Drops of light

17_It's okay.

[Yerin's point of view]

People are strange.

Someone drew a line that they were afraid of,

A line that I hope will not be crossed,

I'm trying to get over it no matter what.

If I were you, I would probably put more effort into my own life or try to understand the other person's feelings rather than putting in effort in such a place.

It must be hard enough to live on your own, so why would you try to take care of others?

Even if you pack it, there is something called "moderate".

At least that line shouldn't have been crossed.

Within the lines I have drawn, I,

I pour out all my feelings to myself.

So, the red water drop line was created to endure the hardship,

Anyway, I don't say anything because I know why it happened.

But within that line,

When someone who doesn't even know me well comes in,

They just tell you not to do that without even asking why.

What I want to say every time that happens is,

" whatever "

"You're the one who drove me out like this."

.

He didn't even glance at me as I was getting more and more tired.

Now come,

Even now, my territory has been "invaded"

What is so proud about it?

The only person I have ever allowed to cross the red line is my light, Ari.

It has probably been like that up until now and will probably continue to be like that in the future.

I thought so, and I was sure it would be so.

Arrived early in the classroom after a long time.

I quietly go to my seat in a classroom with only a few shy girls and put my bag down.

Put your earphones in and listen to a song from your playlist.

A route that is repeated every time I arrive early.

I don't know if it's because I'm indifferent, but I don't feel bored at all.

Because, as long as there's a song, I can endure it.

Because I have no one to confide in except Ari,

I've always supported myself with music.

And about five minutes later, the classroom door opens with a soft, yet noisy sound.

One person comes in.

It's decided.

김소정

Huh? You came early today haha

He looked at me, smiled brightly, and spoke to me.

I hid my cold expression and smiled

정예린

Yeah haha ​​I arrived a little early today

He answered, saying,

After a while,

정은비

Yenny, come early!!><

최유나

Hello~~~

Eunbi and Yuna come in

황은비

Hi!!

김예원

Hello~~

Soon after, Eunbi and Yewon also came in.

After the ceremony, the children flocked to Sojeong.

Sojeong pushed them away, saying that her head hurt.

As I returned to my seat, I lay down on the floor.

Because he was such a cheerful child in the morning, I was a little suspicious at first.

Any doubts that arose disappeared without a trace as So-jeong fell down helplessly, as if to prove that it was not a lie.

정예린

'Are you in a lot of pain...?'

I was just worried.

The bell rang and the teacher came in.

As always, everyone was focused on the teacher's words, and no one was paying attention to me.

Only then do I bring out the expression inside me.

And a small sound is heard.

정은비

: Yerin..!

It's Eunbi.

Call me.

Then, naturally, they will look at me, and I will naturally hide my inner expression and smile brightly.

정예린

: huh?

정은비

: Which page is it...? Hehe

정예린

: ㅋㅋㅋㅋThe textbook is 108 pages, and the print is 26 pages

정은비

: thank you!

And soon Eunbi took her eyes off me.

I brought out the expression inside me again.

It was nice not having to force a smile, hide it, and be aware of others' reactions.

So after school ended, Sojeong told the kids that she and I would go together alone.

정예린

What's going on?

정예린

'Do you have anything to say?'

Since Sojeong had never gone out on her own before, I thought she would do something even more.

And So-jeong's mouth twitches as if she's about to spit something out.

He seemed a little hesitant to speak.

정예린

"..Do you have something to say?"

I opened my mouth first and waited for Sojeong's answer.

김소정

"Uh...just hehe"

...I don't think that's just it.

김소정

"Where are you going now?"

정예린

"I'm just going to school and then going home."

So the two of us had a meaningless conversation and parted ways.

I came home, changed my clothes, and immediately picked up my phone.

An alarm notifying you that there has been a contact.

It came from Sojeong.

I tapped the notification without thinking, and as soon as the screen changed, I was puzzled.

Because the message from Sojeong was very cautious.

김소정

_Yerin

김소정

_If it's okay, can I ask you something?

정예린

_What do you want to ask?

김소정

_You don't have to answer if you don't want to

정예린

_I'll look at the questions first and then decide.

김소정

_What's going on these days?

정예린

_uh?

For a moment... I was flustered.

김소정

_No, just

김소정

_I wondered what was going on

I clearly hid it well...how did you guess?

정예린

_Ah....nothing much

For now, I tried to cover it up by saying that nothing happened.

김소정

_really?

김소정

_are you okay?

Ask if it's okay.

As I always have

정예린

_Yeah, it's okay

I answered that, but in fact I

정예린

Not at all... not okay

김소정

_Is this really okay?

Sojeong asked me again.

It was as if he was giving me one more chance to pour out my heart,

정예린

_Oh my gosh, I said it's okay haha

정예린

_Why are you suddenly like that?

I missed my chance again.

김소정

_No haha ​​see you tomorrow~~

Passing me by

Make eye contact with me

Among those who spoke to me,

Sojeong is the first person to come close to me since Ari.

But I pushed away the approaching Sojeong.

Out of line.

I feel like I just want to rely on you, but

I'm so scared of getting hurt and abandoned again

I tell lies I don't mean,

It's a lie, but I always do it.

I also said "It's okay" to Sojeong who came to me.

Sojeong pushed him out of line.

So Jeong-ah

You too... are still a little early.

If we go deeper, then let's try to cross this line

Right now... it's too early for me.

are you okay?

- are you okay.

[17_It's okay.] the end

밤 작가

This episode sucked...★