Just let me love you

Episode 8 | A Flower in the Dry Land

- "Don't come to me."

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- ···Okay, I'll just listen.

"Just Let Me Love You"_Episode 8

Recommended songs to listen to while reading this episode:)💨 The Weekend's Die for You/Jungkook's Paper Hearts cover/V's Stigma

- "I had so much to say earlier."

- "I thought about it a lot and thought about it."

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- ······.

- "Sorry······."

The silence lasted for a moment, and a single word from a voice that was sobbing that it was almost hoarse pierced Taehyung's ears.

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- I'm so sorry...

I avoided you because I didn't know what to say. What I had to say to you was_

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- That's all...

Was the apology right?

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- I thought it would hurt you

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- I am···.

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- I guess I was the only one thinking about it.

I didn't want you to catch me crying. I covered my mouth with one hand, trying to stop it somehow.

I hoped you didn't know what my situation was like right now.

- "Don't be sorry_"

- "I did nothing wrong."

Every time I let my guard down, I almost burst into tears at the sound of your voice on the other end of the phone, but I barely held it back and continued speaking.

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- ···There's no choice

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- That was the situation.

As soon as the words left my mouth, I heard you sobbing, as if in sorrow. You tried to hide it from me, but I couldn't help but notice you.

I wish I could go to you right now.

But even if I approached you, I was afraid that we would become more distant than we are now, so I just stopped thinking about it.

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- You don't have to say that.

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- Because I understand.

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- How have you been, sister?

- "Yeah... I wasn't any different..."

I thought maybe if I changed the subject, you'd stop crying. And at that one reply, I smiled bitterly, if only for a moment.

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- thank god.

I hope you've been doing well,

thank god.

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-······Sister.

- "huh······."

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- If I had caught it then

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- Did you still leave, Sister?

To others, it may seem like the two people are continuing their conversation as if nothing happened, but

Now he's practically talking to her, as if he's afraid this conversation will ever end.

- "···Yeah_ That's probably it, nothing has changed."

It would have been better. If your answer had been, 'I wouldn't have done that,' I would have been_

Because you desperately wanted that time to come again.

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- ···why?

- "At that time, I was busy taking care of myself."

- "···But"

- "If it were me now, I don't think I would have left."

That one word can make a person's heart ache.

People,

Even in a dry and drought-stricken land, if only one drop of water is given,

If you believe that flowers will bloom.

Even though you know full well that the flower will not bloom, you harbor a cruel, self-destructive hope.

Like your single word, like a drop of water.

- "Too late_"

- "I think I've figured out who you are."

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- If I were who I am now,

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- ···It would have been nice if that had been the case.

At least it would have been a different ending than the one we have now. There couldn't have been an ending as miserable for both of us as this.

Even if it wasn't splendid and pretty, wouldn't it have been better than what we have now?

- "······."

After I finished speaking, you didn't say anything.

Only after a long silence did you speak first.

- "······Sister."

At the same time, your voice softly rang in my head.

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- huh_

- "I···."

- "More than I thought..."

- "I guess I was very sincere to you, sister..."

- "Even though I know it's not right every time I say it_"

- "I keep wishing that our relationship would be like before."

- "···just"

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- I miss you···.

I couldn't control my emotions at all. As I poured out my heart, tears came out faster than words.

Now I feel the same way I did 7 years ago

I feel it.

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- ha···.

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- Really too···.

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- I just feel like it was all my fault.

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- Why did we end up like this?

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- I don't know······.

The tears that were constantly flowing down his cheeks gradually soaked his sleeves.

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- If you appear in front of me even once,

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- I thought you really had a lot to say...

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- When I saw it today

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- I have nothing to say...

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- I feel so pathetic like this...

The way he continued speaking sadly, breathing heavily, reminded me of how he had been seven years ago.

- "···That was sad."

- "Taehyung."

- "You know..."

- "But don't cry so sadly."

- "It was like that in the past, and it's like that now_"

- "Every time I see you like this, I feel so weak. I... heh"

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- ······.

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- ······ha.

Was he listening to her, his head down and his breathing labored?

Taehyung unconsciously raises his head at the sound coming from in front of him.

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-······Taehyung···.

As the door opened, you, with your eyes reddened like mine, walked out with your long hair down.

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······Taehyung···.

Surprised, you just blinked your eyes in place, unaware that the tears that had been clinging to your eyelashes were running down your cheeks.

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You cried too, sister.

The phone that was against your ear slowly lowered, and as soon as he saw you, his mind involuntarily went blank.

The choice I made was,

Come closer to you_

Just hugging you.

I hugged you, feeling your unique, soft, and warm body scent after a long time_ I hugged you even tighter, feeling you smaller than before.

In case you leave me again.

++ Let's overcome the Monday blues, everyone :) I hope my post helped you a little bit🤍