I was possessed by my own novel

I'm screwed

I am currently a very successful best-selling author, writing mainly romance novels.

Yesterday, to celebrate my book selling a million copies, I had a drink with Namjoon and wrote a rough, crazy novel for fun...

I woke up to find myself possessed by the villainous male protagonist of that novel.

Ah...this character dies later...I'm screwed

I write down what I remember, while resenting myself for yesterday.

Name: Ian / Family is from the 3rd generation of nobles / Childhood friend of the female protagonist, very jealous

Heroine: Sylvia, bright and kind, an ordinary noblewoman who studies well - no other settings,

Namjoo - Ren, crown prince, handsome, kind, excellent at swordsmanship

The plot summary is that Ian torments the two and causes national loss and downfall, and the two live happily ever after Ian dies, but it's completely ridiculous and there's no information...

Still, four months before all the incidents, all the problems were caused by my liking Sylvia, so I was happy to think that all I had to do was dislike Sylvia. The problem would be easily solved.

This kid has a lot of money. This life is all about eating and playing!!

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Cancel the easy one

Maybe it's because of the damn setting, but no matter what I do, I can't help but think of Sylvia.

Even though they hadn't actually met, Ian's mind was constantly spinning with Sylvia.

As if you're assuming you love me

In Ian's memories, Sylvia was particularly radiant and beautiful, more so than anyone else. She took such good care of him, a person everyone feared, and all his memories with Sylvia were happy.

That light was incomparable to anything else.

That's when I realized... he really had liked Sylvia for a long time.

The day of the final battle has finally arrived.

Sylvia came to find me

In terms of the content, Sylvia and Ian were friends in the past, so Sylvia came to visit often, but from my perspective, who had feelings for Ian, it was a real pain.

Ian's patience is so great that I almost told Sylvia I loved her even as we sat there for a moment, even though I could sense a hint of his feelings, not mine.

Sylvia sat next to me, chatting away, whether cautiously or not. Her eyes sparkled like jewels.

실비아

Hey!!! Are you even listening to me??

실비아

I'm going to the palace to train!!!!

나

Oh?? Sorry, I was thinking about something else,,

실비아

Hey, you seem to have changed a bit~ You used to listen to me even when you were sleepy, but this is not how friendships change~~

나

No,,, I'm really worried about the business that's being implemented these days (complete lie)

(When I look at you, my heart starts beating forcibly. It's definitely my heart, but I can't control it. It's my eyes, but they keep looking at you... That's why I can't concentrate.) I shout to myself.

What can I say to you, who knows my actions as purely friendship?

실비아

Then don't talk ^^ This older sister will help you!!

나

I'd rather go into the palace than that.

Upon entering the palace, Sylvia meets Ren and falls in love.

And if I leave, this world will be perfect

So what kind of love do you expect from a sub-male lead?

I thought this way inside, but the words came out differently.

나

If you go to the palace, we won't have much time to meet, so let's play a lot before you go.

I wish you would come into my life even though you haven't.

The vain hope that you might not look at me

실비아

Yeah, you can't live without this older sister, right? Hahaha

나

uh

실비아

uh??

Words that came out unconsciously, stories from deep within that shouldn't be told, suddenly came out through my mouth.

When I see your flustered expression for a moment, it feels like my heart is stabbed. I shouldn't like you...

나

Hey, you took some of my candies, so give them back. I've gained weight, lol.

Change the subject abruptly

실비아

Right? What should I say again? LOLOLOLOLOL

실비아

Then this older sister goes, you little brat

나

Oh, bye🖐🖐I won't go out

실비아

Like this spicy little brat

As I watched Sylvia's back as she walked out the door, my body suddenly moved.

나

Sylvia!!

실비아

Hey~ You're not coming outㅡㅡ

나

What if you get lost again and cause trouble? Why should I send you away alone?

Because I want to see you a little more

실비아

Wow, I'm not that stupid. I'm still a top student, even though I look like this😎

나

Yeah, Chief Gil-chul lol

How can it shine so brightly?

You will never know my heart, which makes ridiculous jokes and speaks to you with just that one smile of yours.

실비아

Hahahahahahahahahaha

After breaking up with Sylvia, I returned to my room and lay down on the bed.

I feel dizzy

I don't know if he knows I'm trying not to love Sylvia, but my heart is pounding like a cloud without me knowing.

The feelings that were brought like that make my heart ache

The unwillingness to love Sylvia and the absolute power of the text's setting to love her collide, creating a whirlpool.

I try not to get sucked into that whirlpool, but my body sinks little by little.

My heart is dyed with you without my consent

My time is filled with you

I pray today that next time we meet I won't love you.

After being sick for a while, I woke up and realized that I looked quite foolish for hoping for something even though I knew it wouldn't work. I laughed in disbelief when I saw myself like this in the writing I wrote.

This must be a joke

Or is it fate?

I didn't even think about or set up a situation where I have no friends or parents around me except for you, so I can only look at you. Am I left with no choice but to love you?