If pain has a forecast

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are you okay?!!

The hand that held me was quite warm. I looked up, my vision blurred by the tears streaming down my face, and saw an unexpected figure standing there.

윤여주

Author···?

The author stood me up properly and said with a slight frown.

김석진

Are you doing this because of me? A grown man is about to cry and collapse because of me?

윤여주

Just let him fall. Why did you catch him? If you're going to say something like that, then go. Just calmly leave like you did before.

김석진

The curator first said he wouldn't let personal feelings get in the way. I approved the exhibition on that condition. It's different now.

윤여주

What can I do if it doesn't work out the way I want? I'm seeing someone, and I keep thinking about you and it bothers me. What can I do?

김석진

It's my fault. I shouldn't have been drinking and going to see the curator in the first place. It was my mistake...

윤여주

When are you ever going to tell me? Why you came, why you were there, when you returned to Korea, why it hasn't even been three months? Shouldn't you tell me now?

김석진

Alcohol... do you want to drink?

At his words, I nodded, slightly taken aback. I thought he'd calm down again when he told me to go, but he seemed to have cooled down a bit.

.

I got into the author's car, and though we didn't speak a word the entire way, our hearts seemed to have grown a little closer. It might just be my imagination, but...

사장님

Welcome... Why are you two coming in together?

윤여주

I'll just drink and go today...

사장님

Uh...? Okay. Sit over there.

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윤여주

Now tell me, what the hell is it?

김석진

after···.

The author poured himself a glass of strong alcohol, sighed, and slowly sipped it. I waited for him to speak. The author, seemingly determined, opened his mouth.

김석진

I didn't go to America.

윤여주

...Huh? What did you just say? You said you didn't go to America?

김석진

It's exactly as I heard. I didn't go to America. That's a lie.

윤여주

Why on earth...? Why did you lie to me like that? No, how long were you planning on deceiving me?

김석진

I hoped the curator would meet someone good, as I always say. But when she said she was seeing someone, it wasn't as good as I thought.

윤여주

Why are you talking about that now?

The author paused for a moment and looked straight at me. I could sense a complex mix of emotions in his eyes. But I still couldn't figure out what his true feelings were.

김석진

I don't know either... But it was the best I could do at the time.

김석진

I wanted the curator to be happy, and I thought leaving me was the right path.

윤여주

How many times have I told you that having you by my side makes me happy? But you left me anyway.

윤여주

Leaving me so miserable. So Curator Kim knew that too? Right?

김석진

Curator Kim, it doesn't matter. I asked you to do so.

윤여주

So... why are you telling me this? Let's talk again later when you're sober.

김석진

i like you···.

He took another sip of his drink and stopped me with those words. The very fact that he was saying these things to me while still drunk was infuriating and irritating.

윤여주

Drink in moderation.

I tried to snatch the glass from the writer's hand, but he held it too tightly. His eyes shook unsteadily, as if he was getting drunk.

김석진

I had a hard time too...

윤여주

I had it much harder than you, writer. If you're going to lie, do it properly. Why did you show up...?

김석진

sorry···.

윤여주

Stop drinking and go inside. I have nothing to say right now. Did you ask me to drink so you could talk about things you don't really mean?

김석진

I'm serious, I am.

윤여주

Let's talk again when you sober up.

I hurriedly opened the door and stepped outside. The cold night breeze greeted me, bringing me back to my senses. I took a deep breath to calm my confused mind and walked slowly towards the house.

I came home and lay down in bed, trying to sleep, but I couldn't. I couldn't stop thinking about the author's drunken remark about liking me, and then I kept thinking about the past.

I really miss those days when I would leave comments as a fan without even knowing who the author was, and only liked his work.

The author wanted me to meet someone else and be happy, but the happiness the author wanted for me and the happiness I wanted for myself were completely different.

These myriad thoughts kept me awake, and when I finally did, I was tormented by pain all night. I was in pain again because of the author.

윤여주

eww···.

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