayer?

Please take me, your lamb,

Please save me from this hell.

Please don't lock me up here and kill me.

It's as ugly as torn paper.

It looks like a trampled flower petal.

As pitiful as a defiled heart.

Save me from it all.

Lord, please.

please!!!!

Do Kyungsoo, who is my Jesus, my sun, my world.

Now, Do Kyungsoo has truly become me...

Please save me.