ferment.
11:00 AM
I woke up from a deep sleep in my hospital bed. Just then, a snowflake or two fell from the sky.
000
It's a day off from school, and it's snowing. It's heaven.
I sat by the window and ate.
My hospital room is a double room, and it is for people with non-communicable diseases.
Until yesterday, a person was suffering from heart disease, and today he disappeared somewhere.
000
Where did that person go?
000
...it felt familiar somehow.
After that, I was left alone in this ward. No one came in except for the occasional nurse who came in to change my IV drip.
I feel liberated.
But loneliness is unavoidable, so I picked up my phone.
My head hurts, my back hurts...
000
- What is Jiwon doing?
김지원
- Dingling
000
- ? Not school?
Why are you rolling around all of a sudden? Is he resting today too?
김지원
- Haha ...
김지원
- You didn't know?
Are you saying I'm not the only one resting?!
Suddenly, I felt a sharp decline. As I watched the snow pile up layer by layer on the floor below the hospital,
Knock, knock.
There was a sharp knock and the door opened with a creak.
000
...yunki min?
민윤기
Are you okay?
I wondered why it had to be this kid who came to visit me in the hospital.
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why.
000
What are you here for?
Min Yoongi scratched the back of his head a few times, as if angry.
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Visiting the sick.
000
...what are you going to do?
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well.
000
Are you just going to barge in and do something like that when there's a woman there?
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You are a patient now.
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I'm a woman, and we're not men.
Who are you!
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...Did Joo Si-jin hit you?
000
No. That senior was right.
Min Yoongi's eyes widened as if he was surprised.
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you?
000
Hoseok was hitting me.
Suddenly, that scene flashed before my eyes, and I felt dizzy. I can still vividly remember that expression.
000
I didn't do anything. They just cursed.
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I know, I didn't do anything.
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Did you cry?
000
almost.
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...is it my fault?
Min Yoongi's expression was unusually serious. Was it Min Yoongi's fault?
000
well.
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Answer me clearly, 000. I know it's hard right now.
Suddenly, I remembered the abuse those seniors had heaped on me. I could have held it back when I saw Hoseok's face. Tears streamed down my cheeks.
I also want to cry beautifully like the main characters in dramas.
He cried, his voice croaking like a toad. Min Yoongi watched me quietly, then sat down on the cot in front of me and leaned his head in toward me.
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It's my fault.
000
Oh, no, no.
How on earth do drama protagonists manage to speak properly while crying?
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...It's my fault.
I couldn't answer.
I closed my eyes, thinking it would be better not to see.
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Open your eyes, you idiot.
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Why are you so scared?
When I opened my eyes, Min Yoongi was right in front of me.
He kissed my cheek.
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...sorry.
Min Yoongi covers his face with both hands as soon as he speaks.
I cried louder.
In an instant, through the glass window caught in the door...
The camera lens sparkled and shone.