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[Episode 41] Lovelorn <3>

My mom is sick.

Did something that was planned from the beginning happen without any filtering?

My mother's illness, which I faced calmly, was not as shocking as I thought.

Rather, it was good that I could leave home under that pretext and stay in my mother's hospital room.

You could say that it's creepy to see me just passing things by without any emotion or suffering,,

Those are just stories told by people who have never lived my life.

A small, old-fashioned air purifier in a clean white room with nothing else.

A blue comforter that looked like an old blanket and a pure white comforter cover without any wrinkles.

I thought there should be at least one flower in the monotonous hospital room, so I brought in a flowerpot and the yellow tulips I had picked seemed to create some kind of dissonance.

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..ugh....((He crumples his face and bends his back slightly.

And then, was it

That's when I realized that my body reacts first when I'm under stress that I can't handle.

Acute gastritis diagnosed on Sunday, the day before going to school.

Ironically, I ended up lying down in the same hospital room my mother had been in until just a moment ago.

My mother, whose health was worsening, decided that it would be better to go to the countryside rather than Seoul.

..I think it was from that time on that we started to leave home in earnest and started to live while avoiding our father.

A hospital room on a Monday morning, so quiet it was as if a mouse had died, as if my ears were ringing.

...When I start to reminisce and laugh meaninglessly, thinking, "Wow, my life has been so difficult."

Yeah, I guess I was just being childish and irresponsible back then.

On a refreshing yet somewhat lonely Monday morning, the text message my brother, who had gone down to the countryside with my mother early, contained a more impulsive decision than I had expected.

...I think I'll be able to settle down here in a few days.

If you wait here for just a week, then we can go down to the countryside and live together.

If it were now, I would have chewed over and thought about it many times, but why did those words, which would have been full of illusions, pierce my heart so much back then?

I think I agreed to those words without any hesitation, like a child.

...Was it because of the vague hope that I would no longer have to struggle in this beggarly reality?

And that hope... has brought us here...

_Meanwhile at school.

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Probably since last weekend,

Jeongguk is worried about the female lead who he can't contact.

After barely explaining to the teacher and finding out the reason for Yeoju's absence and the location of the hospital where she was hospitalized, he was thankful for the fact that he was the class president for the first time.

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.....((Cover the message window that has not yet received a reply.

Swish

Swish—

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....Yoon Yeo-ju...really,

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..He's a player who makes people worry....

It was a fact that I had already realized from the beginning that the size of love was different.

Because we reflected each other's appearances too much.

The saying that the one who loves more is the one who loses in the end has proven true once again.

And that love was eventually portrayed in reality.

When I went to the hospital, hesitantly, and came up to the hallway outside the hospital room, I found her, holding a single, dried yellow tulip in one hand, not knowing when she had come out of the room.

....I was so touched that my heart felt like it was going to burst.

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....((After taking a deep breath, he approaches the female protagonist.

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Yoon Yeo-ju..!!

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....?

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Jungkook, who had been slowly approaching her, let out a thin breath.

And the female protagonist looks at him with a bit of wonder and surprise, as well as a happy expression that she couldn't hide.

Slightly enlarged eyes and puffy cheeks.

Lips trembling slightly as if trying to say something, eyebrows arched.

Seeing all of her, Jeongguk, filled with both overflowing joy and a hint of resentment, held back the urge to hug her tightly, and grabbed her fluttering sleeve and asked.

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....Where are you going..?

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Oh, ah, I'll go outside for a moment. The tulips are all dried up, so I'm going to throw them away.

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ah....

Only then did his gaze fall on the small vase in her hand.

And the female protagonist takes advantage of that gap to ask him the question that had been on her mind.

Jungkook raised the corners of his lips and smiled comfortably in response to rather formal questions like, “How did you find me?” and “Did you have a good time?”

As I answered her question, I walked slowly across the hallway and out to a small park outside the hospital.

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Ha—it's nice here,

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...Really..? Hehe

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Why? ...You've never been here before?

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...Uh...um...yeah,

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I'm almost always in the hospital room... haha

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Smile)) Then you can watch it with me,

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But the weather today is really nice

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....((Turns his head and glances at Jeongguk

ah,

..do you know...?

What I'm thinking right now.

...If you knew, then how would you act?

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But why the tulips?

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...Huh..? ((Suddenly

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((With a wink, he points to the tulip the female protagonist is holding.

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...It was in the hospital room, and it was so dry that I was just going to throw it away.

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Why...? Aren't yellow tulips pretty? They'd look great even if they were decorated with dried flowers, wouldn't they?

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Then, if you touch it even a little, it will easily crumble... I like biochemical plants.

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Sigh)) If it's that pretty, buy me a bouquet soon... Now the vase is empty

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He flinched slightly at the sight of her smirking as she looked up at him, then turned his head away from her and looked forward.

....I'm in the hospital, so what should I do if my heart is pounding like this even though my face looks a little refreshed?

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.....((He lowers his head as he looks at Jeong-guk, whose ears are slightly red.

.......

Until then, I actually didn't know much.

Could it be because I took the feelings of someone I had never felt before too lightly?

Love, I've always thought that reality is much more important than such trivial things, and this time I firmly held that belief.

It's definitely a good memory, and we had feelings for each other, but I never took it that seriously.

...because reality was too solid to be taken seriously.

It was my selfishness to think that since I wasn't sincere, you would also just have a light love.

A little bit of arrogance and a little bit of needless swearing. I was full of arrogance and selfishness.

Even though I wrapped it like that, I felt a hollowness in my chest, and I thought it was just a little bit of guilt, so I tied it up carelessly.

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I was planning to be discharged from the hospital and go straight to the countryside when my brother came in two days.

I never thought deeply about your wounds and pain.

_Two days later

Jeobuk_

_Jeokbuk

Jeobuk_

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...((Walks down the hallway holding a baby's breath flower in one hand.

A small bouquet of baby's breath in his hand as he crosses the hallway with leisurely steps.

Actually, I was worried about the yellow tulips I couldn't buy, but... I think baby's breath would suit Yoon Yeo-ju much better.

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....((He holds the bouquet under his nose and inhales the fragrance.

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...(You won't be disappointed that it's not a yellow tulip, right? But still.....)

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(The flower's meaning was so sad.)

Jeongguk takes a deep breath in front of the hospital room that he is already familiar with.

I was a little confused because her name wasn't on the door, but I remember one time,

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....((smile

Drumroll

Drumroll—

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Yeoju

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....what is this, ((Duribeon

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Yoon Yeo-ju...?

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..Where are you? Hey, ...Yoon Yeo-ju....?!

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Yun-eung..... Ah, .. Wait.... ..No,..

Thump

Boom—

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((The bouquet of flowers he was holding fell to the floor

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....ha..

Thump

Thump–

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.....((I lean my head against the shaking train window

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lovelorn

I hope that one day I can atone for you,

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Yes..! Thank you for reading this episode.

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The fact that there are few handshakes... is actually quite bitter...

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