Jung Ho-seok (J-Hope) short story collection
My weather is you
Weather on 2/15: Happy.
As I watched you running towards me, smiling prettily and saying “Mister~” as usual, it felt like spring.
The warm sunlight is your smile, you are as pretty as cherry blossoms, and the birds flying are your gestures.
Just having you by my side made me feel a sense of comfort and warmth, as if spring was only for me.
That was so good that I was happy.
2/17 Weather: gloomy.
As always, I worked from home and picked him up when it was time to finish work.
I checked the time, put on some clothes, and drove to Hwahyanggo. I saw 00 coming out the front gate. I called out to him happily.
정호석
"00~!"
000
"Hey, sir~!"
As always, she greeted me with a pretty smile. But today, her complexion looked a bit off, and I was worried.
정호석
"00, where are you sick today? Your complexion..."
000
"It's okay~ I just slept late last night."
호석
"You're not really sick, are you?"
000
"Hey~ Did this old man live his life being fooled? I told you I'm not sick~ㅡ3ㅡ"
정호석
"Haha, okay kid~ Okay, let's go~"
I asked just in case, but she said it was okay, so I gave up and took her home. After watching her go in, I headed home. I had an uneasy feeling the whole way there, so I decided to ask again next time.
Those dangerous fallen leaves seem to be watching us.
Weather on 2/24: Strange.
Today, I went to the amusement park with 00 for the first time in a while. Normally, he would have been jumping around happily, but today he seemed to be in pain.
As I entered the amusement park, 00 suddenly sat down holding his chest. I thought something big was wrong and approached him in a panic, but he smiled and said to me.
호석
"00!!"
000
"Whew... Mister, my heart aches because I want to eat ice cream~"
호석
"..This guy's heart is racing... Don't play around like that.."
000
"Okay~ㅋㅋㅋ"
After feeling a little relieved, I bought some ice cream and went to the amusement park with 00. He's not usually the type of kid to play around like that, but something felt a little off today.
Because it feels like it would crumble in an instant if I touched it.
February 28: I'm sick
07:00 PM
Suddenly, I got a call from Seokjin hyung.
Rrrrrrr~..
정호석
"hello?"
김석진
"Hoseok, come to the hospital right now. I'll tell you the details here."
Seokjin-hyung hung up after telling me to hurry and run to the hospital.
I was just going to ignore it, but suddenly a person flashed through my mind, so I put on a coat and drove to the hospital that Seokjin hyung runs.
호석
"..Surely..00...? Please.."
I walked faster and headed towards the hospital.
정호석
"brother"
김석진
"Oh, you're here? There's that kid you're dating."
정호석
"If it's our little one...000?"
김석진
"Oh, that kid..."
호석
"..."
김석진
"He has a chronic illness in his heart... and it seems he didn't tell anyone about it due to family circumstances... He had surgery urgently, but... I think tonight is... Jung Ho-seok..!"
I sat down without even hearing what my brother had to say. It hurt like I had been stabbed deep in my chest.
Weather for February 28, 2020: I'm sad, I'm sick, I miss you.
After you died, I lived so tenaciously that I didn't even know how I lived, and I couldn't forget you.
..My weather was only you, and after you left, my weather has remained the same.
호석
"..As expected..It hurts..."
호석
"00..yes..I still regret it..so much...If only I had noticed a little sooner and kept asking questions and even forcefully dragged you to the hospital..would you be by my side right now...?"
After wiping away the tears that were flowing with my hand, I left the bouquet of tulips that 00 liked and thought as I left the place.
I miss you so much, you're so innocent and pure, even though you're stupid. I wish you could change my weather again... Always... by my side, no matter how long...
호석
"..I miss you...00.."