Magic Shop

[Seokjin Card] Fix you (1) - Request from Lee Yul

Wheeing-

A cold wind passed by, hitting my face.

Rooftop of a five-story residential building.

Lee Yul put both arms around the end and looked down.

이율

........

A cold floor that feels like a gaping mouth of darkness.

Today too, like this. Just like this. I just look.

Only after his hands and ears were so cold that they were freezing did Lee Yul put his small hands together, blew on them to warm them, and then turned around.

The only person sitting alone in the noisy classroom is Lee Yul.

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It's been months since I've said a word at school.

It's been months since I last ate alone.

I may have spent some time just resting in a daze.

It's been several months.

A boy leaves trash on the desk where Lee Yul is sitting absentmindedly.

"Hey, throw this away."

Then, four or five boys followed suit, giggling as if it was fun, and threw trash onto the desk.

"Hey, throw this away for me too."

"Huh? Is this a trash can?? LOL"

"Huh? Is this where you throw away trash? LOL"

Lee Yul, who was looking down at his desk, which had become cluttered, got up without saying a word and gathered up the trash.

The few steps I take while carrying the trash that was left behind in my arms are too heavy.

A gaze that is fixed with pity.

There was even a sound of laughter as if it was fun.

all.

All of them.

It's creepy.

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I'm back.....

I spoke for the first time as I entered the empty house.

Her days were always so quiet.

Talking alone. Answering alone. Thinking alone. Eating alone.

Sometimes I wonder what the problem was, where it started, but I can't quite figure it out.

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......

Do you not like people because you don't smile much?

I went into my room, took off my bag, and stood looking in the mirror.

I awkwardly raised the corners of my lips and tried to smile.

As expected.

It's awkward.

I think it's dislike.

Lee Yul, who returned with a blank expression, took out a magic wand and painted the mirror black.

I hate seeing my face.

I went to the kitchen and opened the pot, and there was mold on the soybean paste stew that had been left for several days.

Frowning, he took it to the sink, put on rubber gloves, turned on the water, and washed it off.

Lee Yul, who was wondering what to eat in the empty refrigerator, closed the door and came in and sat down at the desk.

All her time.

It's always like this. It's so quiet.

My stomach growled a few times because I was hungry, and then my dad came home late at night.

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Welcome back.

Dad just nods without saying anything and hands me a large plastic bag.

Seeing the bags full of ramen and instant food, Lee Yul carefully placed the food in the refrigerator.

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Dad, what about dinner?!

"I ate."

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ah.......

"I'm going out again."

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......yes.

My mother passed away in an accident when I was young, and my father is currently dating another woman.

Is it a secret that I have a daughter? Or does that woman hate me?

I don't know, but my dad often buys side dishes late at night 2-3 times a week and comes home the next day.

At first it was about once a week, but lately it's been happening more frequently.

Dad, who washed and changed clothes without much conversation, hurriedly left the house.

"Can you be alone?"

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......yes.

"Come tomorrow."

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yes.

Bang.

At the sound of the iron door closing.

My heart also pounded.

I feel closed.

Late at night, with almost no people around.

Somewhere in the transition to dawn.

The rooftop door opened quietly and Lee Yul came in, holding his fluttering hair in his hands.

Today I stood quietly in the same spot where I always stood and looked down.

My life... will it always be this quiet?

Am I going to be alone like this forever?

What should I do to change it?

Where should I start anew to change?

Wouldn't it be better for Dad if I disappeared?

Even if I'm not there at school, it won't be noticeable.

I took a deep breath and looked down.

Let's take courage.

Courage.

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Sigh!!!!

It was a moment when I closed my eyes and bent my knees slightly as if I was about to jump.

Someone's hand.

He held Lee Yul's wrist warmly.

김석진

What are you doing?

이율

........

김석진

What are you trying to do?

That day.

That hand.

Those eyes.

One word from that person.

Saved my life.

[Magic Shop] - Lee Yul's request has been received.

※Name has been requested to be changed from “Ayoung” to Lee Yul.

[Author's Note] I wrote this while listening to the cover song "Fix You"! It's so good ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Really, BTS is the best ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ It'll probably be better if you read it while listening to it(?) haha

How did you sing this song at such a perfect time??? Do you happen to watch Magic Shop? Did you share your schedule with me?? Haa..... Thank you so much BTSㅠㅠㅠㅠ