If pain has a forecast

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Rrrrrr Rrrrrr Rrrrrr

The phone had been ringing nonstop since morning, and I couldn't even answer it due to a severe headache. My stomach was churning, and I felt so dizzy that even the slightest movement made me feel like I might vomit.

Thank goodness it was the weekend. I couldn't come to my senses and ended up closing my eyes again.

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오후 1:30

When I opened my eyes again, I felt a little better, having slept for another three hours. I picked up my phone and checked the time: 1:30 PM. The screen was filled with missed calls and messages.

All of them were... the author.

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오전 11:45

💬 Why aren't you answering my phone? What's wrong?

오전 11:57

💬 Are you angry? Let's meet up. Let's talk.

오후 12:34

💬 Curator, let's meet and talk. I'll wait to hear from you.

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윤여주

Why did you send so many...

윤여주

📞 Yes, author. You contacted me a lot···,

김석진

📞 Why aren't you answering your phone? Do you know how worried I was?!

윤여주

📞 No···, why are you angry···?

김석진

📞 No matter how angry you are, you can't ignore someone's calls.

The writer would immediately get angry the moment I picked up the phone. Even though he was usually the type to never get angry, I couldn't help but panic.

윤여주

📞 Author.

김석진

📞 Yes.

윤여주

📞 I don't think you're getting angry before you even hear what I have to say.

Perhaps because the pain hadn't completely subsided, I didn't have the strength to fight back with a vengeance. I was afraid that my headache, which had finally calmed down thanks to the author, would start pounding again, so I quickly finished.

윤여주

📞 My head has been hurting so much since yesterday that I'm just now coming to my senses. That's why I'm contacting you now.

윤여주

📞 And I don't think this is a situation where the author should get angry. I'll hang up.

김석진

📞 Wait a minute...! I'm sorry... I didn't know.

📞 Of course you didn't know. I'll call you back later. I'll hang up first.

윤여주

under···.

The author has changed a lot. He doesn't say he likes me when he's drunk, he doesn't contact me first, and now he even gets angry.

I think I'll need some time to meet the author with a clear mind.

I was sitting quietly after taking my medicine when the doorbell rang. No one was there, but I dragged my tired body over to the door and it was the author.

윤여주

Author, why did you come here?

김석진

You said you were sick. I bought some porridge. Have you eaten?

윤여주

Author...! Why, all of a sudden?

김석진

All the neighbors will hear. Can I come in?

I had no choice. I reluctantly let the author in, and he naturally went into the kitchen and placed the porridge on the table.

김석진

Have you eaten?

윤여주

I didn't eat...

김석진

Sit down. It's freshly bought, so it'll be delicious.

윤여주

Author, why are you telling me this now?

김석진

I told you I liked you. I wasn't saying this drunk, I meant it.

윤여주

Don't you think I'm being selfish? When I said I liked you so much, no, just a day ago. You were so cold to me, so how can you suddenly change like this?

윤여주

Is it okay if the author just comes here and says he likes it? Did you think I'd like it if you just came to my house out of the blue and bought me some porridge?

윤여주

You don't know how much I struggled and cried trying to win your heart.

김석진

Calm down... It hurts... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for only thinking about myself.

윤여주

The author... is really selfish.

The author remained silent for a moment, not responding to my words. My breathing became rapid and my eyes hot, perhaps because I had let out all my pent-up emotions.

The author looked down at me for a long time with a guilty expression on his face.

김석진

I'm so sorry. For doing this now, and for all the hardships I've caused you...

김석진

Even when I tried to be honest about my feelings, I never realized I'd hurt the curator. I was short-sighted...

윤여주

I've already been deeply hurt by the author, and it'll take time for those wounds to heal. I'm also very tired now.

윤여주

I... am really tired...

My throat tightened as I spoke, and I couldn't continue. Tears flowed without me realizing it. The author saw my tears and tried to approach me, but I held him back with my hand.

김석진

What can I do for you...? How can I make you feel better, Curator?

윤여주

I wish you could just leave for today. I can't stand seeing your face, author...

김석진

...Okay. I'll eat it while it's still warm. I'll wait for your call...

So the author opened the door and left. With the sound of the door closing, the house fell silent again.

I wiped away my tears and sighed deeply. In the midst of the emotional turmoil, only complex emotions remained where the author had left.

I felt like I needed some time to myself. Even if I were to face the author in this state, I knew I'd just keep repeating the things that upset me.

And, only after that time had passed would I be able to face all these confusing emotions and even acknowledge the author's heart.

[ Two days later ]

This was my first time taking annual leave. I needed some time alone to gather my thoughts and feelings, along with my poor physical condition. Two days was enough to recover both physically and mentally.

Of course, I was honest with Yoongi and sorted everything out. I thought continuing to see him would be rude and hurt another person.

And, my feelings towards the author have already been sorted out.

💬 Author, are you free today?

김석진

💬 Long time no see. Any time today is fine.

윤여주

💬 Then, would you like to meet up at the cafe across from the bar at 7 o'clock?

김석진

💬 Okay, good. See you later.

I wondered what the author was feeling right now. I hoped he wasn't feeling unnecessarily excited. I was afraid he might get hurt...

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