My gaze was always on you.
07 | You liked me, right?
김태형.
Uh... are you serious?
배주현.
Yeah, I'm serious. What about you?
I already knew Taehyung's feelings, and seeing your expression when I told you I had someone I liked reaffirmed my conviction. Because I was determined to find my own happiness, which I'd been putting off, I had no worries about being rejected.
김태형.
You... said you have someone you like.
But Taehyung's reaction wasn't as positive as I'd expected. He met my eyes, then turned his slightly bowed head to the side, his expression changing to one of confusion.
It was questionable for me to confess to him when I said I liked someone, but it was clear that Taehyung had always thought of me as his unrequited love interest who thought of him as a friend, so his reaction was perhaps natural.
배주현.
It's complicated to explain... But, I really do love you.
배주현.
And that person you like... did you force it on yourself? Do you understand..?
김태형.
No, I don't understand anything... But I like you too. I like you, but I'm not sure if this is the right situation to be in.
There are probably many parts of my confession that are difficult to readily accept. Even I, who have lived my life ignoring and hiding all my emotions, found it difficult to understand my actions.
배주현.
Yeah, right? So what about you? You like me.
김태형.
good..
The embarrassment, fearing someone might call him Kim Taehyung, was evident on his face. He lowered his flushed face and played with his increasingly reddened ears. It seemed as if he knew that his ears and face were about to burst.
배주현.
You've liked me for a long time, right?
김태형.
Yeah.. didn't you know that?
배주현.
Of course. If you notice, it's Bae Joo-hyun. How could you not know? I'll tell you everything slowly later, everything you're curious about.
There was a brief silence, then, remembering that it was school, Taehyung hurriedly turned around and tried to go into the classroom. Grabbing Taehyung's sleeve, I told him about the fight with Ji-an.
배주현.
Oh, but... I had a bit of an argument with Ji-an.
김태형.
Huh? Why?
Like a startled rabbit, his already large eyes widened even further. He had no idea how to put it into words. He couldn't say he fought over you alone. And he was afraid that saying something like that would put Ji-an in a difficult position, so he decided to phrase it in a more polished way.
배주현.
There was a bit of trouble. Just be aware of it so it doesn't get awkward later.
Even at this moment, I was thinking of Ji-an and worried that she might get in trouble. Seeing that, I realized I truly thought of Ji-an as a precious friend. If I were Ji-an, would I have told Tae-hyung why we fought?
And the reason I think you didn't say anything to this question is because it lets you know that I really care for you and watch over you a lot.
배주현.
The teacher will be here soon. Let's get ready for class.
김태형.
huh..
He must have been embarrassed that the two close friends had been fighting without his knowledge. He must have been pondering how to resolve the situation. Keeping it quiet was probably a consideration for me, so I didn't bring it up any further.
배주현.
"I don't know if what I'm doing right now is right. I'm so nervous, even though I confessed so confidently."
I really don't know what to do. What the three of us shared might not be that big of a deal. And I thought I knew everything about them, but maybe that wasn't the case. Maybe we were just showing each other a glimpse of ourselves.
There's nothing wrong with that. I've never shown my true self to the kids even once.
[Jian's point of view]
I need to break this habit of always committing and regretting mistakes. As time went on, I found it increasingly difficult to control myself, and the days I ended up doing things I regretted were increasing.
이지안.
Ha... Was that too harsh?
After Joohyun left the rooftop, many thoughts came to mind. At first, I felt wronged, wondering what I had done so wrong. Then, when I finally came to my senses, I found myself regretting it again and blaming myself. As I remembered all the wrongs I had done to Joohyun, my guilt only grew.
이지안.
No, Bae Joo-hyun is so quick-witted these days.
She knew Taehyung liked her, and even liked Taehyung herself. The fact that she was sacrificing her own feelings for her friend must mean she knew I liked Taehyung for a long time.
이지안.
Ah, I don't know. I don't know if I should apologize or not.
After gathering my thoughts, I left the rooftop and headed to the classroom. Descending the stairs one step at a time, I pondered the situation and realized I needed to apologize. But timing is so crucial in life, isn't it?
I overheard something I shouldn't have. It was vague, but I could understand the gist of it. If I hadn't heard that, I wouldn't have lost the urge to apologize.
배주현.
Taehyung, do you want to go out with me?