Even if I cheat, you don't cheat when you sleep.

#12 Nightmare

...

6 years ago

It was an unusually humid and rainy summer...

최연준

Ahhh... It's raining on a day like this...

김여주

Well, that's what I'm saying...

Sigh..._

Swaaaaaaaaaaaa..._

The rain poured down heavily along with the wind.

김여주

Why does it feel like I'm not using an umbrella even though I'm using one..;;

최연준

...

최연준

...Well, you're using my umbrella right now.

김여주

lol

최연준

Take an umbrella with you..;;

최연준

They say it's the rainy season...

김여주

So, I just forgot today..! Haha..

최연준

What did you blink,,

최연준

..but it's annoying

김여주

..ah

김여주

Got caught.

최연준

Oh my...

김여주

Oh, why

김여주

Do you think it's a waste to share an umbrella with me?

김여주

Huh? Is that so??-.-

The heroine pushed her face close to mine with a pained expression.

최연준

..

최연준

..don't stick around, it makes me feel uncomfortable

...

I turned my head to the other side as I saw the female protagonist leaning in close to me.

최연준

...

Ha, sir...

It's too close...

It's too close..//

I looked into the distance for no reason and calmed my pounding heart.

김여주

?

김여주

What, why are you hurting me?

김여주

Are you embarrassed now~~?

The heroine teased me with her witty remarks.

최연준

...Then, you...

최연준

...Then, you... aren't you excited at all?//

At this time, I had just started dating the female protagonist.

That's why everything I did with the female protagonist was both embarrassing and exciting.

김여주

Haha ...

최연준

...

최연준

...Hey, I don't want to go home today.

김여주

huh???

최연준

I want to go to your house

김여주

what?

최연준

I'm going to sleep over at your house today.

김여주

her-

김여주

Who cares? lol

최연준

Yeah, whatever I want.. haha

Dadadak.._

I wrapped one arm around Yeoju's shoulder and held the umbrella tightly with the other hand, and ran towards Yeoju's house while leading her.

김여주

iced coffee!!

김여주

Ahhh!! Really Choi Yeonjun..!!!ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

김여주

It's raining so much that we all get wet..!!ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

최연준

So what if it gets wet, I'll change it for you.

I pulled the heroine with me and we ran together through the heavy rain.

Beep beep beep._

Crunch._

김여주

Oh really lol

김여주

I got wet because of Choi Yeonjunㅋㅋㅋㅋ

최연준

Who wouldn't bring an umbrella?

최연준

lol

김여주

..Mr. Lee

김여주

Ah, I feel uneasy..

최연준

Can you change my clothes?

김여주

..!

김여주

Huh, what..!

김여주

Is it okay??^^

최연준

What the heck, why are you treating me like a pervert?

김여주

...-- (Suspicious look)

최연준

I told you not to look at me like that.

Hwaak._

I ran towards the heroine.

김여주

Oh no!! Seriously!! Hahahahahahahaha

김여주

I told you it was awkward..!!ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

최연준

Ugh, it's getting even more awkward.

I hugged the heroine and rubbed my face against hers, making her squirm.

김여주

Ah, really, don't stick around

Tiring._

김여주

!

김여주

Hey, hey, call..!!

김여주

Not accepting it?

최연준

Yeah,

최연준

Where are you going to take me out?

Bustling._

I left the ringing phone behind and went into the room with the female lead in my arms.

widely._

Jiing.._

Jiing.._

김여주

Hey.. if you throw me on the bed right now, I'll die..?^^

최연준

Why not?

김여주

You're not going to wash the bed sheets, so put them down^^

최연준

..lol

Ssuk._

I gently put down the heroine I had lifted.

김여주

First, let's wash

최연준

..!

최연준

Let's wash..?

최연준

together..

김여주

No, what are you talking about?

김여주

Since we got rained on, let's go wash up^^

김여주

Each. Self. Figure it out.^

최연준

..ah

I was looking forward to it for a moment.

...

So we washed and changed clothes.

And then we jumped into bed together.

Po-ok.._

김여주

Ugh...-

김여주

I feel refreshed..~

최연준

..

최연준

..I think there's an old man next to me?

김여주

..you're an old man^^

김여주

This is your girlfriend, Inma^^

최연준

..girlfriend,, (mumble)

I blushed again at the word girlfriend.

김여주

But, is it really okay if I don't answer the phone?

최연준

phone call?

김여주

No, it rang several times while I was washing up earlier too.

김여주

Isn't this an important call?

최연준

..Is that so?

I got up from where I was lying and headed to the living room where I had left my cell phone.

최연준

what..

I checked my phone.

There were several absence messages.

On a phone call I didn't even know about...

최연준

...?

what..

I called that number while it was out of service.

Ringing..._

Boom._

등장인물

📱 Oh, you're Choi Yeonjun, right?

최연준

..?

최연준

📱 Yes, but

등장인물

📱 This is ##hospital, my grandmother...

...

......

Stop._

At the mention of the hospital, I panicked and immediately left the house and headed there.

최연준

...

Tap._

Tatadak.._

I ran like crazy to the hospital without even bringing my shoes or umbrella.

최연준

...haha..

I was slowly losing my breath.

But I didn't stop.

No, I couldn't stop.

That's how I arrived at the hospital.

최연준

...

최연준

...Ha, where are you?

I grabbed a man in a white lab coat and asked him.

등장인물

?

등장인물

Oh, are you Choi Yeonjun by any chance?

최연준

..Yes, I am Choi Yeonjun...

최연준

J..my grandmother.

최연준

Where is my grandmother..!!?

I grabbed the doctor and went straight to find my grandmother.

등장인물

...

등장인물

First, follow me

최연준

..(nod)

I followed the doctor's instructions.

Where the doctor led me, there was a white bed.

And above it I saw a human figure covered with a white cloth.

최연준

...

등장인물

..My grandmother closed her eyes at 8:52 on #Month #Sun.

등장인물

The cause of death was severe fractures and bruises from a traffic accident.

최연준

...

최연준

...why

최연준

...why..

최연준

...Why did our grandmother...

등장인물

I heard that while riding in a taxi, there was an accident with a large truck.

등장인물

The car flipped over because it was raining.

최연준

...stop,

최연준

...Stop it, please..

등장인물

..yes

최연준

...Can you step out for a moment?

등장인물

..

The doctor quietly left the room.

최연준

..

Swish.._

I slowly lowered the white cloth covering my grandmother and checked her face.

최연준

...

Bam.._

thud.._

When I saw my grandmother's face, tears started to flow from my eyes.

I hadn't even realized the reality of my grandmother's passing, but when I saw her face, tears began to flow.

최연준

..sob,

최연준

Sorry..

최연준

I..

최연준

..I'm too late

최연준

Grandma... I'm... sorry... uh... sob...

I looked at my grandmother and cried endlessly.

I received the documents from the funeral director and listened silently to the words I couldn't hear before stepping outside for a moment.

And then I called the female protagonist.

Ringing..._

Click._

김여주

📱 Hey, Choi Yeonjun..!!

김여주

📱 Where are you!!

최연준

...

김여주

📱 How can you just suddenly leave without even answering the phone?

최연준

📱 ..Yeoju

I opened my mouth with a voice that was hoarse from crying so much.

김여주

📱 What's wrong, why is your voice like that? What's going on?

최연준

📱 ..ha, what should I do?

최연준

📱 Me...really...

When I heard the heroine's voice, I felt like tears were about to fall again.

김여주

📱 ..where are you

김여주

📱 I'll be there right away.

최연준

📱 ##Hospital..

The call ended like that, and a few minutes later, the female protagonist appeared.

김여주

..ha ha ha..

The heroine seemed to have run in a hurry.

And then he came to me, panting lightly.

김여주

Yeonjun

최연준

...

김여주

...

김여주

...Why are you doing that?

김여주

My clothes are all wet, and my shoes are like this...

최연준

...

김여주

..

김여주

..First, let's go in

김여주

huh?

김여주

You'll catch a cold if you keep doing this.

최연준

..passed away

김여주

..

최연준

My grandmother...traffic accident whale

최연준

...the car flipped over after colliding with a big truck

김여주

stop..

김여주

You can stop...

최연준

..

최연준

..huh

김여주

..

최연준

..Honey, I'm scared

최연준

The only family I had was my grandmother.

최연준

..now I'm alone

..kekeke.._

I swallowed back the tears that threatened to flow at any moment.

최연준

If only I had gone home earlier...

최연준

If that were the case...

최연준

My grandmother didn't pass away, did she?

최연준

...

김여주

...

김여주

Why are you alone? I'm here.

최연준

...

김여주

I'll do it all..

김여주

Choi Yeonjun's family and girlfriend

김여주

I'll do it all.

김여주

I will always be by your side, on your side.

최연준

...

김여주

You are not alone, don't be afraid

Hug.._

The heroine hugged me tightly as I was shaking with anxiety.

최연준

..Yeah,

And I hugged that heroine tighter.

So, I hugged the heroine for a long time, cried, and stayed up all night together, and we also held my grandmother's funeral.

But that wasn't the end of it.

"It's because of you, even if I hadn't given birth to you..!!"

최연준

...

I grew up being abused by my mother since I was little.

Mom loved Dad very much.

However, it seems that Dad thinks of Mom as his flaw.

I don't know because I've never even met my dad's face.

but,

I knew that my mother, who was having an affair with my married father, gave birth to me, and that my mother was abandoned by my father as soon as I was born.

I grew up listening to all the stories that went back and forth, so I knew to some extent.

So I understood why my mother would look at me with contempt and curse at me whenever she saw me.

..but,

Still, I loved my mother.

And I wanted to be loved.

But when I was four years old, my mother passed away and I ended up being raised by my grandmother for 13 years.

To me, whose only family was my grandmother...

Even then, there was no family left who would love me.

Now I'm scared of being alone,

I'm afraid I'll be left alone

I was scared.

"I wish I had never been born..."

"Huh..!"

최연준

..haha..

Swaaaah.._

Outside the window, rain was pouring down.

And then I had another dream.

A nightmare.

Since my grandmother passed away, I have had nightmares every day it rains.

I am standing alone in the thick fog and running. The more I run, the more the rain pours down from the sky. My vision becomes blurred by the fog ahead, and only I, running alone, exist.

These dreams continued every rainy day. On increasingly severe days, I spent countless nights awake, unable to sleep, trembling with anxiety.

김여주

..Yeonjun, did you dream again?

최연준

...huh

김여주

Ego, come here...

The heroine, who woke up because of me, rubbed her eyes, got up, spread her arms, and hugged me tightly.

Then he slowly swept my back and spoke in a soft voice.

김여주

are you okay..

김여주

It will pass soon..

김여주

It's okay... It's okay...

최연준

...

As I listened to the female protagonist's voice, my anxiety disappeared without me realizing it.

It was inevitable that I would have nightmares every rainy day, but when I woke up from the nightmares and felt the warmth of the female protagonist hugging and patting me, my anxious heart would quickly calm down.

So, I became a person who couldn't survive without the female lead.

Maybe that's why I crave more obsession and affection for the female lead.

Even if I act badly or hurt you, I want you to always look at me.

Such selfishness...

_

_

_

The content was really long, but thank you for reading it to the end.

Guys, but this isn't why the Fed is going out of business...;;

There's another story that could be causing trouble, so please calm down...

..Ah, but

I saw a really nice comment recently.

I love you too💓

Thank you so much to everyone who left comments😊❤

It becomes a source of energy that gives me strength to keep writing.

Well then, that's it...-

Poof.<