Light in my Dark

CHAPTER 32

08:00 AM

THE NEXT DAY

Soohee

Mooom~ I'm going to see Aunt Sooyeon.

Mom

Are you going alone?

Soohee

Yes. I'm going to borrow Seungmin's car.

Seungmin

You didn't asked me yet.

Soohee

Can I borrow your car? Yes? Thank you!

Seungmin

I haven't answered yet!

Soohee

You're going to agree anyway so yeah...byeee~

Soomi

Soohee! Don't leave again!

Soohee

I'll be back later Soomi~ Don't worry. I won't be long.

Soomi

Okay!

I remembered aunt Sooyeon's offer this morning when I woke up so I'm going to see her now. I need to talk to her as well...

While driving, I thought about Chan. I haven't called him again yet, and so as Innie. I should probably do, after visiting eonnie.

Chan usually gets so mad when he's jealous. I'm really surprised when he just left the other day instead of causing a scene.

Now that I think about it, he changed too. Back then, he will make sure to show that he's jealous, which leads us into arguments but then

well make up by finding a private room and mess around.

Ugh. I shouldn't think about that right now. I feel like I'm betraying Han already by reminiscing my past memories with Chan even though

there's nothing wrong with relieving old memories. I thought Chan and I had a perfect relationship...then everything went wrong, just

because he's leaving and an argument that didn't had to happen in the first place...

I finally arrived and walked inside. I found eonnie waiting for me and she walked towards me with a hug.

Sooyeon

Oh Soohee~ Are you okay?

Soohee

Umm. Yes? Do I look pale or something?

Sooyeon

Oh no. You don't look pale. Listen, I'm sorry if I pushed you into modeling again, I shouldn't have.

Soohee

It's okay eonnie. I might take it. I don't want to turn you down again.

Sooyeon

Are you sure? Well, I'm sure it's easier for you now...since Chan can't take the opportunity anymore since he's leaving again..

My breath hitched and I looked at eonnie with my eyes ready to pop out of my face..

Soohee

W-what? What do you mean...l-leave?

Sooyeon

Oh now you're pale..Soohee keep it together

Eonnie supported my arms and guided me into a chair, kneeling down in front of me and holding my hands..

Sooyeon

Don't tell me...he didn't told you??

Soohee

Eonnie...please get to the point..

Sooyeon

Chan's moving back to Australia..

Your POV

I can't believe it... he's leaving just like that again? Without talking to me?

I stood up and tried to walk but my knees are so weak. Those flashback and running across my mind again...when he left...

When I found their house empty...

When I tried to call him...

When I arrived the airport too late...

And all those things he said that night...

Soohee

When did he say...when is he leaving?

Sooyeon

He said he'll leave tonight..Okay you don't look so good, stay there and I'll call your brother okay?

Eonnie walked away and my phone started ringing... it's Innie calling...

I held my phone with both hands as I answered because I'm about to freak out on what Innie is about to say..

Soohee

He-hello?

Jeong In

Eonnie! Please go after him please!

Soohee

What? Wha--

Jeong In

He locked my room! He left! You can still catch up please stop him from leaving!

Chan's leaving now??

I quickly ran outside and and started the car...no way Chan is leaving things like this again.

I'm driving as fast as I can on my way to the airport. I can feel my blood boiling. Chan is acting so stubborn just because of jealousy!

I can't help myself but to dial his phone number...

"The number you have dialed cannot be reached..."

Soohee

Ugghh! Chan! Pick up you--

I dialed again...and again...

Then my phone slipped through my grasp..

I reached for it down...not minding where I was going anymore, and as I got it and returned my eyes on the road...I was on the wrong lane...

Just seconds away into crashing with the car ahead of me...

The last thing I heard was the sound of a loud beep and two cars crashing...

FLASHBACK

Your POV

Chan asked me to meet him at our usual place in the park. I wonder if he's up to something...I smiled to myself as I got near, and finally

Your POV

saw Chan in our seat, looking at the ground...

Your POV

As I got closer, he looked up, and I saw his eyes were red...

Soohee

Chan?? What happened?

Your POV

He walked towards me and wrapped me in a tight hug...

Bang Chan

I'm sorry Soohee...I should've told you sooner I'm sorry...

Soohee

Are you cheating on me?!

Your POV

Chan crashed his lips on mine, making me forget what I said...He started kissing me passionately and I couldn't do anything but to kiss him

back...But I couldn't help but feel that something is wrong. He slowly pulled away, and he just looked at me with pain hurt written all over

his eyes. I don't know what's going on, but I just held his face and looked at him straight..

Soohee

Chan... what's wrong? Talk to me...

Bang Chan

I thought I could make them change their mind...

Soohee

Who?

Bang Chan

My parents... we're leaving Soohee. We're... moving to Australia..

Your POV

I must've heard him wrong...and I find it suddenly hard to breathe..

Soohee

If you're pranking me again... it's not funny Chan.

Bang Chan

I won't lie about this Soohee.

Your POV

I stared at him...still not processing what he said. He looked serious...and I can't accept the fact that he'll leave.

Soohee

You're telling me this now? When will you leave?

Bang Chan

I should've told you sooner... we're leaving tomorrow. I was afraid of this. I know you won't accept--

Soohee

I would've been fine if you told me sooner! So I could've prepared for this...and you're telling me I can't see you anymore tomorrow?!

Anger is all I could think about, and I'm shaking mad.

Soohee

You can't leave me. You can't leave tomorrow.

Bang Chan

I can't do anything about it. Our flight is tomorrow..

Soohee

You're leaving just like that?!

Bang Chan

Soohee...

Chan tried to pull me into a hug but I can't let him touch me right now or I'll do something I might regret..

Soohee

If you were in my place, what would you feel? Huh? Do you think I can handle that you're leaving tomorrow!?

Bang Chan

I was afraid to tell you! If you're going to be that stubborn then we should probably break up right now.

Soohee

Now you want to break up as well? You're killing me twice Chan!

Please tell me something that will comfort me...please...I just need you to--

Bang Chan

Don't be weak...you can go on with your life without me.

I don't know if I'm crying out of hurt or anger anymore..

Soohee

Are you serious right now? Instead of making things better--

Bang Chan

Nothing will make this better. Do me a favor and just accept this.

Soohee

Chan, you can't possibly think that I'll accept this! I lo--

Bang Chan

Don't. Say it.

I don't know what to say. I just stared at him, crying my eyes out, and he's not comforting me the way he should..

I stepped forward...just wanting to hug him, but he steps backward.

Bang Chan

I won't be able to leave if you're closer to me...

Soohee

Chan please let's fix this..you can leave without breaking up with me!

Bang Chan

Long distance relationships don't last long Soohee. It's better if we break up now, where we can see each other one last time..

Soohee

One last-- You're not coming back?

Bang Chan

I don't think so. Our family will settle there... there's no reason for me to comeback here

Soohee

I-- I'm not a reason? You don't count me as one?

Bang Chan

Even if I might comeback, we would've probably moved on...

He's hopeless...

Soohee

Don't talk to me...ever again...

Bang Chan

I'll be fine...

I walked away without looking back...

And he didn't even stopped me...

And I regretted it the next day...

I won't let it happen again...