"Is this what you came here to adopt?" [Hiatus]

[Important Notice] Please read carefully.

Hello. I am a writer.

The reason I'm posting this notice is because I'm going to take a short break.

I have been suffering from extreme stress since I was in the 4th grade of elementary school.

4th grade? Yes, that's quite young.

But maybe because I was younger back then, the scars were even more deeply etched in my heart.

I started crying more often at night and started having extreme thoughts.

At first I thought it would gradually get better

But my depression and mental illness grew bigger and bigger, and now I'm in my first year of middle school, which means I'm 14 years old.

I can't even sleep well these days. In a word, I have insomnia.

I stay up all night every night, and I only get 2 or 1 hour of sleep.

The night has become a difficult existence for me.

Besides that, I can't concentrate on studying at all.

My self-esteem has also dropped a lot.

I've been holding back for about three and a half years.

Because of the hope that things will get better soon

I've been running this far with just that thought in mind

I wanted to tell someone about my pain and wounds, but I just couldn't find the courage.

A weird kid who thinks about suicide, a crazy bitch, a psychopath

I was so scared that you would look at me like this.

I thought that it would be better to die than to live, that every day was terrible.

But last week I cried and told my parents

I'm having a hard time, please save me

My parents were silent for a moment.

I was so afraid of that short, one-minute silence.

I really feel like I've become a weird person

But, contrary to my expectations, my parents hugged me and offered words of comfort.

It wasn't just a simple encouragement, but a genuine consideration of my feelings.

So now I am receiving counseling at a psychiatric clinic in a university hospital.

You said I had some serious depression.

Honestly, it was hard to accept at first

No, I think I was just really surprised.

I thought slowly, what should I do now?

I wondered if I could really rest.

As a result, I think I need a lot of rest right now.

So... I'm going to take a break for a little while.

No, it might not be a moment, it might take quite a while.

I haven't even finished the story of Yeoju's past yet, and I feel so sorry to the readers.

I don't know when this wound will heal, but I will greet you again later with a brighter appearance.

I'm sorry again, and thank you.

작가아닌 자까☆

See you again later😊