I Want to See the Sea

flashbacks

A nanny. She literally took care of me in place of my mother. But one day, she disappeared and never returned. In the end, all that came back to me was indifference.

My mother, who was an ordinary person, said she gave up many things to live with my father, whom she loved.

For example, it would be the existence of a human being or the level of life.

They say that there was a time when my father was kind, unlike now, and my mother fell in love with that.

But after I was born, I didn't pay much attention to the politics of the nobles.

So I hated that kind of father, and in fact, I still hate him.

But I think I grew up well thanks to the good care my mother and nanny gave me.

When I was six, my mother's health began to deteriorate. She coughed at every opportunity and her complexion became pale.

Even I, a child, could tell. My father seemed to pay attention to my mother when she was sick, but soon he had to focus on the kingdom, and I was the only one left to look after her.

ㆍㆍㆍ As always, they were only each other.

One day I sat down next to my mother who was lying down and asked her.

어린 인어 왕자

“Mother... Will you be able to get better if you go outside?”

여왕

"That may be true... but I will be here. By your side forever..."

"Why on earth?" the little boy asked. His mother stroked his head. A faint smile played on her wrinkled lips.

The hand that had been stroking the boy fell limply. Even the crown he was wearing now seemed colorless.

That must be why. I, with human blood mixed in, was worried that I might die the same death as my mother.

I was so scared of the gaze my father, who had been indifferent to his family, was looking at me with after death.

I was just afraid of my imperfect existence. I think that's why I was afraid of swimming in the sea. I was afraid that I would be abandoned by my father like my mother.

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But reality had already been decided.

Already, he had been abandoned by his father.

I missed my poor mother. If she had not been human, would she have been able to live happily?

If I hadn't loved my father, if he hadn't given birth to me, would I have been able to live a normal and happy life as a human being?

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My thoughts are getting deeper and deeper.