I'm bullied
14. Memories that come to mind from time to time
서은광
You worked hard today.. Now do whatever you want.. Tomorrow is a day off.
이민혁
Wow~~Changseop..Shall we go shopping? Tomorrow? I'll buy you something delicious..
이창섭
Ah.. I'm a little tired... Can I decide when I wake up tomorrow?
이민혁
Okay... tell me tomorrow morning
육성재
Me? Me too..buy me something delicious...why..only hyung..(sulking)
이민혁
Yeah..our pretty youngest one, let's go too..haha
육성재
Wow~~~It's delicious..ㅎㅎ
이창섭
I'm tired so I'll go in first..^^
서은광
Yeah...get some rest...
이창섭
I'm tired.. Should I wash up and go to sleep?
I wash up and go straight to bed.
이창섭
..Zzzzzzz...
1 hour later
이창섭
Oh, no... don't... oh, go away...
이창섭
evil...
Changseob wakes up from a nightmare
이창섭
Sob sob sob... How long are you going to suffer? ㅜㅠ Changseob, come to your senses..
이창섭
I can't stand it... It's hard, sob sob.
Changseop taking a cutter knife from the drawer
Cut your wrist.
Blood slowly flows where the sword passes, one line at a time, two lines at a time.
이창섭
It's pretty.
Changseop stares at his bleeding wrist and sheds tears.
at that time..
dripping
이민혁
Changseob... I want to eat dinner!!! Huh?!?!? Blood!!!!!
Minhyuk, who discovered Changseop bleeding, screamed in surprise and approached him.
이민혁
What is this? Why? Eun-kwang, a towel bandage!!!! The medicine box.. Hurry up
서은광
Why...why the medicine chest?
Eun-kwang, startled by Min-hyuk's voice, runs over with a towel and medicine box.
서은광
What the...what's wrong with you...
임현식
What's wrong? Huh? Are you okay, hyung?
Minhyuk then discovered the knife in Changseop's hand.
이민혁
You!!! Did you hurt yourself? Why? Why did you do that?
이창섭
Just...those kids who went to jail keep coming up in my dreams...brother...I'm really going to die...sob sob...
이창섭
Every night I have nightmares... They're chasing me... My older brothers and younger brothers can't see me... No matter how much I scream for help and try to get closer, they won't come near me... Even though I can see the members looking for me
이창섭
The space between me and the members is blocked, so they pass by without seeing me... It's so painful
이창섭
They grab me and drag me by my hair, but my brothers can't see me... It's so painful... When I hurt myself, I feel like I'm alive... I like it... I feel like I'm alive... Sob sob
이민혁
Why...why...didn't you tell me sooner...why...sob sob
Before we knew it, everyone had entered Changseop's room... and everyone was crying after hearing Changseop's confession-like sobs...
서은광
Oh... Let's treat it first... Give me a hand...
During the treatment process, several wounds that had not yet healed were discovered.
육성재
This... isn't it like that today... I've been suffering like this alone... ㅠㅠ
이창섭
I'm sorry... for being in this country...
서은광
What's wrong with you, Changseob? Your seniors like you and everyone who sees you compliments you, saying you're cute and talented.
서은광
You are so precious to us. We can't do without you. You understand. Now, let's share a room with someone else. Let's get some counseling.
이민혁
Yeah..let's share..my room is big so it's okay for two people to share..and make sure the room is bright too..
이민혁
We were relieved to see you smiling and being active after that incident, but we didn't know you were struggling alone like this.
이민혁
Trust us a little more.. We will always protect you.. We will always be on your side..
이창섭
Yeah..thank you..I should have told you sooner..I couldn't tell you because I felt like that incident alone was a nuisance..
임현식
We're all members and we're family... Don't do that again... Okay? In that sense, shall we sleep together today?
프니엘
I want to sleep too
정일훈
me too
육성재
me too
서은광
Then me too
이민혁
me too
이창섭
Hahaha..how can we sleep together..it's too small
이민혁
Let's all sleep together in the living room..
서은광
It'll be okay if you push the sofa away and clean everything up.
임현식
Then we'll go out and make some space. When I call you guys later, come out..^^
이민혁
okay..
Puniilhun Seongjae follows Hyunsik
이창섭
I'm sorry.. I won't do it again.
서은광
Yeah... you just don't have to do it again...
이민혁
Luckily, I'm wearing long sleeves, so I won't be seen on camera. Let's get some secret counseling later. I'll prepare it.
이창섭
Okay..okay..
30 minutes later~ Hyunsik calls from the living room
임현식
Come out, guys.. I even laid out the blankets~~
이민혁
Okay... let's go...
이창섭
Yeah.. (hugs his pillow and goes out)
작가♥
I'm a writer.. I was bullied in the past too.. The so-called kids I used to hang out with would swear at me like they were men.. and if I asked them about it, they would laugh at me.. There was no physical bullying, but I was mentally exhausted..
작가♥
Fortunately, I had good friends by my side, so I was able to overcome it with difficulty, but I still have the hangover syndrome, so I can feel that they are very cautious and intimidated when I speak.
작가♥
There was a kid who really hated me, and for no reason at all, I had to become the subject of gossip.
작가♥
Even now, years later, I still think about it sometimes... Yes
작가♥
At the time, I really wanted to die.. I was so scared that I just tried. But I did try.. Even now, when things are okay, I sometimes think about it.. Bullying is an act that kills a person's body and soul.. I hope you all don't experience that and live in peace..
작가♥
It was just the writer's hesitation... As I write, I'm reminded of the old days...