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Episode 31] Guilty Pleasure

_In a cold room.

At some point, someone came into the room where the warmth of people had disappeared.

백시혜

.......

He walked slowly, turned on the light, and then sat down on the bed. It was a perfectly natural movement, as if he had always done it.

Doo do ...

Doo do ...

백시혜

...?

백시혜

- hello?

필요한역/??

- ....uh,ah, that.. young lady..!

백시혜

- Sir? What's going on?

필요한역/??

- .....That.. That, that...

백시혜

- ...

Her voice was curt, as if she had received an unpleasant call.

..but it was clear that his eyes were wandering around without being able to focus on one place.

필요한역/??

- ..That, last time... the thing you asked me to do.

백시혜

- That..? ...What, did it come out?

필요한역/??

- That... that's true, but... it's a little difficult...

백시혜

- What is it?

필요한역/??

- .....

필요한역/??

- If a lawsuit is filed, they say legal action is possible. That's...

백시혜

- ........

Si-hye's voice trembled as if she was hesitating about something, and she didn't even respond to his voice coming through the receiver.

It was as if she had fully anticipated something like this, or even if she hadn't known, it was like a silent hint that she wouldn't change her decision.

백시혜

- I told you I would take responsibility for everything.

백시혜

- I'll make sure your hands don't get dirty. Do you think I can't do that?

필요한역/??

- ...But... Miss.......

백시혜

- Why should I be judged? I think I have a right to know.

필요한역/??

- ,.......

필요한역/??

- .....

I could hear a moment of hesitation on the other end of the line at her firm attitude.

And Si-hye just looks at her own hands on her knees without any emotional disturbance.

..Suddenly her lips curled slightly and then opened.

백시혜

- ...At least Jungkook... isn't that kind of person.

백시혜

- The person I know is someone who knows his place well.

백시혜

- ....I just want to find a stopgap measure that will be on my side..

필요한역/??

- .........

필요한역/??

- ...yes,

백시혜

- Please continue.

백시혜

- ..anything, until it comes out

필요한역/??

- all right.

백시혜

........

Stop

Thump-

The phone call was disconnected.

...and

Swish

Swish_

백시혜

((biting my thumbnail

She was muttering something while holding her trembling hands.

...I cast my hopes into the calm sea, hoping that someone would understand my heart.

'' ..hmm..... ''

''It's been quite a while. A... a month?''

''Did you sleep well, Yose?''

전정국

.......

A treatment room filled with generous wood-toned furniture, perhaps giving off a sense of alienation.

There, Jeong-guk is sitting across from a doctor who has a mature and mature air about him.

전정국

...It's been a while, Doctor... haha

''This is a face that doesn't look like it's been slept well... .. Did you run out of medicine? ''

전정국

It's medicine.. haha.. what... ((He scratches the back of his head as if embarrassed

전정국

...Actually, I came here to do that too.

'' ....... ''

'' ....Is there anything else that's difficult? ..like something you can't say,''

전정국

.......

전정국

....Yes..? Haha...

전정국

Well... is life easy.. haha.. I just live like that..

'' Haha... really... Jeon Jungkook is still the same. ''

전정국

...yes.....?

''Just talk, don't hesitate''

전정국

......

전정국

..Somehow, living like this is becoming too much. Honestly......

The hands clasped together under the deeply bowed head gained strength.

전정국

...Not long ago, I had a little argument with my wife.

전정국

I... It's really hard for me to live alone, but I feel like the people around me are only looking at me.

전정국

........

전정국

...Actually, it's so hard.......

전정국

Anywhere, at any moment... I feel like I'm going to die from suffocation.

'' ........ ''

전정국

.....For the first time, I thought I had found someone I could lean on.

전정국

I thought I had kept the line in my own way...

전정국

..now...haha that's becoming unclear too.

전정국

But, the more I do that, the more I don't want to let go. ....I honestly hate myself for being like this.

전정국

........

''It must have been hard for you... with all your worries...''

전정국

Ha.....he

전정국

......((The corners of my mouth are trembling slightly.

"Jungkook, do you know what a guilty pleasure is?"

''I told you before about the good kid syndrome.''

전정국

.....yes,

'' ..Guilty pleasure is defined as an act that makes me feel a kind of guilt when I do it or think about it, but at the same time I feel pleasure.''

''Perhaps... I think this is what Jeongguk feels after hearing the story just now...''

전정국

.......

Suddenly, this thought occurred to me.

...I'm enjoying this..?

Reason and emotion were mixed together, creating a strange feeling.

Can't this be fixed...? Am I that hopeless?

전정국

......

전정국

...Then, is there a way to minimize this kind of thing...

''No, in terms of modern medicine''

전정국

ah.......

''This is purely a matter of Jeongguk's mindset. Depending on what he thinks,''

'' .....That guilt can become too much... or it can disappear. So... only joy or satisfaction remains.''

전정국

........

Can I overcome this?

I started to wonder if I was overreacting to things that other people felt were nothing special.

...Honestly, saying I'm not scared is also a lie. ..Can I really relieve that guilt?

Rather, I was filled with worry and anxiety that I would be called out for it and flounder around there.

전정국

..then.....

''First, I'll prescribe you the medication you always take. Tranquilizers and things like that...''

전정국

.....

전정국

Thank you.... hehe,

'' ...... ''

'' ...Take your time. And get some rest,''

''If you keep doing that, you might not be able to have a real social life.''

전정국

..Ah...hehe, but still, I know how to adjust to that extent....

'' ........ ''

''Actually, if I may add a little more... I wish you hadn't kept it.''

'' ...don't let things like stress build up for no reason,''

'' ...don't let things like stress build up for no reason,''

전정국

....

정국 / 모

.....

전정국

ha....

....Stress... heh..Where on earth does the concept of stress end?

I want to know clearly, what I should avoid.

전정국

....How did you get here,

정국 / 모

How dare you come! ..Is that all you have to say when you see your mother?

전정국

......

전정국

...Right now...it seems a little difficult to talk. Let's go now.

정국 / 모

Where are you going?

정국 / 모

I got a call from my in-laws. Huh?

전정국

........

정국 / 모

Have you heard any plans for children?

정국 / 모

...Does Mom have to hear things like this in her lifetime?

전정국

ha......

Jungkook sighed deeply and ran his hand through his hair.

I try to suppress my rising anger, but honestly, it's not that easy.

정국 / 모

Let's go to the hospital. Mom, I can't wait any longer.

정국 / 모

If this keeps up, I'll really get screwed and die first! Huh? You're a kid.....!

전정국

I'm on my way back from the mental hospital right now.

정국 / 모

....what...?

전정국

..haha, you wouldn't have known. Speaking... no, I wasn't interested in the first place.

정국 / 모

N, where did you go...?

전정국

It's this building... It's been about two years since I've been here.

전정국

........

전정국

If you weren't interested in your son's life in the first place, then let's keep it that way until the end.

전정국

..Stop digging around for nothing and just do what you were doing.

정국 / 모

.....huh, huh...!

전정국

...whoosh.......

전정국

Then this,

Jungkook showed his best response to her with his expression unchanged.

As I was turning my head and walking in the opposite direction,

Snap

Snap-

전정국

......,!

정국 / 모

...((Grabs his hand.

정국 / 모

Wait, you...!

widely

widely-

전정국

Roughly shakes off the hand))

전정국

Please, just do it!

전정국

......

slap

slap-

전정국

.........

정국 / 모

......

정국 / 모

...Uh......Huh...?

In fact, perhaps this was an expected outcome.

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..

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