I accidentally liked my ex-boyfriend's Instagramㅠㅠ

08. I am a person who carries wounds

My Achilles tendon hurt every time I walked, probably because the heels were chafing the skin. I should've brought a bandage...

I wonder what kind of event was so long? Even after the general shareholders' meeting, my calves were shaking from the wine tasting, but I was laughing and sipping wine glasses next to my father... My body aches.

You drank wine on an empty stomach... Oh, I lost everything.

I stuck my face on the bus window.

The image of that snake-like face, the one who'd been smiling so politely next to me, flashed before my eyes, and my teeth clenched. But there was nothing I could do. Right now, I'm the one who's feeling the pinch...

Money's the issue... My GPA isn't high enough to get a full scholarship... One of us is in college and the other is in high school. We'll have to keep going for at least a year, right?

What's one year... it could be three years.

Sigh... I can't go on like this forever, so I guess I'll look for a part-time job. I heard there are a lot of tutoring jobs.

I am confident in teaching and answering questions.

Above all, when high school students ask about dating during their college entrance exam period, they have a lot to say.

There is someone who has given me a lot to say.

There was a love that suddenly struck me during my senior year of high school, the time I regret the most in my life. It was a difficult time for both of us... We didn't confess because of college entrance exams, but we were practically lovers.

Until the CSAT... that was it. I applied for regular admission relatively leisurely, but that kid, who had been receiving upward support, disappeared from the day of the CSAT.

He disappeared a day later, either in an accident or kidnapped. He didn't even answer his phone...

I wonder if he's doing well. I can't find him... I need to contact him.

It was... my first unrequited love. Something like that.

I clutched the shoulder strap of my eco-bag tightly. I wondered how it was going. My companion during my most toxic times.

...is that a bit much? A companion... I can't keep my hands and feet still.

Anyway, back then, and now, when love came to me... when people came to me, I didn't seem to be able to accept it.

Because I have a wound.

Because I am a wounded person.

It bothered me that I was a person who carried wounds.

A shady person knows how to give and receive love beautifully and correctly.

I don't know.

I can't be grateful enough to be thankful...

Because I have a wound.

I'm afraid I'll hurt you.

I was always scared.

I've already hurt you. I was too harsh on you. We were too different.

I hate myself so much for being so hurt.

It's past time to blame the environment. Now, it's just... I hate myself so much.

I hate the scars I have. I hate being a scarred person. I don't want to carry my scars anymore.

(*Quote from the movie 'Scent of Chrysanthemums'.😊)

I heard the announcement that the next stop was ==Dae Entrance, and pressed the stop button. I should get off now. I slowly stepped off the bus, wondering if my siblings were home.

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When I came in, there were two pairs of black Adidas slippers that looked like Kim Tae-hyun's shoes and a pair of shoes I had never seen before.

김여주

... mom?

엄마

Yeah. Are you here?

And... next to it.

My mom brought a man home.

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🐌느린 아르노🐌

As I mentioned in the middle of the episode, I quoted a line from the movie <The Scent of Chrysanthemums>!

🐌느린 아르노🐌

I don't know if I said it, so I'll say it again. Thank you so much for the 500 views and 20 minutes of subscriptions!