human allergy

EP.34#TheBrokenThread

(The story is told from Eunbi's perspective.)

김석진

Then, please feel free to chat.

I grabbed the hem of Mr. Seokjin's clothes as he was about to leave after saying goodbye. I was so desperate that I was tensing up, and my mother's cold gaze was fixed on me.

어머니

Doctor, you should be going now. There must be a lot of patients.

김석진

......yes

Mr. Seokjin gently let go of my hand and left. Bang—with the sound of the door slamming shut, the atmosphere began to freeze. Overwhelmed by the mood, as if I were freezing along with the space, I just breathed in silence.

I turned my eyes away, breaking the single gaze directed at me in the frozen space. Then, it came closer and closer to me.

황은비

Let's talk there...

황은비

What do you want? Why did you come looking for me? You didn't say a word when you left home.

어머니

Is Mom someone who only comes to visit when she has business?

I clutched the blanket and squeezed back my anger. How could someone who hadn't taken care of me say such things?

황은비

*Pfft*... So, is giving birth the only thing that makes you a mother?

황은비

I was basically my dad's money shuttle.

I was someone who miserably earned money and gave it all to my father. Our home was like a prison. A 'prison' where we had to live quietly without any facilities or care from anyone.

어머니

That's a long time ago, isn't it?

Those who make me forget it as if it were a thing of the past. I would be really grateful if you could at least tell me how to erase the deeply etched scar.

황은비

It happened a long time ago... yeah, a long time ago... and look at me now because of that one thing from the past.

황은비

To tell them to forget the past... I don't think that is something an unqualified parent should be saying. It is merely a framework built on legally established lies.

어머니

What kind of things are you saying...

황은비

Do not make the sick patient sicker.

황은비

I wish you would stop going, Mom.

With Mom's sigh, the smile she had been wearing out of politeness vanished. The corners of her mouth gradually drooped until they became a horizon without a trace.

어머니

I can't leave from here. I haven't been able to say what I wanted to say yet.

어머니

The reason you want to speak with me, and the reason I came to see you.

어머니

I'm suggesting we live together in a foreign country.

My mind wavered for a moment. I doubted if I had heard correctly. If what I just heard was right, were they saying we should live together with that murderer?

I could not untangle the threads of fear, shame, and betrayal. If the tangled threads are tightened any further, they will eventually break.

어머니

Dad has changed a lot. There won't be any more business failures...

황은비

Haa... I'm in this state because of that bastard, how can I live with him!!!

In the end, it becomes a discarded thread that can no longer be connected.