If pain has a forecast
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김석진
yes?
윤여주
Don't go. Can't we just stay together today?
김석진
No, I have to go now.
윤여주
Then hug me just once. All the hardships I've endured because of you will go away.
김석진
...Okay. Come here.
The author's embrace was so warm and cozy. After so much hardship, I was suddenly faced with happiness, and it was a bit jarring. When the author tried to leave, I held him tighter.
윤여주
It hasn't all come down yet.
김석진
Is it okay for me to go?
윤여주
just a little···.
김석진
I'll hug you again next time.
윤여주
Really. Next time, you should hug me longer.
김석진
Okay. Get some rest. I made dinner tonight, so make sure you eat everything.
윤여주
I understand. You should rest too, author. It must have been hard.
김석진
Yes, I will go.
After the author left, I stood still in front of the door. I couldn't tell if what had just happened was a dream or reality. But when the author asked to meet, I wasn't particularly happy. Perhaps I'd neglected my life of sadness for too long; happiness hadn't truly arrived.
Am I numb to happiness? It's normal to be numb to sadness, but I've actually become numb to happiness, even though I haven't experienced it much. Happiness still feels strange to me.
···
Being alone quickly made me feel empty again. Today was supposed to be the joy I'd longed for, but it felt no different than any other day. I tried to sleep a little and watch TV, but I quickly became bored again. I decided this wasn't going to work out, so I left the house.
윤여주
It'll be over soon.
Ding-dong
It wasn't far from my house. It wasn't a convenience store or a wine bar. I headed straight for the author's house. I rang the doorbell and a moment later, I heard the author's voice.
김석진
"who are you?"
윤여주
I'm that writer's girlfriend!
‘Clang’
김석진
Why did you come? I told you to get some rest.
윤여주
So you don't like it? I'm cold...
김석진
···Come in first.
And seeing the author's face brought a smile to my face. Just seeing the author made me feel happier without even realizing it. I felt glad I came out.
윤여주
I came because I felt so empty and depressed being alone. I'm sorry for coming without even contacting you.
김석진
It's not that I'm sorry... I'll make you feel a little warmer, it hurts.
윤여주
Thanks to you, everything is better. What were you doing?
김석진
I just drew a picture.
윤여주
A painting? It's a landscape. You draw it without even looking at it?
김석진
No lol how can you draw without looking. I just wanted to try something new.
윤여주
Can't you show me?
김석진
Um... later. I'll show you later when I get the chance.
윤여주
Okay, so I came here to interrupt?
김석진
No, I didn't interrupt.
윤여주
But how does the author speak so beautifully?
김석진
Me?
윤여주
Yes. Except when I hate you.
김석진
Hey, would you like to have a cup of warm tea before you go? It's getting dark quickly.
윤여주
Are you sending me away?
김석진
Aren't you going home...?
윤여주
If I were at that house, the writer would be leaving so I came, but now he's sending me away.
김석진
uh···.
He seemed flustered. Even his flustered appearance was, for the first time, endearing to the author. A chuckle escaped his lips, and the author, embarrassed, touched the back of his head.
윤여주
But, author, this is no joke.
김석진
yes?!
윤여주
It's getting dark and the author won't let me go alone, so if the author comes to my house again, I won't let him go.
김석진
What is it, that···.
윤여주
Can I just sleep here today? I don't want to be alone today...
김석진
...Okay, then go to bed and sleep. I can sleep here.
윤여주
You're sleeping on the sofa?
김석진
I sleep here sometimes so it's okay.
윤여주
Because of me... I'll just go. I don't want the author to sleep uncomfortably because of me.
김석진
I'm really okay.
윤여주
Well, I'll sleep here. I'm uncomfortable, so I can't.
김석진
That's uncomfortable for me. I just sleep in bed. I'm really fine.
윤여주
...I understand. But don't you get bored when you're alone?
김석진
Maybe it's because I've been living alone for a long time, but I haven't really felt it.
윤여주
Can't you just say you're bored?
김석진
Yes...? Oh, I'm bored.
윤여주
So, do you want to go on a date with me tomorrow?
김석진
Are you on a date?
윤여주
Yes! We're going to school tomorrow. High school.
School may have been a place I missed, but I hadn't realized that it was hell for the author.
김석진
great.
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